Follow Your Passion: A Seamless Tumblr Journey
I hate it. I hate everything. I'm do fucked up everywhere i could. I can't take this anymore, i can only shut the fuck up
hot take: instead of hating on abby we should go for the whole trio
FLUFF ALPHABET W/ SAM â STARDEW VALLEY
SUMMARY: The Fluff Alphabet by @snk-warriors featuring Sam!
CONTAINS: sfw, gn! reader, fluff, established relationship
NOTES: My second favorite bachelor, I love this fcking guy <3
A = Activities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?
Sam really enjoys playing the guitar for you! And if you play too, even better! He loves having jam sessions together.
B = Beauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?
Sam loves your lips and eyes. He loves that your eyes can be so cute or so seductive, and that your lips always look so kissable.
C = Comfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?
Hugging is Samâs go-to for comforting someone. Heâs a very good hugger. Heâll hold you close and let you hide in his chest. Heâs not always good with words so heâll take to petting your head while reminding you that youâre okay and safe.
D = Dreams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?
He likes the idea of being your rocker boyfriend/husband; having you along for the ride as he tours or in the studio when recording a new song. After that, heâs sure he wants to be a dad and raise a family with you!
E = Equal - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?
Heâs neither dominant nor passive. He respects you and your work and hopes you do as well! He never wants to intrude on your work and heâll only help if you ask him to.
F = Fight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?
He hates arguing. He avoids it at all costs. If you start arguing, heâll roll over like a dog and apologize, saying he was wrong (even if he wasnâtâsomething heâs working on). After youâve had some space from each other, heâs the first to apologize, coming up behind you with a hug and kissing your neck and shoulders. Try as you might, itâs so hard to stay mad at him!
G = Gratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?
Itâs not something he dwells on too often. Not that he isnât gratefulâhe is!âbut the thought doesnât really cross his mind. When he does, he gets a big, goofy grin on his face when he thinks about all the ways heâs grateful for you and your life together. He feels like the people in his life donât take him seriously, except you and heâs grateful for that.
H = Honesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?
Sam is a very honest person! Heâs always had trouble lying to his mother. He doesnât really do anything worth lying about either and heâs very open. Heâs likely to forget to tell you about something but heâd never keep anything from you intentionally, unless he thought it was in your best interest that he did.
I = Inspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?
Youâve both changed each other in different ways! Sam has taught you to have more patience and youâve helped Sam to be more organized. Youâve helped people to see that heâs not an immature kid anymore but a responsible young man with a sense of humor.
J = Jealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?
He rarely ever gets jealousâhe trusts you with his whole being! But if he does, he doesnât get mad or anything but he starts getting really clingy and physically affectionate. More than usual.
K = Kiss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?
He was ready to kiss you the minute you entered your relationship. While he is a good kisser, he is also sloppy. Your first kiss together was a little intense because he kissed you like a man starved. It wasnât planned either so he definitely tasted like pizza or cola.
L = Love Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?
Like any desirable man, he sneaks you through his bedroom window and hides you from the prying eyes of his mother.
M = Marriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?
Sam doesnât feel one way about marriage. Heâd be happy as your boyfriend or as your husband! But if he were to⌠heâll initially want to propose to you on stage at one of his concerts. Luckily, his friends talk him out of that, saying that could put pressure on you to say âyesâ, or you saying ânoâ could be humiliating for you both. He asks his parents for advice; Kent suggesting somewhere sentimental and Jodi suggesting somewhere romantic. He ends up not being able to contain his excitement long enough to go through with any plan. He proposes to you as youâre walking back to the farm one night. It actually proves to be perfect; the two of you alone, under the stars.
N = Nicknames - What do they call their s/o?
Babe, baby, cutie, girly/pretty girl (if youâre a woman), mama/daddy (if you have children or are expecting). Theyâre basic and a little juvenile but you love them! He gets nervous when you donât call him a nickname, assuming the worst lol.
O = On Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?
Sam is already a bubbly and optimistic person. But when he starts dating you, he canât wipe the dopey smile off his face! He no longer dreads going into work (which Shane quickly picks up on), he practically slips through town, and he canât keep his hands off of you. Itâs obvious, to say the least.
P = PDA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?
Heâs so excited to announce that youâre dating when you start! Definitely not shy to kiss or hug you in public. Heâs physically affectionate with all of his friends though so unless he kisses you, an onlooker might assume youâre just friends.
Q = Quirk - Some random ability they have thatâs beneficial in a relationship.
Sam is a very good listener! Heâll listen intently as you boast, complain, cry, or talk about nothing. Heâs also very agreeable. Did someone piss you off? Yeah, they suck! Got cash-back and want to use for a getaway together? Sure, heâd love to spend some quality time with you!
R = Romance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? ClichĂŠ or rather creative?
He tries to be romantic but heâs a bit clumsy. He tries to make you your favorite food but messes up the recipe. Or he runs a bath for you with rose petals and scented oil but when you enter the bathroom, the tub has overflowed. Itâs the thought that counts!
S = Support - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?
Absolutely! Heâll assist you in anyway you ask him to. He feels itâs only fair since youâve helped him so much before with his band and defending him from his mother and Mayor Lewis.
T = Thrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?
Sam loves some thrill and adventure! Heâs so happy being with you but he gets a bit antsy so every week, you two go out and do something new. Attend a local concert, eat at a different restaurant, go dancingâwhatever strikes you interest!
U = Understanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?
He is very empathetic. Heâs not very confrontational so while he will get mad on your behalf, heâs more inclined to feel sad when you are. He absolutely hates seeing you cry and might shed a few tears when you do (but heâll never let you see).
V = Value - How important is the relationship to them? What is itâs worth in comparison to other things in their life?
All of Samâs relationships are very important to him! He wouldnât think twice before sacrificing his stuff, or Yoba forbid, himself if it ever came down to it. Heâs quite impulsive already so he definitely has before when it really wasnât necessary. But it goes to show just how far heâs willing to go for you.
W = Wild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.
Sam teaches you how to skateboard, if you donât know how to already! He makes you wear knee and elbow pads (partly for his own amusement). Heâs so proud of you once you start to learn! He also offers to teach you how to play the guitar. You have little jam sessions together where he leads, while youâre still learning.
X = XOXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?
If you didnât already know how, Sam has taught you how to skateboard! He insists you wear knee and elbow pads (even though you hate how dorky they make you look, thatâs part of the fun for him). Heâll also teach you how to play guitar if you donât know how to either! He loves bonding with you this way and heâs always so excited when you get something right!
Y = Yearning - How will they cope when theyâre missing their partner?
Heâs kinda very clingy and hates to see you go! He texts you every so often to check in and remind you not to overwork yourself. Huge golden retriever vibes in the sense that heâll greet you at the door, kissing your face and hugging you tight. Expect him to be all over you for a while after you come back.
Z = Zeal - Are they willing to go to great lenghts for the relationship? If so, what kind of?
Heâd do just about anything to prove himself to you. One way he does this is by learning your favorite songs and playing them on the guitar for you! He makes sure he gets them just right before he preforms. Sometimes, he offers to sing and play them softly to you as you fall asleep.
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Sam, Sebastian and Abby's band! My favorite Stardew group to draw (I've skipped their cutscene the last six times I've played)
For the new Stardew Update I decided to redraw Sam from 2021 and dang, I kinda slayed.
chapter two - adjustments (read it on ao3 here!)
i woke up the next morning to the sound of one quiet knock and three louder knocks at my door. from my bed in the corner, i heard two voices - one: timid and unsure, the other: enthusiastic and confident. i knew immediately that these must be the two friends iâd already heard so much about, whether from lewis (who has a strong dislike for the blond boy), or robin (mother of the raven-haired boy).Â
to keep them from waiting much longer, i dragged myself out of bed and answered the door.
