Follow Your Passion: A Seamless Tumblr Journey
this and when the hurt wasn't intended and wasn't their fault
Wanting to be comforted by the person who hurt you is a different type of pain..
having anxious attachment styles SUCKS especially with long distance relationships bc yeah we’ve only been talking/dating for 2 months but you called me 3 days in a row bc last week on your way home from work and you message me consistently but i’ve only met you once or twice and now i feel ridiculous for missing you and feeling unmotivated to do anything now that it’s over
How do you deal with tragic events? I took years to fully establish in my mind that my best friend had died, I still struggle to believe both my grandmothers are gone, and now our oldest cat looks to be dying, since something has gone wrong with his hips or leg or spine.
I had to hear my loving sister, sweet and strong thing that she is, break down sobbing because this is probably the end for him.
I'm mad he's hurt, upset he's in pain, upset he's likely going to die, and all I can really do is sit here and fail to express any of this beyond the text side.
How do I deal with emotions that I can't really express outwardly? I want to express them, I can feel them, but I can't seem to actually do it.
I'm 99% I'm about to have a meltdown or am currently experiencing one because I want to scream and cry and hit something and hurt myself and everything is going wrong and feels wrong and I can't breathe and I'm scared I'm going to lash out at my friends even though I don't want to and they haven't done anything wrong and I feel so guilty for just feeling angry at them even though I haven't even said or done anything to them as of yet and I just feel so guilty for just being angry and for experiencing a meltdown and I'm so scared of being mean and angry and hurting them and I'm scared of them seeing me like this cause it's not pretty or easy and it's not fair on them having to deal with it and be around me while I'm like this but nothing is helping and I'm scared, so so scared and one of my friends (who is on the waiting list for an autism assessment and has an autistic sibling) told me they don't see autism as a disability but as a gift but it really doesn't feel like it, especially right now (and in fact this entire week) when i feel like this because omfg is it fucking agonising. I can't even put into words how much it physically hurts and aches and I hate it and I hate that because I'm lower support needs people think it doesn't affect me as much or that it isn't so difficult as to my detriment as if it doesn't affect and impair all parts of my fucking life.