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I thought that I was really in love with you.
But, lately I found out that it was a temporary feeling. I never loved you. You've always left me disappointed, confused and obsessed.
Why obsessed?
Because, I have never loved you. I don't know you. I love the idea that I created of you. It's hard to realise it, in fact, I took too long to understand this. I could have ended everything since the beginning and I wouldn't have been here worrying about stupid feelings. I'm obsessed with the idea that I created of you. The you that doesn't exist. A dangerous guy, with anger issues that hates everyone except me.
And I told him: Look, I've been playing with you from the beginning and I don't love you.
I didn't talk to him from that day. But I think of him even if I don't know him. Does this have an explanation? Is there a philosopher who has got theories that are going to help me discover what I'm feeling? I've studied for years philosphy and psychology but I never seem to understand myself. I am a big mess.
I've went to different psychoanalysts but they found no way of comforting and helping me.
I've read thousands of books, specifically romance books, but do you know how bored they have made me? They annoy me now. But I continue reading them. They're full of fantasies and utopic worlds but I so believe them, I don't know how to get out of that illusion.
How do I turn off my reasoning and consciousness? I want to disappear. I want to be free. I want to live with someone that I truly love.
How do I learn how to love? Is there someone that teaches this? Are there theories or books that talk about this?
I want to know how to actually ,love someone with all my heart and to get to know that person for everything they have and possess and follow them till they die because that's what my mission needs to be. I want to be there for someone till the day I die. Is there a way to find this? Is there a way to believing in love? I'm desperate to know.
But you know what puts me in a crisis? That is understanding love. From what I've understood about myself, I am a person that views love as a love with violence and aggression, sacrificies and problems, imperfections and perfections, optimistic point of views and cosy touches, physical connection, spiritual connection, sexual touches, sweet words and harmful words that push you to hate the person you "love" and finally hating yourself for loving them.
How can I think this way? Who do I think I am? A goddess?
What if I got to know this guy and actually fell in love with him, what would really happen?
I would be desperate and heartbroken and hate myself for falling for somebody that I don't deserve and that I shouldn't waste my time with and not waste my life for neither energy. I would hate myself for falling for someone who isn't who I idealised. This is unacceptable.
I wanna be free. I wanna love someone and suffer forever. You know what I want to suffer because that's what I live for. That's how I've learnt to survive. I have been raised with violence and anger issues and problems. I need someone that treats me how I think he should treat me.
I don't know how my idealised man is. I have no idea how he is. I literally don't know. Like can you imagine that I wrote this whole story and bullshit for something that I don't really know or believe or think or reason about, oh my god I am truly crazy. I talk noonsense. I am a bullshiter and I accept it. Thank you for today.
K.M.
Kyle Ren V. Jawa So cute The kid kept touching the end of his light saber. Jawa force choke
At the Marietta College Comic-con when Steven Universe put on a Pikachu costume.
Day 7 - Amphibious the Loveland Frog man is not only a very popular folklore in the local areas, but also the Loveland mascot! First spotted in 1955 in Loveland, Ohio. The most recent sighting claimed to be 2016. Standing at 4 feet tall, this frog has festivals held in it's name on every leap year. Get it?
I relate to this on a very deep level. My grandmother is a west virginian hillbilly and I'm originally from ohio. My exes from the west coast were so confused when I used the words pop and spicket, and lost their mind when I said 'Lord love a duck!' When my hair came out looking like drunk Leia buns.
Writing Southern Accents 101
I’ve been getting a lot of requests for Keith with a southern accent (which I LIVE for)! Since I live in the southern us and have a pretty strong accent, I thought I’d give a few tips to anyone who wants to write people with a southern accent, especially someone like Keith who may not always have one.
- generally I have a proper voice, and try to keep the slang out of my words, much like Keith would had he been written with some kind of accent
- my accent really comes out when I’m angry, tired, comfortable around the people I’m talking to, or just don’t care anymore
- most accents are generally similar, but different parts of the south tend to have deeper or more pronounced accents (i.e. I’m from Tennessee, and Tennessee and Texas have IDENTICAL slang words and accents. Usually people ask if I’m from one of the two states when I’m out of town.)
- the south in America is Tennessee, Virginia and West Virginia, North and South Carolina, Kentucky, Texas, Alabama, Mississippi, Georgia, and the very upper half of Florida that borders Georgia. Otherwise Louisiana and Florida aren’t included because they have very different versions of southern culture hat aren’t stereotypical.
- If you use slang, don’t over do it. Southern slang is actually kind of complicated and doesn’t really come naturally to anyone who doesn’t use it on a daily basis.
- not everyone with an accent uses slang. People from the south almost always have an accent to people who aren’t from here, even if they can’t hear it themselves.
- We tend to clip words that end in -ing (i.e. “Fightin’, Runnin’, Walkin’)
- Some common slang used is obviously the classic “y’all”, but also “yuns” (another form of you all. ex: what are yuns doin’ over there?)
- improper grammar is a classic too. I love English and can write and speak perfectly, but sometimes I find myself saying things like “that don’t even make no sense”
- Metaphors, Hyperboles, and personifications are massive parts of southern speaking
- “It’s hotter n’ the pits of hell in here”
- ain’t is used more often than y’all
- “that ain’t even correct” “well ain’t she just sweet”
- we still use modern slang and sometimes it sounds really weird throwing slang words like “finna” in with our accents lmao
- bless your heart isn’t a compliment and if someone from the south says that to you, they probably think you’re an idiot
- people with southern accents aren’t idiots and having an accent doesn’t make them one!
If you have any more questions, feel free to ask me!
Btw…We mostly only follow ohio blogs. OH~ Let us know if you are from Ohio, and want us to follow you...If we aren't already. ;)