âhello?â i said, still wiping the sleep from my eyes.Â
the blond smiled brightly as he introduced himself, âhi! iâm sam. this is sebastian. weâre your neighbors! i know itâs only your fourth day in town, but we havenât met yet, and we wanted to introduce ourselves!â
the other man stood next to him, reddening more and more as his friend rambled on about his family, his job, and the younger people in town. eventually, sam stopped and gestured for sebastian to say something to me.Â
âh-hi,â he stuttered out, âwelcome to the most claustrophobic place north of the gem sea.âÂ
sam punched his friend as i chuckled. âmost claustrophobic, huh? i take it youâre not a huge fan of the valley..â
he shook his head in response.
i smiled before saying âwell, i canât say that i blame you. i sure didnât think that iâd be out here farming for a living before last fall!âÂ
he gives me a small smile showing off his snake bite piercings and all i can think is that lydia would love this man. thereâs not much i miss about the city, but, yoba, did i seriously consider stuffing lydia in a suitcase and bringing her with me. i smile absently.
the two men must be able to see iâm preoccupied because they take their leave but not before inviting me to the saloon on friday night. i thank them for the invitation and tell them that iâll be there.
as they walk down my porch steps and off in separate directions, i linger a moment longer before getting ready for the day.
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that morning is spent mostly watering and clearing more space for crops to cultivate. iâd finally gotten my hands on a solid number of cauliflower seeds which i was itching to grow.Â
as i planted nearly four dozen cauliflowers, my mind wandered back to Harvey⌠how had he known iâd been avoiding him? why didnât that make him less inclined to get to know me? what kind of person avoids the local doctor? what was Harvey doing right now? was he thinking about me? would it be so terrible if he were? what would i say if he appeared at this very moment while my dirt-covered overalls sagged with the weight of these damned cauliflower seeds?
it didnât matter what i would have said, though, because he didnât come. i didnât see him again for three days.Â
and, when i saw him three days later, it was while drifting in and out of consciousness as he carried me to the clinic.
hope u enjoyed <3333 see y'all next chapter ;)
TW: mention of drxgs, mention of sex
Seven.
After my farm chores were done for the day, I decided to try my hand at the mines again. I packed a couple of cave carrots and parsnips that I felt werenât good enough to sell and also picked up a couple of grapes and spice berries as I made my way up the mountain. I had visited Marlon and Gil a couple of days ago to get a real sword so I wouldnât have to use my pickaxe as a weapon. I had almost enough copper ore to smelt into the final bar I needed to upgrade my tools. Thereâs a couple of stumps on the farm that I canât quite get rid of and theyâre starting to bug me. I checked my watch, noon. I had to be back on the farm by nine for my hangout with Sebastian and Sam. For someone whoâs late all the time, Sam expects everyone else to be punctual. I didnât mind. Even after years of being separated heâs still a good friend to me. As I round the corner between Robinâs home and Linusâ tent, I see Abigail with a small dagger and a flute. I step on a stick and she whips her head around, almost like an owl. Once she sees itâs me, she relaxes.
âHey, Farmer!â she waves at me. I approach her, sword still slung over my shoulder. She looks up at me in awe.
âHey, Abigail,â I say. She scoffs and stands up.
âPlease, my parents call me Abigail. Abby is fine,â she says with a smile.
âAlright, Abby,â I correct myself, âwhatcha up to?â
âEscaping my parents,â she says and kicks some pebbles into the lake, âwhat about you?â
ââBout to mine.â She gasps.
âYouâre going in there? Iâve always wanted to,â she says, playing with her dagger in her hands. I wasnât going super deep which is where I assume all the dangers are. Right now all I had to do was be on the lookout for bugs and slimes, I could get my errands done faster if I had someone watching my backâŚ
âDo you wanna come with?â I ask while pointing to the entrance of the mines with my sword. âIâm not going deep-â
âReally? Yes! A hundred percent I would love to!â She squeals a little which was a little annoying. I havenât had many girl friends in the past but it would be nice to get to know the other person Sebastian and Sam hang out with. I feel kinda bad for taking them away from her. We start walking towards the mines and I give her a quick run down.
âIâm gonna need you to watch my back while I mine. From what I know, the monsters weâll probably see arenât super dangerous but keep your guard up. Bugs wonât provoke you, just avoid them. If they touch you it feels like a punch to your cheekbone. Thereâs also little sentient slime balls and they will attack when they see you. If they touch you, your body feels like youâre on fire but when theyâre as good as dead, the pain stops. You think you can be up for that?â I ask. Her little dagger wouldnât be able to cut anything down immediately but if she has stamina, she shouldnât have any issues.
âI can do that,â Abby says. As we take the elevator down to the fifth floor. I talked with Marlon and he said that every five floors I go, the more the elevator fixes itself, which was nice. I didnât want to end up deep below the surface and then having to restart with the tiny ladder on the first floor. As soon as the elevator doors open, weâre greeted by the damp ominous presence of the mines. I get to work on the first rock I see.
âIf you see any rocks with little orange specks sticking out, let me know,â I say to Abby. We made our way through the floor before finding a ladder which took us down. Before I can step a toe off the ladder, a little green slime ball is down there waiting for me. I take my sword and slice it in two and hop off the ladder.Â
âHoly shit, what are those things?â Abby asks as more green slimes approach us. I sigh and take a big swing, slicing a good majority of them. âOw, fuck!â Abby says, I turn over to her and watch her stab a slime over and over until it dies. I take out the rest of them and a large cluster of copper ore nodes are revealed to me. Thank Yoba, this should be more than enough. I dig in my bag for some burn cream and toss it over to Abby.
âThis should help,â I say.
âThanks. Were those the slimes you were talking about?â I nod and start mining away at the nodes.Â
âMarlon says that theyâre everywhere. Not necessarily dangerous, just annoying.â
âYea, this little dagger barely did anything. I need to save up and buy one from the Adventurerâs Guild,â she says. I finished collecting the last piece of ore that I needed.
âYou did good though!â I say as we make our way back up the mines, âwhen I first encountered a slime, I had no idea what I was doing.â Having Abby with me cut our time in the mines in half. We walk back to the farm, chatting as we do.
âSooo⌠Anybody caught your eye yet here in the valley?â She asks with a toothy grin. I blush a little, thinking of Sebastian. âOMG! Whooo tell me!â I couldnât tell her that I thought one of her best friends was attractive.
âUm⌠Alex and I haveâŚuh been enjoying each other's company,â I say quietly. Abby grabs my arm and starts jumping up and down.
âHoly shit! Like what, girl, tell me everything,â she says. I smile a little. Itâs been a while since Iâve had some girltalk.Â
âWell, I mean, I mightâve⌠sucked him off a few days ago,â I say, a little embarrassed.Â
âDamn girl, you donât play around do you?â she laughs. We walked over the tunnel and over to the back of my house where I put the furnace. After finding my first couple of ores and talking with Clint, he gave me some blueprints for a furnace which I was able to make and now I had nineteen copper bars. I place the ore and coal in the furnace, turn it on, and let it do its thing.Â
âAlex and I have some⌠trauma in common. That and in college I had a thing for gridball players soo,â I say. Abby laughs.
âI see. Shane also used to be a gridball player, maybe you should hop on that too,â she says with a wink. I blush deeper. I couldnât fuck around in the valley like I did in the city. Everybody knows everybody and I was already being reckless with Alex so I need to tone it down. âAlex and I used to date,â she says. My face drops and I start apologizing profusely.
