Im Feeling Down But Theres Nothing I Want To Do Or Buy I Dont Even Wanna Buy Food Which Is Something

this is actually the reason WHY i didnt come out for so long

i used to say shit like that before i realized i was a dude, my “friends” used to say shit like that, my mom used to say stuff like that

i was scared of realizing that i was a man due to the way everyone talked about them around me

i was nothing like the men they were saying men acted but was scared so badly of being seen that way that i boxed my thoughts of being trans up and sent them to the back of my mind

it was only until i finally felt comfortable (after i dropped all my those shitty people i called “friends”) that i finally let myself discover who i was

i genderfluided myself into a man and never changed back

this comment is also something i picked up on too

ive literally had a trans woman tell me (who used to act the way listed above) that she and many trans women who act like that are insecure about masculinity due to their transition so take it out on people who want to be masculine

im just tired of the queer community hating me for wanting to be a man

im so tired of radfeminism being the main feminist movement in social media

it isnt actual feminism its hatred in a trench coat wearing a mask with the words “feminism”

Yeah probably if you haven't lived the life of a trans man seeing people go "I don't like when people joke about hating men" or something along that line, it probably sounds mra ish.

But in my everyday life, people only address me as a man when they are using it to insult me. I forgot to do XYZ? That's me being a dumb man. I'm talking too long? I'm mansplaining. Etc etc. These are the only times in my real life that people will address me as a man. That's why we use the term 'malgendering', that's why many hate those "trans inclusive misandry" jokes. Because that's the only thing people are trans inclusive in.

yall im in my online class and MY LAPTOP CRASHED 💀💀💀

WTF 😭😭😭

pictures of the pretty girl :)

fellow trans moots just a warning to block the person in the pic who genuinely doesn’t believe that trans men or anyone masc aligning can experience misogyny and believe that we are somehow the oppressors 💀

reminder to people who need to be explained it: TRANS men are STILL minorities. just because we are men does not negate the fact that we are TRANS. its in the same way that white people can experience racism but NOT systemic racism. trans men CAN be oppressors but CANNOT be SYSTEMIC OPPRESSORS due to the fact that WE ARE TRANS.

not only that, ANYONE can be an oppressor LMAO. only some can be a SYSTEMIC OPPRESSOR aka, WEALTHY CISHET WHITE MEN!! not even wealthy, cishet white men in GENERAL benefit from systemic oppression. someone like ME, a BLACK TRANS MAN will NEVER benefit from it. even if i werent black and was instead white, i NEVER WOULD. because i am TRANS. the man part does not matter because all they will look at is the TRANS PART.

may i remind you that trans men are affected by the reproductive rights issues going on currently? if i werent living in my state and i had been in like fucking texas and was assaulted? guess what? i wouldnt be able to get an abortion. and before you say “why didnt you remove your eggs”. 1) why am i expected to? 2) that’s expensive? lmao? and 3) i shouldnt have to have to remove my eggs to prevent an unwanted pregnancy. yall are forgetting that the issue of FORCED PREGNANCY is happening RIGHT NOW. but you dont care because it doesnt affect you.

so in the same way that us as trans men will never experience the issues trans women face, neither will trans women.

i keep seeing other trans people say stuff like this, a lot from certain transfems and its so disheartening to see people from our own community treat us like shit. infighting doesnt fix shit. you are making things worse especially for YOURSELVES by putting other trans people down. if i were to speak about other black people as if they were villians then i cannot be surprised when i am soon also treated like a villian. something something stones at glass house something something leopard eating face party. the trans community can talk about ALL our issues without making one group seem like shitty people just for existing, without putting them down.

you genuinely are no better than transphobes if you act like this. just because you’re trans does not mean youre not transphobic.

at the end of the day, we are still the minority because we are trans. at the end of the day when theyre trying to make us ILLEGAL, they will not care about how much hatred you’re putting out towards other trans people, like yes great! you helped them cause even more separating the trans community more! this is exactly what #they want so instead of helping each other, we are just pooling hatred so guess what! when they get rid of us, we wont be willing to help each other. youre acting just like an undercover fbi agent right now babes with this infighting talk.

for anyone who genuinely thinks this negatively about other fellow trans people, i beg of you to realize that this is exactly what they want. they want the infighting and hatred. and to play this game that became popular back in like 2015-2016

thank you lmao

anyone trying to argue w me will be blocked this is not a discussion. i will not argue with people who genuinely believe i am a shitty person JUST for wanting to be a man. this isnt LGBTQ+ positive yall this is T hatred.

these were posted by someone else but i wanted this on my blog too

the intersexism and transandrophobia combo continues !

fun fact: trans people cannot be oppressors because they have no structural power. that applies to trans women, trans men, and nonbinary people too. hope that helps.

i get really upset whenever my “friend” (will get into that at a later date) or family who im out to whos aware that im trans uses the wrong pronouns for me

i used to think i wasnt upset by she/her pronouns, actively thought that i might be comfortable enough with them that i would use them but not identify as a woman but, im not.

im not comfortable with them being used on me

even some feminine terms im not comfortable being used on me

its more like im comfortable conforming for others, something i need to unlearn since its the reason why i detransitioned back in 2022. to make others comfortable.

im actively aware that it gets some getting used to so i dont complain about it at all, especially since my mom makes an active effort to correct herself

but i feel like the “friend” should especially be aware to at least try to use the correct pronouns for me especially since we spoke about my ex and the reason we broke up was due to my transition THEN spoke about the heinous thing he did to me after our breakup and she was so angry, literally saying that he doesnt see me as a man

> i open twitter

> mood immediately drops

atp im deleting the app lmao

The way some people don't even TRY to think about sexualities or genders more deeper then just "cis and trans people" is insane like they'll only think about binary trans women and men and binary women and men but like y'know what type of binary I mean, right? Everyone completely forgets multigender people exist or abrosexual/fluid sexuality, nonbinary people in general and it pisses me off! Some people will even act like they support multigender people and nonbinary people, maybe also abrosexual people and try to be "inclusive" but when there's a complex identity, they think like a caveman!

"women are non men and never men! And men? Same thing! Nonbinary people? Don't exist right now cause I'm caveman brain right now, and cis? Nope no one else can be cis except 100% binary cishet people and multigender? What's that?? And identifying with your gender at birth? Only cis people do that! And cis people can't EVER be trans!" LIKE OMG SHUT UP!

like I swear someone on fuckin TikTok or Pinterest could hear something like...I don't know a flag for people who identify with their gender at birth but are also trans and immediately forget nonbinary people and multigender people exist!!

Im not sure if i should transition or not. What helped you figure out what to do? Its honestly upsetting how back and forth my mind goes

I knew if I didn't at least try hrt, I would spend the rest of my life wondering and that's my biggest fear.

Also, people who don't need to transition don't usually spend so much time thinking about it. Just a thought.

trying to find which saniro character i kin / who’s aesthetic i mainly like is hard

my options are

> my melody (who i used to claim when i was cis)

> badtz-maru (happy birthday badtz-maru btw and who i think mainly matches me now)

> keroppi

> cinnamonroll

tbh im probably gonna do them all LMAO they all are my style in some way (mel and cina is coquette, badtz is grunge/gothic for me (plus i see him as black so even better for me LOL), and keroppi is the forest / earthy)

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