Mental Heath Awareness - Blog Posts

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Remember when I said I’d post every Wednesday? I FORGOT.

Also fun fact, I’m a writer for a particular website so I’m here rn at SD Comic Con. It’s rough for a Thursday. I wanted to go to the Junji-Ito panel buttttt… there were some complications in the line.

First of all, this panel wasn’t even at the convention and being held at the Public Library which is very nice and I might consider going again. And the event was being held on the 9th floor, so wowza! Gotta be pretty fancy if they have 9 floors, right? Still not sure what happened, but they started moving people in line all the way back to the first floor and since the panel had already started after waiting for an hour, it was time to leave and make my trek back to the convention in the hot, hot sun.

Sweat continues to trickle down my back as I tried yet again to get into another popular panel only to find it has been spread into different sections a less several hallways. Tis the consequences of a popular convention so best to just cut my losses and find something in the exhibit hall.

So here I am over 2 hours early for a panel just so I can get in and reading a book so I don’t cry from the combined stress of the past few weeks.

Comic Con is awesome I swear, just the worms in my brain are saying;

“Hmm… reconsider.”

i FUCKING HATE anxiety attacks i get unexpectedly in sudden and confusing situations. they make me want to kill my fucking self, i swear-

Mfs when a mental ILLNESS is a detriment to someone's health and not a quirky character trait: 😮😲🤯

isn't it insane though how schizophrenic people are viewed as violent and dangerous by the majority of society when in reality schizophrenic people are nearly 14 times more likely to be on the receiving end of violence than to be the perpetrators...

isn’t it insane though how schizophrenic people are viewed as violent and dangerous by the majority of society when in reality schizophrenic people are nearly 14 times more likely to be on the receiving end of violence than to be the perpetrators…

I’m not really sure what is wrong with me,

The last few weeks I have slowly felt the fire in me die. It’s sad because I worked so hard to relight the match the first time my fire extinguished. I have this overwhelming feeling of emptiness, that nobody cares or acknowledges my existence.

This isn’t a cry for attention, I don’t need words of advice.

I just need to know what the point is of living, if I don’t feel alive?

"Your trauma makes you stronger"

No, my trauma gave me depression, quiet & self-destructive bpd, anxiety, insomnia and a inner child that desperately wants to get healed.

Scared of being alone, only pleasing other people desperately trying to have friends, to not be the outstander.

I was a child. I wanted to be protected by the persons that hurt me. I wanted their help & their love. And now I am the person struggling to accept care even though I want it because it makes me feel trapped & dependent. I am the person struggling to show love.

Romantisized Daddy issues/father complex.

No, daddy issues isn't liking to call someone 'daddy' in Bed, thats a kink and not a issue.

The father complex is a trauma response, so please stop romantisizing it out of respect.

Its much more than the liking in older men.

There are 3 Types:

Fearful - avoidant means that affected people avoid getting close to anyone. If they are in a relationship, they tend to run away from challenges. They struggle with intimacy.

Anxious - preoccupied means that affected ones are scared to be left, ofting causing relationship anxiety. Its common that they are really clingy and feel unsettled if they aren't with their partner.

Dismissive - avoidant means that affected ones have heavy trust issues, avoiding conservations and being scared of getting hurt again or to depend on anyone else than themselve.

Lets go over to common symptoms, the type of a father complex clearly depends on the symptoms.

Possessiveness & clingy behaviour.

Overabundance of love & assurance.

Using Sex to feel loved.

Dating (older) men that make you feel protected.

Being afraid to be alone. > jumping from one relationship into another.

Choosing repetitively abusive men.

Attachment issues.

Being afraid to be vulnerable.

Trust issues.

Not setting boundaries because you're scared they will leave if you say "no."

Idealizing your partner.

the father complex often comes with..

Depression

Persistent anger issues

Low self-esteem

Stress

Worry

Anxiety

The father complex is treatable, search for a therapist and analyse your struggles. If your partner is okay with that, maybe even consider couple therapy.

Just a reminder ˚.⁺⊹

You are valuable. You are important. You are needed. You are loved.

The world is not a better place without you. No one is better off without you, even if sometimes it feels that way.

There is a person in this world who admires you. There is a person who thinks you are beautiful. There is a person who thinks you are interesting. There is a person who thinks you are perfect. There is a person who adores your smile. There is a person you saved without even knowing it. There is a person who is in love with you.

You do enough. You try hard enough. Even if sometimes it feels like you don't.

*･｡ﾟ☆ﾟ.*･｡ﾟ*･｡ﾟ☆ﾟ.*･｡ﾟ*･｡ﾟ☆ﾟ.*･｡ﾟ*･｡ﾟ☆*･

I am proud of you and I am glad you are still in this world. Take care of yourself ♡

It’s always like that😔

I wish my mom would treat me better

tw// eating disorders

I don't normally talk about this but I kind of wanted to address it because I know it doesn't just happen to a few people.. during the time I was at my worst (regarding my ED), people would tell me that I 'looked amazing' and that I 'looked really healthy' when that was anything but the case. I wasn't eating and if I did eat anything it wouldn't stay down.

Telling someone they look good just because they lost weight isn't always a kind thing to say. In fact, people telling me that made my mental health and, by extension, my ED worse. I thought that if I looked good to other people then I would be happy. That was not by any means the case and I ended up being far more unhappy because of it.