âIâm so sorry, I didnât know, it was a one time thing, Iâll cut things off with him immediately-â
âChill, chill. We dated for like one summer when we were like twelve. It doesnât even count,â she says, âbut I appreciate⌠whatever that just was. You seem like a girl's girl,â she says. We walk to the front of my house and sit on my porch. Â
âI wasnât always. In high school I used to sleep with everyone's boyfriend. I guess itâs why I didnât have very many girl friends. I stopped that shit in college but I still found it hard to make friends,â I said. Abby wraps her arm around my shoulders.Â
âWell, youâve got me! I also donât have very many girl friends. I tried to be friendly with Maru, Sebastianâs sister but I donât know. I guess we just didnât click like that,â she says, âso tell me more about you and Alex. Did you play with his giggle berries?â I laugh.
âGiggle berries? Is that what you call balls?â I ask. Abby shrugs.
âMale anatomy is weird, might as well give them weird names right?â We laugh together.
âWhatâs all this giggling about?â We both look up and find Sam and Sebastian standing over us.Â
âWhen did this happen?â Sebastian asks and pulls out a cigarette. I look up at him with puppy dog eyes. He rolls his eyes and grabs another one from the pack. He sits down next to me and places it between my lips and lights it like usual. Sam sits next to Abigail.
âYou guys have been hogging them! Why didnât you tell me the farmerâs so cool?â She pouts. Sam shrugs his shoulders.
âYou donât like to smoke,â he says. Abby gasps.
âDoesnât mean I canât hang out with you guys!â
âYou donât like the smell,â Sebastian chimes in.
âWell you and the farmer are smoking cigarettes so maybe that smell will cover the weed smell,â she says and crosses her arms across her chest.Â
âDo not give those delinquents an excuse to chain smoke!â Sam says while packing the bowl. Sebastian and I look at each other.
âI wouldnât say weâre delinquents for smoking cigs,â I say, âhurry up and pack the bowl.â
âŚthis is just straight smut. pls be advised. (mdni!!!)
It was the week before the wedding, and you were both⌠excited, to say the least. You sat together on your couch avoiding the summer heat.
âFarmer,â he said.
âYes?â you replied, looking over at him.
He made eye contact with you and traced your cheekbone lightly with his fingers. âFarmerâŚâ he said again, but this time gutturally.Â
You suddenly understood what he wanted. But. Why let him have it so easy? You decided to play with your food, just a little.Â
âYes?â you said before batting your eyes slowly.
âFarmer. I.. I want you,â Sam said quietly.
âHmmâŚâ you pretended to think about the offer before saying âI dunno⌠It might be too hot out for me to touch you.â You said with fake disappointment.Â
Then, âyou know, it might even be too hot for me to be wearing all this heavy farm-wearâŚâ You said before unclasping your overalls and letting the straps hang at your waist. You could feel Samâs eyes glued to you as you pulled off your bulky tee shirt as well.
You fanned yourself briefly and said âWhew! Much better.â
Sam gaped at you and adjusted himself.
You saw him not-so-subtly adjust and smirked before saying âWhat, Sammy? Is there something you need?â
He flushed bright red before shaking his head and saying ân-no. No. I donât need anything.â He knew that you liked to play this game sometimes and let you take the lead.
You stalked toward him before leaning down and tipping his chin up toward you. âNothing? Hmm. A shame, really. I was going to ask if you wanted to use your favorite toy. That way I donât have to touch you, and you get what you really want. Isnât that what you want, my love? Some relief for that poor, aching cock of yours?â
Sam nodded his head vigorously into your hand before stuttering âY-yes please, maâam. Thatâs what I want. I want that so much.â
You smirked again and left the room, returning a minute later with the cock ring the two of you picked out together. It came with a remote, so you could have total control over him without even being in the same room together.
Sam was already breathless with the thought of you controlling every part of him. You sat down in the plush chair across the coffee table from him and instructed him to take off his shirt and pants. He did so immediately, discarding them behind the couch.
You looked directly at his tented boxers, and felt a little bad for the man. You were depriving him of some damn relief. He was to be your husband! You owed him this pleasure.
You crossed the room to kneel at his feet, but not before kissing him sweetly. âNow, be a good boy for me, okay? Listen to me, and I promise Iâll make you feel good.âÂ
Sam nodded eagerly in response.
As you rolled down his boxers, you watched his dick hit his stomach from arousal. You tsked and said âsomeoneâs excited, hmm? Seems like you might deserve a little reward.âÂ
He trembled and nodded âPlease. Please?â
You smiled and licked a stripe up the underside of his cock. He groaned in response.Â
You grabbed the toy from the coffee table and unwrapped it. âDo you want it, baby?â
He nodded rapidly.
âBe a good boy, and use your words, Sammy.â
He shuddered. You knew he liked this game just as much as you did. âYes, please, maâam. Please, let me use my toy. Please. Please,â he said before throwing his head back on the couch.
He seemed very anxious to play, so you acquiesced to his request. After spitting on the toy, you, carefully, pushed it down to the base of his penis before strapping his balls into the toy as well.Â
He was panting now. âI- I need it. I need you, farmer. P-please. F-fuck. Fuck me, please.â
You stood up and asked âdo you need restraints, or can you promise not to touch yourself for me, Sam?â
Sam shook his head and said âIâll be good. I promise.â
âI know you will,â you replied before kissing his forehead and returning to your chair across the room.Â
âAre you ready?â you asked him.Â
He responded instantaneously. âYes. Yes. Yes, Iâm ready, maâam.â
You smiled again and turned on the toy to its lowest setting. Over the sound of the vibrations, you heard Sam moan softly. He really was enjoying this. You loved seeing him like this. Yoba, it was starting to get you off.Â
Slowly, as he adjusted to the rhythm of the toy, you pulled off your own clothing, leaving the two of you both completely nude. Sam awoke from his trance to find you this way and shifted in his seat.
âFuck,â he whispered. âAre you- um. I- Uh.â
You traced patterns on your thighs and asked Sam âwhat do you want, my love? Tell me.â
He inhaled sharply before asking timidly, âWi-will you touch yourself? I want to watch you. W-watch you make yourself feel good. I mean. I- uh. Fuck-â He shuddered again from the toyâs stimulation.
You chuckled before saying âYes, my love. Whatever you want,â and opening your legs to give him a better view.Â
You started by caressing your inner thighs, and, when that felt like not enough, you stuck your fingers in your mouth then trailing them down to your core. You brushed over your clit and shuddered in anticipation. âFuck,â you whispered before briefly dipping your fingers into your hole. You sighed, and Sam squeaked from the other side of the room. You had been so wound up, youâd forgotten that he was there, struggling in silence.Â
You immediately pulled your fingers away and picked up the remote again.Â
âDid you like that, Sam?â You amped up the power on the toy. âDid me playing with myself arouse you?â You upped the power again. âDid it make your pretty cock pulse?â Up the power.
