Fictionkind - Blog Posts

I genuinely need to know if there’s a transpecies term for fictionkins, cause damn, I godda turn into Shigaraki you guys 💔

Nobody needs this but here’s what level I feel my kins

Wolf dog- spiritually (I feel this identity pretty strongly, having some urges to bark or hunt or howl. It depends on the day cause some days I wouldn’t mind being perceived as one while others I rather not)

Domestic cat- Spiritually (I’m having a pretty strong connection with this identity today, it does switch once in a while. When it comes to urges my dog theriotype would be stronger in that as I don’t get urges for my cat type but I do view myself as one, not fully, instead I’ll view my human body with ears or a tail or other animalistic things)

Shapeshifter- spiritually (I don’t have a very strong connection to this one but it does affect some of my theriotypes or give me certain urges or feelings. I feel as if my body is stuck, like I’m meant to be more and do more than just this. It can also affect my identity and give me feelings of wanting multiple or not wanting one at all)

Shigaraki- Physically (I view my body as my fictionkin. I believe I was him in a past life and therefore we are the same soul, same soul=same body. When I imagine myself I’ll always have similar features as him. I perceive myself as him and also wouldn’t mind being perceived as him)

When it comes to how I view my soul I definitely view each as a different version of myself which is why I may talk about Shigaraki in 3rd person instead of 1st. I experience mental shifts once in awhile, Shigaraki more often but sometimes I get some for my other kins too

I don’t have memories of my past but I still sometimes feel like I’m making up for everything I never got a chance to heal from. It doesn’t affect my day to day life but sometimes I feel horrible about it. I’m in a new life, why is this stuff still coming for me 😔

Exotrauma - Trauma stemming from events that did not happen in this reality/universe/to your current physical body.

Exomemories - Memories that did not happen in this reality/universe.

Psuedo-PTSD - A simulated version of PTSD caused by exotrauma.

my fictionkintype is psychological in nature, so it's a bit funny to me that i talk about it in metaphysical terms.

in reality, i shaped the identity of [sleepyhead]. but i think about it as a past life that helped to shape me. i may not have that holy courage, but the soul lives on in me.

"there's a part of me that says i should just move on. this [fiction-kintype] is a part of me, of course, but not a part i need to dwell on."

guess who booted up its source game and started a new playthrough? ✌️ and guess who's created a word document to jot down discovered noemata while playing? ✌️✌️

joking tone aside.

i discovered this kintype during the worst years of my illness, and i think that clouded my perception of it. talking about it in the quoted post made me wonder if revisiting the source now that i'm in a healthier place might lend some new perspective, or at least jog some more positive noemata.

so far, i've been correct - though that life was dark, i've discovered more positive noemata now than i did in the past, and realized i was mistaken about some noemata. i'm enjoying visiting my source now more than i did then.

talking about my fictionkintype these days is... well, "difficult" isn't the right word for it, but i'm blanking on a better one.

the fandom aspect is the biggest part. this isn't fandom for me - it's a part of my identity, and i don't want people outside the alt-h community getting misled or twisting it into a roleplay thing. it's difficult to talk about a fictionkintype if you're censoring every other word and name to avoid the fandom.

but also...

that life isn't a happy one. many of the noemata i have for it are of being afraid, sad, or lost. it ends young. it's a tragedy retold as a heroic adventure.

there's a part of me that says i should just move on. this 'type is a part of me, of course, but not a part i need to dwell on.

maybe it's better this way.

We always get reduced to our source except with our partner... Even our friends do it and it's really upsetting...

Sy doesn't like talking because he's reduced to his source but he's nothing line his source... Steve too... Billy was scared Dustin (our friend's) would hate him because their fictive are *very* sourcependent...

-c

Fictives and fictionkind deserve to be treated like normal people.

Fictives and fictionkind deserve understanding.

Fictives and fictionkind deserve to not just be reduced to their source if they don't want to.

Fictives and fictionkind deserve to have their feelings taken seriously.

I am kin because it's who I am.

I am kin because I'm traumatized.

I am kin because I have emotions.

I am kin because I cope.

I am kin because I love.

I am kin because I am afraid.

I am kin because I seek a link.

I am kin because I have found a connection.

I am kin for myself. I am kin for others.

I am kin.