Follow Your Passion: A Seamless Tumblr Journey
when taylor swift said "i was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere" and when liana flores said "i could do better if i had energy" and when hayley kiyoko said "i can't be alone, i need some help" and when maisie peters said "i was good, just wasn't good enough" and when phoebe bridgers said "how long will it be cute, all this crying in my room?"
february, march and sometimes even may
these are the months I await without fail
because they're when I get to play, colours of the rainbow stuck to my face
playing with gulal is fine ofcourse but nothing beats getting drunk on the rooftops
—and throwing water balloons? that's basically a hobby, a skill that i cultivated 17 years in the making.
Never missed a year but this time maybe I will.
Because in this new city with new friends, somehow they just all seem to have different commitments.
In the city that never sleeps where's the time for the little moments?
So this year will be spent all alone, colours of the rainbow stuck in the year old memories, on the echos of past me's face.
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(so this is basically me being gloomy before Holi because my friends all cancelled and I don't really know many people here which is depressing and idk I'm just posting this here cuz idk)
the last decade has lead up to this moment, this day, this week, this impending year.
a sea of doubts and unfulfilled milestones, is what drowns her - the scared little girl on the cusp of adulthood.
She doesn't know how to drive, doesn't know how to kiss.
She hasn't loved and hasn't ever been the one receiving it.
But yet, time does go on and it doesn't wait for her for to feel "grown up" .
It goes on to lead everyone to this moment, this day, this week, this impending year.
(I was trying to write a poem talking about how everything is riding on my last year of school but this reads better as prose so here I am)