Sam yelped. âY-Yes.. Yes. Fuck. Yes, maâam. Fuck!âÂ
You upped the power once more, to the highest setting before setting it down next to you and plunging your fingers back into yourself. âMmmm. I bet it did, you slut. You like watching, huh? Your dick hardens just thinking about me pleasing myself, doesnât it?â
Sam yelped, louder this time. âFUCK! Fuck. Fuck y-yes. Yes! You.. FUCK. You pleasing yourself.. It gets me off. Fuck! Fuck. Farmer. Farmer, pl-please. Please come here. FUCK!â
You played with your clit for a minute more, just to make him squirm, before crossing the room to finish him off.Â
He was gasping for air by the time you reached him. âBaby. Baby. Please. Please. Fuck. Fuck me, please.âÂ
You petted his hair and his head fell onto your chest. âFarmerâŚâ
You smoothed out his hair before kneeling at his feet again. You spat on your hand and began to pump his neglected cock. His reaction to your touch was immediate. His whole body shuddered, and he moaned your name.Â
You kissed his tip before opening your mouth and taking as much of him as you could. He wasnât very girthy, but his length more than made up for it. You pumped him again, covering as much of him in you as possible.Â
He whimpered, and you knew he was close. âFarmerâŚâ he squeaked out. âFuck. Fuck! PleaseâŚâ
You had saved this as your final trick⌠You removed your lips from his length and attached them to his balls, sucking lightly. This was his favorite. The first time you were together, he came as soon as you slightly grazed his balls. Heâd been embarrassed, but youâd known that this secret would come in handy when he was close to finishing.Â
While your mouth sucked at his balls, you used your hands to pump him applying slight pressure. He was very vocal when at his limit, and this was it. He whimpered and groaned and shook and before you could come up for air, he had tapped your shoulder indicating he was about to cum.Â
You immediately reattached your lips to his cock and cradled his balls in your hands. You squeezed lightly, and he came in your mouth.Â
âAhâ Ah. Fu-Fuck. FUCK! Oh- oh Yoba.. FarmerâŚ. Farmer..â he was out of breath, and, as you swallowed his cum, it was all he could do not to pass out from the sight. You kissed his thigh as you removed the toy. You then rubbed his thighs before standing up to gââet a towel and some water for your lovely partner.Â
Before you left, though, he grabbed onto your hand, looked you in the eyes, and said, âFarmer, I really, really love you. You know that right?â
You smiled and kissed his hand. âI love you, too, Sammy.â
OKAY UM YES. LOL. my first time writing a full-length scene I hope it is okay n i hope y'all like it LAWL ! lmk if u have any suggestions or anything i am new at this so any advice is awesome !! thank u :3
SAM POST COMING TODAY I PROMISE I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS MUAHAHAHAHAH
âŚ.after i finish my paper đĽ˛
When you first met him, you were a bit overwhelmed by his âpep.â The boy with the spiky, blond hair who always wore a smile despite his ever-healing lip piercing. He did have a wonderful smile. No wonder he was always showing it off. It made you smile to yourself, just thinking about it.Â
In your first year on the farm, you were swamped with work. From chopping down trees to make room for sprinklers to trying your best to fix up the old community center in the middle of town, youâd just barely make it into bed on time every night. This meant you had barely any time to meet your neighbors, much less get to know them. Your over excited neighbor, however, seemed to have made it his mission to spend as much time with you as possible.
One day, in mid summer, when you were replanting melon seeds, his shadow darkened your property. Youâd heard him coming before you saw him; heâd been humming to himself a song heâd been writing for his band. He had asked you, in the spring, what genre of music you liked and youâd tried to answer in a way that he wouldâve approved of: âhi-energy dance music.â He seemed to accept this answer and promptly started writing such a song with his long-time best friend.
âHey,â he said as he approached.Â
You greeted him without looking up from your field, âhi, Sunshine.âÂ
This was a nickname youâd started calling him after heâd lost at pool for the seventh time in the three weeks youâd known him. You had always known him as a ray of sunshine, but when he lost at pool, he seemed to get downright depressed. The nickname was born from insistent teasing, but after a while, it became a pet name of sorts.
The boy rolled his eyes when he heard the nickname but you could swear you saw his cheeks tinge pink in the afternoon sun.Â
âWhaddya need? I have about fifty more seeds to plant today, but then I can hang out if you want,â you said, face buried in your work.
âHmm,â he said. Then, âcan I help? I dunno how you want me to plant, but maybe I could water some of them? âŚif thatâd be helpful, I mean.â
You looked up at him. âYea. Yea, thatâd be great. Thanks, Sunshine,â you said and smiled at him.
He smiled back at you and picked up the copper watering can that had been discarded early in the morning when you found your crops ripe to be plucked.Â
-ËËâââââ
About an hour later, you had both finished your chores, and you were sitting on your porch while he stood in front of you. You leaned in just enough to examine each of his features closely. He was quite beautiful, you thought to yourself. His silver lip ring, his enormous blue eyes, his golden hair, covered up today with a baseball cap. You reached over and pulled it off his head. He started.Â
âWhy did you do that?â he asked.
You shrugged before saying âI wanted to see your face better.â You reached up to brush his hair out of his face and smiled. Suddenly, he grabbed your hand and pulled you toward him. You were about to say something, but he kissed you, and it felt like you were on fire. He was maybe the third person youâd ever kissed and, by far, the best one.Â
He smiled brightly and said cheekily, âalright. I gotta go. Momâs making dinner and she needs me to swing by the general store before she can start cooking.â He looked you up and down before simply saying âbye!â and turning on his heel.
HEHE hope u like it is my first sam post :3
sam post coming later today????? muahhahahhahahahaha i did this for u @sakurocha >:)
i made a playlist of songs sam would def play for farmer hehe âË⥠âĄ
i like to think that ppl come to farmer for comfort or jst to genuinely hangout... requesting sam coming to farmer's house in the middle of the night as he confides in them w hot chocolate / coffee / tea đđťđđť
pairing: sam x reader
wc: 1.6k
tags: MILD hurt/comfort, pre-relationship, they are friends here!!
synopsis: sticky summer nights always make you feel a little restless.
a/n: its been 2 months with no sam fic!!!! here is my sincere apology hehe. title from apple cider by beabadoobee. this ask is so cute anon mwa mwa
Nothing ever truly rests during the summer; not even during the night.
Fireflies flicker and fly, weaving through the sparse grass beds sprouting from under your porch. The dark is hardly dark, your eyes have adjusted to the sparse light emanating from your dingy porch light. Your cardigan is haphazardly thrown off, draped over the hand-carved trellis. Bare feet meet the grass; damp and cool against your heated skin.
Energy thrums through the air, electrifying it with the undercutting buzz that leaves you wide awake. The season leaves the nights tepid, leaving your skin sticky.Â
You canât sleep; not one bit tuckered out after a whole day toiling the fields. Though your mind is blissfully blank, your hands are preoccupied with bringing your mug to your lips.
The cacophony of crickets chirping echo through the flat farmlands of your property. Itâs quiet, peaceful. Yet you are wide-eyed and awake, sipping on herbal teaâa mixture of herbs from your crop bedsâin the hopes you can knock yourself out.Â
You are hyper aware of your surroundings, unable to pull yourself into the sleepy state you want. You feel the sheen of sweat drying on your skin, the warm summer breeze tickling the nape of your neck, the sweet smell of almost-ripe melons growing on your farm. The rhythmic sound of trees swaying with the wind.
The odd sound of a twig snapping is enough to pull you out of your reverie.Â
Your gaze snaps to the side, past your mailbox and to the dark path leading to town. Eyes adjusted to the dark, you see vague impressions of familiar surroundings. You drag your eyes to and fro, scanning.
A head of blond hair flashes through the otherwise dark veil of night, lamplight catching the brilliant golden hues of it. Doubting your eyes you furrow your brow; squinting your eyes, shifting on the porch steps, aiming to get a clearer look. Your mug is forgotten on your lap.
The figure shifts, tilting their head upwards and towards your direction. Then blue eyes lock with yours, the warm light of your porch lantern illuminating his expression. Recognition dawns on your faceâ
âSam?â
Sam stops mid-step, face contorting into shock that outdoes your own. He flails, struggling with his words as to why in the world heâs caught on your farm in the wee hours of the night.
Both of you freeze, staring at each other in silence. Your fingers tighten then loosen around your mug. A tight line is made out of your lips.
âWhat are you doing?â you ask, tilting your head in confusion.
