Sarah.txt - Blog Posts

people have the audacity to ask if i'm okay after I have been listening to infinite baths by sleep token and confession by girl in red nonstop for the last few weeks

just listened to even in arcadia (the song) and oh my god vessel sounds so hurt :(

i don't have any idea if it's true, but it feels like the album version of caramel is faster than the single version

i picked up "watch over me" by nina lacour today after having it on my desk for almost a month now because i was afraid it wouldn't make me feel as much as "we are okay" did. and oh boy was i wrong. i don't know how she does it, but she just gets the loneliness i experience so often

stayed up to listen to the new sleep token song and holy fuck it's worth every single moment of its four minutes and fifty seconds of runtime

birthday blues really need to be studied more cause why the fuck am i being sad on my birthday again??? and it's not even my birthday yet, but i can feel the sadness rising up? what the fuck???

i almost forgot that it's trans visibility day today and only remembered because a friend told me. someone come and take my membership card away lol

i really really wouldn't say i like my voice, but today i recorded some lines for a song idea i had and i kept the file instead of deleting it instantly. so that's a win i guess

i've started writing in notebooks again since it kinda helps me focus more and originally i wanted to write with a pencil so i could edit it. then i lost my eraser and even though i could easily get a new one, i refuse and continue to use my pencil. something something confining yourself to keep what you have already created or whatever

sometimes i feel like a black hole

swallowing even pure light

disintegrating each and every thing whole

so i stay away, i keep the distance

afraid there's no end to this night

i'm alone in my universe

wondering when this ends

or if it just gets worse

my life starts feeling like i'm living for sidequests again. i'm supposed to play bass for my friend's band's soundcheck later this week. slight problem here.

i have never fucking played a bass before.

so lets hope my mediocre (at best) guitar skills will save me