"What's On Your Mind?" Oh Nothing Just That Durge Knew Their Feelings For Gortash Were Wrong In Bhaal's

Father has commanded it is my turn to play Undertale

"You're supposed to be dead" was all that came out, but there were many more thoughts racing through Durge's head

How was he alive? How long had he been alive? And, oh no, why did he almost feel relieved.

Gortash was decomposed, nothing like his usual self as he rushed to explain. Durge stood still, arms crossed as he stared at Gortash

In truth, the words weren't processing in their mind. They were too preoccupied by the internal conflict, knowing this man was a threat but being glad his death had only been temporary

At some point Gortash stopped talking. Durge said nothing, they couldn't when none of the explanation had stuck

The two stared at each other, unspoken emotions dancing behind each of their eyes

"Durge?"

Finally, Durge spoke again, tone light; "I'm glad I can kill you myself"

Imagine this:

Gortash is back, no one knows just yet, with the the exception of withers.

Withers thinks it's best for gortash lays low for a while.

The companions have no clue about his resurrection.

Gortash is aware that he is now an enemy of the people in baldur's gate.

Going back there isn't an option right now.

He is at the wilderness campsite, that's where he stays.

Every now and then, the companions would visit withers, gortash must remain unseen at all cost.

So he hides, until they leave.

Eventually, it all gets a little tiresome for gortash.

Wondering when he'll be able to get out of hiding.

This time, durge pays a visit to withers.

Gortash hesitates, he hadn't seen durge since their confrontation with the elder brain.

Realisation hits him, he must hide, quickly.

With a quick sigh of relief, gortash wonders, if durge would be glad to see him. Maybe not.

Durge has changed, no reason to be around a miserable failure like himself.

Durge has moved on, with no memories of their times together.

To durge, he is the past. The forgotten past.

Gortash's thoughts were cut off when he heard the sound of someone clearing their throat.

Lo and behold, standing there, in his hiding place, was none other than the one he was thinking about.

Durge saw him.

Durge knows nows.

He should be disappointed he failed withers.

But he's happy, happy to be seen by his durge.

"You're supposed to be dead" were the words durge spoke.

Time to explain everything.

Oh no this isn't writer's block, I have an entire detailed alternate ending story with detailed dialogue and plot points that have been edited into being cohesive. However this is my bedtime story in which I mentally act it out until I inevitably fall asleep, acting as though I'm falling asleep in my MC's love interest's arms. I exclusively think of this story between the hours of midnight and 4am

4am thoughts, I love Pokémon ship names. Like okay you can have your AfterDeath and your Chiluc (I'm in both fandoms too) but my absolute favorite is called AppraisalShipping. Wdym there's one called GreatGatsbyShipping. I love telling ppl these names

Nothing is more fun than revisiting characters and stories from a while ago. Even if it's only been a few months since my last update to the stories, writing and sharing that writing with my friends is awesome

Also I love coming up with entirely new parts of the world, fleshing out the universes I made by giving them unrelated moving parts to other stories happening. Maybe characters from the A focus will someday meet the ones from the B or C focus. Maybe there's a single character tying them all together. It's so fun especially when other people are influencing the story

This post is just a segue into potentially sharing excerpts from my writing here, though I'm not sure how well the excerpts will work without the 7 years of lore explained as context lmao

"are you sure you're autistic" my mom asks as I'm in my Pokémon pajamas with 5 of my Pokémon plushies by me as I play Pokémon New Snap on my Pokémon decorated Switch while listening to Pokémon YouTube videos and waiting to open more digital Pokémon cards

You guys will never guess what my special interest is

So 12 hours ago I had my first tattoo session, and the artist was phenomenal. He was making sure I was as comfortable as possible, and kept asking if I needed a break or if I was lightheaded. Clear vibe of having dealt with first timers before who struggle with the process (very understandable, needles stabbing a couple layers of skin is not easy for most)

But the whole session I was just playing Pokémon TCG on my phone. No fucks given about the needle pushing ink into my wrist, I was busy being annoyed at that one Wormadam card that kept doing 70+ damage to my poor pals

Anyways here's the tattoos I think they look awesome

Currently writing a sort of continuation Durgetash AU where my Durge character (Yurena, because she's my main Durge character so why not) convinces Withers to bring Gortash back after everything that happens, and the two of them (now both having been given new life) are free from their gods and decide to simply travel Faerûn. In it I lean into them putting old skills to new use, and that leads to Gortash inventing a camera for Yurena. This is essentially how him showing her it goes

Gortash: I made this, you can look through this lens and then click this button and it will take a picture of whatever you see through the lens. I'm working on a device that connects to it to see all the pictures you take but for now you can see them on this too Yurena: *staring at him through the camera* This is so sweet of you, what made you do this? Gortash: Well a while back you said something about wanting to capture a moment forever, and I wanted to make that happen for you. Plus I always have admired that creative spark of yours, now you can make the beauty you see last forever. Anyway I started thinking about what I could- Yurena: *click* Gortash: ...what was that Yurena: You said I can make anything beautiful last forever Gortash: My dear, I'm honored, may I see the picture Yurena: Sure Gortash: *staring at the picture of him mid sentence, not at all posed for a picture*

And that is how Yurena gets Gortash to be speechless for a solid minute because he can't decide if he hates the picture because of how unflattering it is or if he loves it because he knows she's seeing the beauty of his mind at work and it's such a wonderful feeling to be loved

I should post about Yurena soon like I did for Echo

Update I'm writing it down. I cannot stop thinking about it and if I don't write it down I may explode

It's also a Durgetash focused fic because this ship has taken me in a chokehold more than any ship ever previously has

Oh no this isn't writer's block, I have an entire detailed alternate ending story with detailed dialogue and plot points that have been edited into being cohesive. However this is my bedtime story in which I mentally act it out until I inevitably fall asleep, acting as though I'm falling asleep in my MC's love interest's arms. I exclusively think of this story between the hours of midnight and 4am

Just remembered the girl I'm gonna be talking about doesn't have Tumblr so allow me to be gay for a minute

I've had a crush on her for a month or two now. We've been friends for like a year and a half, and in November we started an ongoing bit about dating. It's a very committed bit, our friends stopped believing it was a bit a week in. And as it happens when you're best friends with someone, very open and emotional with each other, talk every chance you get, support each other, and for like 4 months joke about dating, I caught feelings

Now, her birthday was earlier this month, but due to her school we won't be able to hang out until the 27th. And I've made/bought a total of 6 gifts for her. Note that she loves Stardew Valley. One of the gifts I got was the mermaid pendant (yes I know bouquet is for dating and pendant is for marriage, but the pendant is more recognizable and lasts longer). So when we hang out, I'm going to ask her out

But the thing is!! And this is why I needed to rant, this part is hilarious. We were talking about how a lot of things have been parallels to one of my previous relationships (aka my best relationship thus far). Because there's too many parallels, but that's not the point. I hinted that it would be really funny if we did what my ex gf and I did; start dating and not tell anyone for a monthish. We settled on a day to start dating (yes we are pre planning an anniversary for a bit), AND THEN we start wedding planning. It's nothing serious aside from a day that would be cool (it's connected to one of her interests)

I haven't even asked her out yet and she wanted to plan a wedding. I love her she's so committed to a bit and I don't think even she sees it as a bit