âItâs not what you think!â he holds his hands up in immediate surrender. âI was walking, andâand, my mind was blank. I just followed the path, I swear.â
You blink, once then twice. âSamââ
âAndâand,â he blabbers, âI guess⌠your farm was the best bet⌠The safest.â
That eases the nervous pitter-patter of your heart. Itâs rare you get anyone on the farm aside from Lewis this late. Youâre relieved, perplexed by his skittish behavior. It goes against what you already know about him.Â
Your eyes crinkle whilst you squint up at him, giving him a once-over. Like this, he reminds you of a teenager caught red-handed, eyes practically bulging out of his head with anxiousness.
An amused chuckle slips past your lips before you register it, smiling. âSam. Can I speak?â
Sam turns back to face you, finally still. It gives you a clearer look at his appearance. Wild flaxen locks are tapered down by the beanie shoved over his head. His shirt is inside out, hanging awkwardly on his frame. He looks like he just rolled out of bed.Â
âOhâoh yeah⌠my bad.â
A hand goes to pick back up your mug. âYouâre good.â You take a sip of your tea. âPlus, Iâm not bothered.â
âOhâŚâ Relief lets his shoulders go lax with a puffed breath. Then he looks back at you, conflicted on his face. âHang on...You think me walking into your private property isânothing?â
You snort. âYouâre the last person Iâd think would be worried about that.â
Sam paces, rocking back and forth on his heels, sporting a grim frown on his face. His gaze drops back down to the path, kicking at the pebbles. You wince internally; he doesnât seem in good enough shape for jokes. It tugs at your heartstrings, a deep sigh pulled from your mouth and out into the humid air.
âKidding. But itâs really no biggie.â you wave off. âCome by whenever. Iâm always restless during the summer.â
He stares, breathing uneven and nervous. âSeriously?â
You nod, unusually calm in the face of his supposed trespassing. âItâs a me problem. Itâs too humid to sleep comfortably. I even get more tired once I wakeââ
âNo, I mean,â he interjects, eyes wide. âI can come over? Anytime?â
âYeah,â you shrug, rolling the muscles in your shoulders. âIâd love your company.â
âBut what if youâre busy?â
âYouâll have to help me in the fields, then.â you tease, eyes crinkling. âYouâve got good legs for it already.â
A grin cuts through the grim lines of his face, âAre you 100% sure?â
You nod, eagerly. âMhm.â
âAh,â he rubs the back of his neck, suddenly sheepish. âThatâs good. Super good. I wanted⌠well, I was kinda hoping to see you too.â
âWell now youâve seen me.â
âYeah, Iâm glad. But ughâI dunno, I guess my headâs a little messed up right now.â He runs a hand over his face, a frustrated groan along with it.Â
You watch him. There is never a part of him that keeps still, even now.Â
Maybe thatâs why the words seem to come out so naturally when youâre with Sam. The restlessnessâalways grasping, bouncing, and shifting. âDâya wanna come inside? Maybe it could help.â
âYes, yeah. I want to.â he replies, instantly but then he double takes, checking in with you. âCan I?â
âI invited you too,â you laugh, pulling yourself up. âCalm down Sam, youâre fine.â
âCome in,â you call, pushing open your door. You do not turn and wait for him, traveling through the dark with the familiarity one has only in their own home.Â
You hear him pulling off his shoes by the doorway, then the padding of his feet trailing after yours.
Humming, you switch on your lamplight, propping it up on your kitchen table, pulling the chair back for Sam to sit in. You set your mug down on the opposite side.
The cabinet creaks when you swing it open, revealing your countless containers of seasonings and spices collected over the seasons. The rich smell of all of it mingling together wafts through your nose.Â
A pack of apple cider bottles stands by the cinnamon sticks, a welcome gift from months ago you havenât gotten into yet.Â
You tilt your head back to glance at him, finding him sitting statue-still in your chair, then turn back to your cabinet.
âI have some apple cider, you want some?â
His eyes snap to yours, âOh, yeah.â
Nodding, you tiptoe, grasping the glass bottle by the neck from the far end of the cabinet.Â
You sit the bottle down on the counter, popping off the cap with the flat edge of a knife. The cider fizzes, bubbling up until the neck then reducing. The sharp fruity scent of carbonation and apple mingles with the humid air. Sam takes it from your outstretched hand with a murmured âthanksâ.
You sit opposite him. With your legs pulled up to your chest, you wiggle in your seat, leaning your cheek against your knees. Your eyes low as you cradle your own drink in your hands. Sam takes slow sips of the cider, the bubbles painting the edges of his lips then fizzing away.Â
It feels natural to watch him like this, like all normal neighborly decorum has flown out the window, making room for thisâwhatever this silent companionship may bring.Â
Curious, you break the veil of silence. âSo what brings you here?â
Sam runs his tongue over his bottom lip, catching the stray drop of apple cider by the corner. His gaze goes faraway, eyebrows furrowing automatically without him aware. Heâs silent as he thinks over your question, face contorting.
âJustâsomething at home, I guess. I wanted a breather.â
You swirl the string of your teabag, looking up from under your lashes. âFamily stuff?â
â...Yeah, family stuff.â
You hum, voice low. You have a faint idea on what heâs talking about. Samâs father, Kent, has been having a difficult time adjusting back to civilian life after being dischargedâyou heard.Â
Your eyes track over his form, his shoulder hunched and lower than youâve ever seen them. Under the low light of your kitchen table, you pinpoint the signs of weariness marking his faceâeye bags under his eyes and a perpetual wrinkle in his brow deep enough you see the shadow of it under his mess of hair.Â
âYou donât need to tell me if you donât feel like it,â you simply say.Â
You look out the windows, eyes tracking the swirling the flickering lights of lightning bugs outside. Gaze low as you stew in silence. Your fingers tap idly at the table. You feel calmer, sleepier. That persistent buzzing under your skin dissipating into the boneless way you sit.Â
There will be more sticky summer nights like these, youâre sure. Maybe heâll share whatâs on his mind then but right now, youâre quite content with the silence. It cradles you like a refreshingly cool gust of air, tapering the heated expanse of your skin.Â
âMaybe next time,â Sam murmurs, staring into the steaming cup. âWhen I come over again.â
A smile unfurls on your lips when he raises his head to look at you. âWhen you come over again.â
pairing: sam x reader
wc: 1.1k
tags: CHEEEEESY cheesy cheesy puppy love, mutual pining, sam is PATHETICALLY down bad, pre-relationship, abigail and sebastian mentioned, friends to lovers
synopsis: if it were up to sam, he'd spend every second of everyday at your side.
a/n: in all of my other sam fics, its reader embarrassingly in love with him...he gets a taste of his own medicine here lol!
With vanilla ice cream melting and dripping down your fingertips, coarse sand underneath you and the salty ocean waves lapping at your feet; you are a child again, sitting with your grandpa at the docks, watching as he reeled in a âbig oneâ. Filling his bucket with loads and loads of fish.
Those days are far gone now, but the memory remains, as clear as the day you remember it. The feeling is nostalgic, sleepy in the way your senses are dulled by syrupy thick contentment. Beaches at sunset have that effect on you, you suppose.Â
âThis is fun,â Sam says, tone lacking its boisterous loudness, you almost donât hear it over the sound of crashing waves. âI had a lot of fun today, farmer.â
Your eyes flicker to him, his green gaze dead-set on the peachy golden sky, the taste of sea salt mingling with sweet ice cream heavy in your tongue. The sea breeze is cold, whipping against your face and running through your hair.
âI did too,â you agree. âYâknow, I donât get a lot of off time with the farm and stuff. This is a nice change of pace.â
He smiles, that sunshine smile youâve come to associate with Sam. âI caught you at just the right time then, huh?âÂ
You shrug, your own smile mirroring his. âAuspicious.â He did.
The sun is setting, the day is coming to a close yet Sam wishes it wouldnât, silently pleading with any higher being to somehow stretch time. He is barely a religious person, but the weight of his want is enough to transcend his own beliefs. Every second with you barely feels like enough; like sand slipping through his fingers.