The worst part is that it still affects me now. Every time I eat I feel guilty and sick. I feel like I'm going to throw up and if I'm over a certain weight I try to lose weight until I'm below it.

Eating disorders aren't beautiful. They shouldn't be romanticized. It's not something to show off or make fun of/ joke about. They aren't easy to recover from and if you do recover, it's easy to fall back into them. That said, never shame someone for having an ED. That can make it worse as well.

Basically, go by the rule 'if they didn't choose it when getting ready for the day, don't comment on it' (which is kind of a mouthful but whatever). People chose their hair, makeup, clothes, etc. Not their bodies. I hope that makes sense lol but yeah..

This morning, my therapist shared this really useful hack and I feel like it could be useful to share: it is the pie chart method.

Essentially, it is a great tool to identify the behaviours, situations and events that caused a certain effect, in order for you to truly understand what really happened.

You simply draw a circle, identify the circumstances that caused the outcome and give each situation a percentage of its influence on the outcome.

For example: you bake a cake but it turns out horribly. It could be that 45% of the fault could be given to the oven that has malfunctioned, 30% to the wrongly calculated measurements of the ingredients, and 25% of your inexperience baking a cake. In the end, you will realise that it may not be your fault, and therefore you should stop being so angry at yourself.

Disclaimer: sometimes the fault could be given to you. This is a useful method for those of you who may constantly be harsh to yourselves.

Don't kill yourself, please.

If you’re suffering from depression and are looking for a sign to not go through with ending your life, this is it. This is the sign. We care.

If you see this on your dash, reblog it. You could save a life.

Validation

🌟 As little babies, and then toddlers, our lives depend on validation. We need others to mirror and reflect what we feel, to know that each emotion is normal. We crave an explanation and mediation of these strange new sensations inside us—feelings. 💓

But if our surroundings never provided such validation or weren't capable of giving it, our need to feel seen and know that we are normal as we are faces a significant obstacle. 😢

However, my friend, it's never too late to learn to understand and believe to your body, your sensations, and your emotions, no matter how strange or strong they might feel. Even if they seem out of control, it might be because they, and the little you, haven't been seen for too long. 🥺

Upon learning to listen to ourselves, we first encounter some intense stuff. But with a tiny flame of hope and compassion, step by step, we might find relief—which is valuable for every part of your life that follows. 🌱 Sending you soft, loving validation, and know that with all your unique and different parts, you are normal as you are. To exist is to be a normal part of this life, just as you are. 💖 🌈🌸

(via " Pastel Holographic Watercolor Sticker: Acknowledging Shame, Embracing Self-Worth" Magnet for Sale by Queueka)

the antidote to sadness is not laughter, but expression

so um i just wanted to tell you guys that i was 100 days clean from s3lf h4rm yesterday :3

yeah. it would suck if you were a swan who grew up with ducks and never saw another swan so just thought you were a duck with something super wrong with it.

I've seen inside your head and I'm doing surgery on the parts that still wish you were dead.

im not trying to say its easy but im trying to say its fine

Notes game because I need it

5 - I properly tidy my room and light some incense ✅

10 - I go out on a walk for 20 mins ✅

15 - I plan something with a friend ✅

20 - I submit my poetry to a creative writing competition ✅

25 - I finish my plan for a long marauders fic ✅

30 - I cut down my screen time by 30 mins each day ☑️ (trying 😭)

35 - I ask my parents to change my name on the school register ✅

40 - I work out for an extra hour each week

45 - I ask my parents for a binder for my birthday

50 - I call a hotline next time I feel like hurting myself

Everything sucks and I am not okay.

Okay then. Try these things. (mainly for neurodivergent people but really its for anyone who has a problem but Doesn't Know What)

SHORT TERM- i feel bad right now and need immediate relief

Get off your phone. Seriously

Drink a glass of water

Eat something with protein

Shower if you haven't already

Brush your teeth

Tidy your space a bit

Open a window and stretch your legs or go outside on a walk if you can

Say something nice to someone

Put on some music. Something relatively happy

Hug a living being (pet, sibling, parent, etc)

Change clothes or feel a nice texture or listen to some 8D music. Sometimes its a sensory thing

Get something small done. Reply to an email or something

Do something creative. Draw, write, sing, whatever

Learn some cool new information

Talk to someone. Phone a friend, talk to your parents, text someone, etc

Read a damn book (fanfic counts)

Sleep, or if you can't manage that, try to relax or meditate for 5 or 10 mins

If you have over excerted yourself physically mentally or emotionally, gove yourself a break.

LONG TERM - ive been feeling bad for a while and want to get a bit better overall

Try to talk to someone about life generally. You might just figure it out

Stop making suicide jokes. Yes, that includes ironically saying "i want to die" at any minor inconvenience. for me, this was changing it to "im going to commit a war crime" or "I'm going to buy a completely unnecessary amount of clothes". Be ridiculous with it. Keep the comedic value.

Stop being self depricating. Failed a maths test? "oh im just really bad at maths" turns to "my maths skills are unmatched. im a genius" it can be sarcastic. then youll get used to complimenting yourself and will do it unironically out of habit

Change something. For me this was cutting my hair. i felt out of control. i cut my hair because i couldn't do anything else. this could be joining a club, buying new clothes, dying your hair, choosing a new perfume or deodorant. Anything that makes you feel in control

I might add more to the long term list in the future but this is it for now. You will get better, the silly little guy on the internet believes in you <3

it made me think of youu -> (15 year old me)

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