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51 points of damage

“The chancellor bows, deeply-”

“I BOW DEEPER.“

cant stop thinking about 'i misjudged you, chancellor' not only bc of the theopin parasite in my head but bc he truly did not in any shape or form need to say that. like theo's character has always always been about honor and pride and loyalty and the ONLY thing he ever allowed himself to be blindsighted on has always been lapin. soo honorable sooo professional but when it came to lapin he allowed himself to be different. and i dont believe it ever came from a real place of dislike. no rather it came from a recognition that he COULD do this w lapin and not ever be actually slighted for it by lapin or anyone really (since no one liked my bbg lapin all that much lets admit). all those years of obedience and devotion and lapin was the only one he could be honest w by bitching at him. and then there comes the battle on the whatever road and he's suddenly really seeing lapin in action for the first time and he well knows what ppl do in a battle tells a lot about them and what lapin does is. basically the exact same thing theo's been doing for years. he protects. his only objective is to keep the royal family safe and suddenly theo just. respects him. fucking DEFENDS him to callroy who he has known for a long time and has decidedly been on better terms with. says with ABSOLUTE conviction that lapin didn't do this. doesn't engage in lapin riling him up simply laughs softly. asks for HELP and fucking agrees with lapin do you UNDERSTAND????? do you understand how much that one battle changed theo's demeanor and view of lapin and how significant it was for him ohhhbhhh ive gotten so off topic but my point is he has known since then that he misjudged lapin and the fact that he fucking SAID it admitting to making YEARS OF MISTAKES and damaging his pride in turn but not caring bc he NEEDED LAPIN TO KNOW THAT HE MISJUDGED HIM AND HAS ALWAYS BEEN WRONG ABOUT HIM !!!!! i need to lie down

The thing about theopin is you fit so many dynamics in them and all of it will STILL end up tragic.

Rivals to lovers? They're slowly learning to respect one a other but they're relationship got cut short before it had the chance to bloom. Now Theo would find himself pausing in a conversation waiting for a quip for Lapin. Now all Theo would here is the silence where Lapin's voice used to be.

Passing ships in the night? Theo realizing that he and Lapin has so many similarities. Theo realizing he never gave Lapin a chance. Theo realizing that maybe, in a different world, in another life, maybe he could've loved Lapin. Theo mourning what never was and what could've been. Theo realizing he found the right person but at the wrong time.

Exes/Divored? Maybe they're falling in love again, maybe they're remembering why they fell in love in the first place, maybe they're still in love but are too stubborn to say it. Maybe it ended with a fight and neither of them could apologize. Maybe Theo would look at something Lapin gifted him a lifetime ago and think I loved you. I think I still do.

Secretly together? Oh BOY, where do I start? The pining but they're already married. The secrets. The longing. The hidden meaning between their banter. The "I love you but no one can know" to "I loved you and no one knew and now you're gone." The ring that Theo keeps tucked underneath his armor and it's twin laying bloodied on the floor of a church.

They are rivals. They are besties. They can't stand each other. They cannot bear to be apart. They are married. They WERE married. They fucking hate each other. They respect each other so so much. I am exceedingly normal about them I swear

murph makes my fave characters PART 2 starring car wash, feat. 1990 corolla