One thingâs for certain, Sam isnât going to just let it end here.
âWe should hang out like this again,â Sam says, a little hurriedly, captured all in one breath. Shy and tentative, like a bashful child with a school crush. âUh, I mean, do you? Wanna? Hang out with me?â
You can barely suppress a delighted chuckle from slipping past your lips, your chest warming with fond affection. âIâd be more than happy to. Yoba knows I need a break or two or Iâll actually explode,â you huff while Sam hums in agreement. âWe can even invite Abigail and Sebastian⌠so can demo that new song for me, I see you all working very hard when I visit sometimes.â
He should be happy to hear that; that youâd be more than happy to spend your precious off time with him out of all people. You and him, him and you, Sam and the farmer. Your name connected to his with âandâ, it makes him giddy, causes his cheeks pinken and pinken.Â
Just the two of you, though. Sure, he loves his friends, Abby and Seb have been with him since day one. But it feels out of placeâ
(Sam, Sebastian, Abigail and the farmer doesnât have that ring to itâŚ)
âYeah, IâI dunno, itâs justâŚâ
The unfiltered truth is stupid, at least to him. Vincent is far too young for some of the things Sam longs to say. Thereâs a reason Abby and Seb hang out under his nose, he wonât blame them, they have their own secrets he isnât privy toâtoo serious, too dull for him.
(And now with you, he thinks you might just be the one he can share his own secrets with. Because even he has his own serious, dull thoughts. Thoughts that he doesnât want brushed away with a snarky remark or a sarcastic laugh.)
âI kinda like that itâs just the two of us?âÂ
His voice sounds unsteady, squeaky. Trailing off at the end, lost in the sound of water crashing at your feet. Phrasing his statement into a question that you could deny, that you could easily brush offâbecause if you did, he would too.Â
(It would be a bummer if you did though, but Sam is cool with that, chill with any decision you make. Really, he totally is.)
You grin, bumping your shoulder against his, your ice cream is dripping down, down, down your knuckles. Once your skin meets his, you donât pull away, you press closer and closer to his side. Leaning your head against his sunburnt shoulderâbut he barely registers the stingâand your arm against his own. Itâs a pleasant weight, having you against himâgrounding and tethering him to you.
âI do too. Like it, I mean. I think I get to see so many other sides to you, Sam. Without the others and all that.â
Sam feels his breath hitch, his cheeks flush even pinker even with the sunburns. âWoah, phew, I meanâawesome⌠When, when do you think we can meet next?â
You tilt your head, running calculations through your mind. Youâre very busy on that farm, he knows; but Sam canât help but keep his hopes up, youâre fun company. Maybe the best heâs had yet.
âI know I wonât have enough time until my melons are ready for harvestingâand donât you dare try making a joke about that,â you smile, wide and cheeky. Right as Sam readies an innuendo at the tip of his tongue; it makes his blood pump faster and his breathing stutters at the thought of you knowing him so well.Â
âSo how about this?â you propose slowly. âWe spend one day every month doing all the stuff we wanna do, together. just you and meâfun right? Iâll even sleep a little earlier the night before.â
Sam bites into his ice creamâchocolate and your treat, at your insistenceâthough he isnât quite sure if the immediate smile on his lips is due to its sweetness, or yours.
He leans closer into you, resting his head on top of yours, strands of your hair tickling his lips. Lowering his voice into a whisper so only you can hear.
(The secret is that you make Sam want. Want, want, want like heâll never get sick of it. He hoards these stolen moments with you so greedily yet wants more.)
ââŚtwo days, two days each month.â
He feels your body shake with the strength of your laughter, warmth swirls all throughout his body, tingling wherever your body brushes against his own. Sam finds that he likes the feeling, the buzz of itâitâs addicting.
âYeah, alright then,â you reply, mirth dripping from each and every word. âtwo days. We have a deal. Better?â
âYeah,â he turns back to face the water, the ocean spray misting his face. âYeah, a lot better. That does sound fun.â
Anything sounds fun when it involves you.
If growing up ever taught Sam anything, it was to take a hint.
To leave the room if his parentâs discussion was starting to get heated, to head home when Sebastian started to quieten and recluse while hanging outâ
âŚand you probably donât like him as much as he liked you.
Itâs such a cynical thought to have while playing on stage in front of countless people. Spotlights highlight him in a bath of brightness, his fingers move almost effortlessly on the strings of his guitar. All his friends and family are in the crowd, cheering the Pelicans on for their first performance.
Theyâre all showing their support, yesâbut Sam can only really notice you.
Right in the smack front-middle is youâthe silly farmer heâs fallen head over heels over; youâre bobbing your head to the beat of the song with a tentative, almost secretive smile. Not like the big proud grins that you usually offer him, when your teeth are bared and lips stretched so far your cheeks hurtâno, you look every bit the pining yearner in the books Penny would tell him about.
Itâs a look heâs terribly familiar with, itâs exactly how he looks at you.
When heâs on the stage, all the attention on him as he sings every high and low note, itâs easy to shut his eyes and picture you staring up at him with that lovesick expression that he reserves for only you.
Itâs wishful thinking. But Sam knows how to take a hint. You arenât looking at him, whoâs right under the spotlight and center stageâbut right over his shoulder.
You donât smile at him like that.
He knows the adoring look in your eyes is only for Sebastian.
word count: 3.2k
tags: hurt/comfort , family struggles , reader and sam are married , set somewhere in year 2 (kent is back) , oneshot , intimacy
synopsis: Sleep evades you on nights like these, without Sam by your side.
a/n: i love sam but the allure of angst is too hard to resist!!! sorry babe i still love you đ
Sleep evades you on nights like these, without Sam by your side.
Your feet are bare as you linger at the entrance of your room. The dimmed light of the living room washes away the darkness of the hour. It's late, the air is cool and damp smelling of night dewâyou take a deep inhale. It feels thick as you breathe it in, like smoke is clouding around the room, restricting your breaths.
Sleepless nights were not unusual in your household. Before you married Sam, you hardly sleptâthe satisfying ache of collapsing into your sheets after a day at the mines was an addiction you couldnât get enough of.Â
Now, you earn enough to afford coming home before sunset. No longer having to worry about how youâd afford the next day. And if you are being completely honest, evenings spent with Sam are far more addicting than the sting of a dayâs work.Â
The ache is still there. It comes with the profession. Though not anymore the dull humming ache in the muscles and joints of your arms and legs, but a bone deep ache settled deeply curling around your chest.Â
Somehow, it stings even more.
It is as if it drags over your heart, catching on every ridge and edge of your bones. Daring to fill your lungs with ichorâhardening like stone around your ribs. No amount of stardrop you swallow can ever relieve the stinging soreness.Â
The cushions of the old second-hand couch groan and squeak as you twist and turn atop of them. Perhaps as restless as you are. The light flickersâon, off, on.Â
It doesnât scare you, but it makes you uneasy. Youâre long over the notion the farmhouse was haunted, but nights like these make that conviction waver. The nape of your neck pricklesâlike a person is staring from behind. Sam isnât here to tease you about ghosts nor curl his arms around you in mock protection.Â
He hasnât been here in hours, hasnât been present in so long. It feels wrong. It feels like an omen. Your fingers find the back of your neck, brushing over the vulnerable skin.Â
You hold a tassel cushion tightly to your chest. Your knuckles whitening with the strength of your grip on it. The strength of your heartbeat is so loud youâre convinced it would be heard without the pillow to muffle the sound.Â
Little Vincent is sound asleep, snoring softly away in his dreamland. He looks like the epitome of innocence under the quilted blankets of your bed. It's soft, worn and covered in stitched cartoon-y lions and tigers. A temporary parting gift bundled up in his dinosaur backpack from jodi. Before he came to live with you and his older brother.Â
The separation was painful. there were tearsâfor both him and for his mother.Â
(Sam stood next to you then, gripping at your hand so hard you felt it prickling with numbness. You didnât dare look up to see the tears you know are there, the crystalline tears dripping down his lash line.Â
It wouldâve made the teardrops in yours fall over too. Youâd stay strong for the both of you.)
