Ich Hab Alles Gegeben, Was Ich Konnte, Doch Anscheinend War Es Für Dich Nicht Genug. Waren Ein Herz

I always fuck it up.

And I deserve to be miserable

For what I've done.

I wish I would have been

A good partner

But I think I'm not.

Please don't leave me.

I need you.

But if you do

I'd understand

As you deserve better.

Please take care.

I wish you the best.

I'm so sorry.

I love you.

But I hate myself so much.

I hate myself.

But I love you so much.

2, 3 Promethazin gegen die Angst im Kopf.

In der Wand ein Loch.

Ich krieche durch die Schlacke, sie klebt

wie Teer an meiner Haut.

Es ist kalt und eng, doch ich brenn',

fühle mich beklemmt.

Ich ersticke, dicke Luft, kein Licht, weiter

bis zum bitteren Ende.

I want to know you.

I want to be known by you.

I want to be near you.

I want to help you.

I'm commited to you.

I wish you the best.

Lost in time and space

Living moment to moment

In search for a resting place

With no clue of where I'm goin'

If home is where your heart is

It must be a miserable place

A blood painted carnage

As it doesn't stop to ache

And I waited and I ran

Till I was tired and exhausted

Guess fatigue is my best friend

It leaves me numb and thoughtless

Brightly colored pictures

Move before my eyes

With no single reaction

Of my heart and my mind

Accompanying voices

I can't quite comprehend

My senses sense sensations

Which don't make any sense

Promises are broken

And the heart 

shatters 

Words get twisted

And the bones

burst

Spirit Petals 🌸✨

A sakura in blossom

whispers pink and white,

soft, fine, and gentle

- Rising

Its roots stretch deep 

into Mother Earth,

solid, strong, and sturdy

- Staying

Kaltes Licht

Stimmen, die zu dir sprechen

Stimmen, die über dich sprechen

Doch wer spricht mit dir

und wer hört dein Schweigen?

Wer liest deine Sätze,

und wer zwischen den Zeilen?

Künstliche Lichtstrahlen

- Zittern in beleuchteter Dunkelheit

It's ok to say no.

It's ok to let it go.

It's ok to doubt it

And ok to don't know.

It's ok to feel low.

It's ok if I don't.

It's ok to trust

And ok if I don't

It's ok that I show.

It's ok when I grow.

It's ok to feel hope

And ok if I don't.

Gedankenblitze in meinem Kopf

Bin angespannt, steh unter Strom

Und fuck ich sitze in einem Loch

Wie versteinert, regungslos

Will drüber reden, laut schreien

Doch kein Laut aus meiner Kehle

Aus den Gedankenwolken

Prasselt purpurroter Regen

Es heißt "lebe den Moment!"

Doch im Moment will ich nicht leben