The entrance door to the farmhouse creaks open and you immediately know itâs him. Relief floods your whole bodyâto your fingertips to your toes. He's safe, and home at last. You stand up and hurry to him, throwing the pillow to the ground, before the door creaks shut.
The air goes still, calm before the storm. The anticipation before potential terrible news.
(You expect there will be. You can tell by the way Sam slumps, like the weight is physically bearing down on his shoulders.)
Sam is still at the doorway, slumping over you when you wrap your arms around him. He smells of sweat and the cloying scent of rubbing alcoholâsomething mustâve happened, you think. It smells like the clinic.
The paper bag in his hand loses from his grip, it falls unceremoniously to the ground with a dull thump. You pay it no heed, mentally accounting to pick it up later. Though you note that it lands right over your âhome sweet homeâ doormat. Fitting. Â
âSammy.â you greet him with a chaste peck on the cheek. He barely has the energy to hug back, more so stay steadily upright on his feet. you both sway slightly, suspended in the tranquility of the moment.
You try again, slowing the movement of your lips. âWelcome home, my love. you there?â
His lips move against the skin of your neck, a whisper of a greeting. It is enough for you.
Sam retracts his face from your jaw. There are blue-purple eye bags under his eyes, like bruises. The trademark twinkle in his brilliant green irises have dulled to nothingness. He looks so unlike himself like this, older than his years and so unbearably tired.
And you wish, with all your heart, to take his aches away. To wash them away like ink in water.Â
You pull him into the living room with you, the skin of his wrist enclosed in the firm guiding grip of your fingers. He's fragile like this, this sunshine of a man reduced to a shell of his usual demeanor.Â
He trails slowly behind you, silent. You say nothing, either; choosing to focus on the rhythmic sounds of your footsteps padding against the floor. In the living room, you dim the lights to a mere whisper of light.Â
These days, when he comes home, youâve built some sort of routine.
You drag him down to you, spread lying down on the length of the couch. Your thighs frame his hips as he melts into the warmth of body. He lays on top of you, his cheekbone against your chest. You watch as his eyes flutter shut, as he presses his ear to the epicenter of your chestâthe sound of your heartbeat quieting the swirl of thoughts in his mind.Â
You gently remove the woolen beanie nestled on his headârevealing the stringy oily mess of hair under. A sign of how little care he has been sparing himself after his fatherâs homecoming. You feel your lips downturn into a frown. He hasnât even been using that hair gel you like to tease and groan about.Â
(You lied when youâd say you hated it. You donât, never did.Â
You miss it. You miss the things that make him, him.)
You donât hesitate in running your hands through the softness of his hair. Your fingers scratch gently on his scalp, eliciting a soft sigh from your weary husband. Eyes watch raptly as his shoulders unwind and ripple. The tension in them melts away with the deft caress of your hands.
Your heart squeezes painfully in your chest. Like a knife twisting. You love him, you love him.
Moments pass, the silence is almost comfortable when you ask, speaking it to the silence of the room. Thereâs a wavering lilt in your voice reassuring him. You arenât going to push him for an answer. He doesnât need to respond. Him being safe, home and warm in your arms is all you ever want. All youâll ever need.
âHow are they?âÂ
(The first night, you and Sam stayed the night in his family home. squeezed in his twin bed with Vincent curled up by his ribs. The little boy couldnât bear sleeping alone that night, not with the anxiety of his father being back making him pace a mile a minute.
The air in the household had shifted that day.
In the dead of the night, the fire alarm went offâa blaring loud beeping sound from the kitchen. Totally harmless, a malfunction. A disturbance to sleep more than anything.
Except it was not.
You still remember the blood-curdling scream that came from Jodi and Kent's room. The panicked sobs of Jodi as she tried to calm her terror stricken husband.Â
You remember the way Vincent clung onto you, like a koala to a tree. You cupped your hands tightly over his earsâhe didnât need to suffer the consequence of it.
Sam removed the fire alarm and Vincent from the house the next morning.)
His voice is hushed when he speaks. A pin could drop and be more clearly heard. âMom's⌠getting better.âÂ
Not getting worse than she already is.
You plant a kiss on the crown of his head, lips soft and adoring on his skin. You ache to take his burden, to take his share of suffering.Â
It hurts sometimes, to be right beside him but feel so faraway. Yet like this, feeling every curve and edge of his bodyâyou can convince yourself that it doesnât. Â
âIs Vince asleep?â
âYes,â you reply, tucking a blond curl behind his ear. His head unconsciously tilts to the room where his younger brother rests. Ever so protective of him even like this.Â
Continuing you say, âHe was looking for you,â you thread your fingers through the short blond strands at his neck. Sam untenses slightly in your arms, his arms going limp at your sides. âHe's been fidgety lately. Restless.â
âHe usually is.â his feeble attempt at a joke. Though the rasp in his voice only makes it sound resigned. You purse your lips, eyes tracking back to the cedar wood of your bedroom door on the other side of the roomâand the sleeping child behind it.
You stroke Sam's hair, thinking. âMore so than usual.â
(You know why. He knows too. Kent wasnât the same when he returned from the war. He was vulnerable, not the fragile type but vulnerable in the way a ignited bomb threatened an explosion.
Vincent wasnât eitherâgrown much more from that thumb suckling toddler when he left.
âMy dad is coming home soon,â Sam confides in you on that day on that day on the beach. Him standing a few feet away from the shore line, and you; next to him.
âThis isnât how I wanted him to grow up,â his voice cracks with vulnerability. âIâI want him to have a better childhood than I did.â
âHe will, Sam. He will.â I know youâll make sure of it.
His eyes are red-rimmed and raw when he looks at you. All you wanted was to wipe that anguished expression off his face.)
He is silent. All is silent. Tranquility is like a honey thick syrup poured over your chest, smeared all over the expanse of your body. The soft sounds of your synchronized breathing is the only sound you can bear to hear. It makes your eyes droop, the lethargic feeling dulling your senses.
Your hand reaches for his, intertwining your palm with his long-fingered one. You relish in the familiar feeling of his calloused fingertips, earned from afternoons spent with his guitar. His skin is warm, warmer than yours. You give his hand a tentative squeeze, he squeezes back.
âMom told me to say hi to you both for her,â he tells you, his breathing slow and deep. âShe misses him, and you. Sheâs coming to visit as soon as she can.â
âVince misses her too,â you sigh, craning your head forward to peek at the top of his head. âIt's affecting him, I can tell. Penny's getting worried. She tells me he hasnât been himself at school.â
All that Sam can manage is a deep intake of breath, then a softer resigned exhale. There isnât much nor enough for him to say. Your free hand goes to smooth down his back. The muscles there are toughâbunched up and tense.
He shifts between your thighs, baring down heavier on your pelvis. Even as tired as he is, Sam is restless. Always has been, whether it be on his skateboard or with his guitar. You ignore the growing ache in your lower backâit is not your moment, but his. The warmth of his weight on top of you overpower any discomfort you have.
Twirling the stray curl at his neck, you finally ask. Fingers featherlight against his shoulder. âHow⌠is he?â
Sam stiffens above you, the lean line of his body rigid. Heâs clearly distressed with talking about his father. You suck a breath through your teeth, knocking your leg gently against his, giving your silent push for him to continue.
âI can't even lie,â he squeezes his eyes shut and turns his face away. âIt isn't good, Doc Harvey says dadâs got PTSD from the war. It's triggered by loud sounds. Remember the time he woke up because of the fire alarm?â
You nod, curling your fingers around his. You try to provide him any semblance of comfortâto reassure him. You love him, always.Â
It's painful to see, to watch what heâs going through only by the sidelines.Â
Sam looks up at you from your chest, eyes blurry with exhaustion. His jaw tensing ever so slightly, you see the patchy blonde stubble starting at the jut of his jaw. The wrinkle in his brow growing more prominent at the mention of his father. It's a fresh type of wound, raw and open. You dance around the topic, like poking a sleeping lion that threatens to attack at any given moment.
âWeâve transferred him to stay in my old room. Heâs been holed up there most of the time. The nightmares are keeping mom up. He wakes up screaming most nights." Sam rasps, squeezing your fingers. He speaks lowly against the thin fabric of your sleep shirt, the heat of his body bleeding through it and into you.Â
His voice dissolves into a pained crack when he speaks. âIt sucks.â
âIt will get better, we can get through it,â you sit up slightly, elbows bent behind you. Sam's been out the whole day. You assume he must be starving and tired. âDo you need anything?â
Sam doesnât let you up, though. He tugs you back down under him with the gentle pull of his arm. You still in his arms, looking down at him.
âNo,â he pleads. âjust⌠stay with me, okay? Let's stay like this, please.â
You swallow, nodding. âYes, of course.â
You wish you could ease his worries. You wish you could tell him that itâll be alright and he would believe it.
You love him, more than life itself. Like you are a planet that orbits around him, the sun. You show him so everydayâand will continue to do so with everyday that will come.Â
You just wish heâd be more selfish with you.
If he falls, youâll piece him back together. Glue his bones together with your hands, relying on the familiarity of his being. Anything, youâd do anything.
The matching mermaid pendants resting over his and your collarbone symbolizes that.
âI want to help you, sam. You take all this burden up on your own. please?â
He sits up, back hunched over you. A dim shadow of him filtered over you. You follow him, like you canât bear to be apart from him.Â
âYou are, you always have,â Sam softens, gazing at you so reverently you could sob. He looks at you as one gazes at master paintings, like he is in wordless awe of you.Â
The room is dark with night. If you strain your ears hard enough, the cooing of the owls filter through the cracks of your windows. The moonlight is scarce, you can barely see the expressions painting his face. Though, youâre sure your expression is as lovesick as his. Practical hearts in your eyes as you stare.
âLooking after Vince is more than I could ever ask for, honey.â he whispers, pinching the hem of your sleep shirt between his thumb and pointer finger.Â
âNo Sam,â you murmur, taking his face into your hands. your hands frame his face, warming the cool skin of his cheeks. Desperation fills every movement in a plea for him to understand. âI meant you.â
You inhale, relishing the smell of sweat, mint and rubbing alcohol on his skin. The scent smells so comforting, and so familiar.Â
You hope he finds that same solace in you as you do with him.
âI want to take care of you,â you say more firmly, stroking him on the skin of his brow bone. âWonât you let me?â
He stares at you, enveloping your hands with warmer ones. You sigh contentedly at the feeling. They sear into your skin, warming you with the righteous heat of his devotion.Â
To you, he is the sun and you have the sun right in the palm of your hands. You know he wonât ever burn you, nor leave your skin red and raw from his intensity. His rays are gentle, a featherlight whisper of a kiss on the expanse of your body.
But the sun never stops shining. It is steadfast in its duty to provide. You worry, will he explode in a grand supernova or crumple into a black hole?Â
Either way, you will never allow it. Youâd rather douse the sun in the water of the ocean to hold him in your arms. Maybe then, he can finally rest soundly.Â
You feel his thumb rub back and forth on the back of your palm, silent and considering. The brush of it melting you against him like a contented cat. A smile graces your lips, you can wait.
Though you do not need to. Sam turns his head and kisses your wrist. His nose bumping into the crease of your thumb. You feel honeyed warmth drip down your heart, collecting in the cavern of your chest.
That's all the confirmation you need.
(There are some days his words fail him. The days his mind is bursting with ideas, so much so itâs difficult for him to convey a singular thought.
That's alright. Perfect, even. Sam has always been better at expressing himself through actions.)
âI love you,â you kiss his forehead, then over each of his eyelids. You want to kiss every inch of his skin until there is nothing left to cover. âso, so much.â
You press your lips to the corner of his. Opting to speak your promise against his skin, to tattoo your undying love into the smooth expanse of it.Â
Sam tilts his head, causing his lips to brush completely against yours. He presses them firmer against yours, the taste of spearmint gum heavy on his tongue. You lick the seam of his lipsâlet me in, let me in.Â
âI love you too. more than you know,â he gasps, tearing his lips away. His breath puffing warmly against the skin of your cheek. He declares it as if heâs running out of breath, and it is his final words. A willing sailor drowning in the deep ocean that is you. âMore than anything, more than life itself.â
You press your forehead against his. Your eyes meet the depthless green of his. The twinkle is there; flickering and faint but present.
Love is what brought him to you. Itâs what keeps bringing him home to you every night. You want to be his refuge, his comfort, his partner for life.Â
Your eyes shut, eyelashes fluttering against your cheekbones. âShare the burden with me, Sammy. I can take it.â
At the end of the day, he is all you want. All that you need. If it takes him time, you wonât mind. even if it takes centuries.
Sam captures your lips again. Murmuring his agreement greedily against you. You love him, you love him and he loves you.Â
You are the one he comes back to, his spouse. The greatest love of his life. Home isnât the farmhouse youâve built a life inâ
Itâs you, always has been you.
word count: 3.2k
summary: samâs ten heart event with a twist.
tags: winter, developing relationships, fluff, swearing, cuddling, hiding from his mother in his bed lol
a/n: this spiralled out of my control and into 3k words⌠enjoy!
itâs cold.
the fleece coat youâve bundled yourself in cannot protect goosebumps from forming from the biting chill of the valleyâs winter nights. your breaths come out in cloudy puffs of air, the heat slowly draining out of every exhale. itâs dark out, poorly spaced lampposts providing the bare minimum amount of light to navigate.
you got samâs letter earlier, a clumsily written note that was stuffed haphazardly into your farmâs mailboxâthe yellow lined paper he used, all crumpled and ripped.
meet me in front of my house! at 8 pm, iâll be waiting. thereâs something i want to tell you.
the ending sentence is somehow even more sloppily written compared to the ones before it. as if he was debating whether or not to add it in, but ultimately decided for itâitâs funny to imagine him hunched over his desk, stressing over what to write to you.
well, you wonât deny feeling excitement over the possibility of whatever sam has to say. if the subtle skip in your step is anything to go by.
you walk through the silent night of the town, it seems like everythingâs frozen in place during the colder times of the yearâeveryoneâs safe at home, toasty under their covers and youâd imagine thoroughly enjoying going to bed at 7 pm.
you do too, sometimes. thereâs less to do when the ground is too frozen to plant any crop.
thereâs a lot more free time out of the farm during the winter. youâve really started integrating yourself with the townspeopleâhelping haley find her bracelet, befriending samâs prickly coworker shane, and even discovering a shadowperson named Krobus in the town sewers. it really is starting to feel like home.
walking, you cut the corner passing by emily and haleyâs houseâand there he is.
he looks devastatingly handsome all dressed in winter clothing. his regular denim jacket switched out for a dark woolen coat, his pants are unripped and, surprisingly, not smeared with dirt.
though what you like most about his winter attire is his hair. those wild golden locks are laid flat under a woolen beanieâa stark difference from the spiked updo he usually does (though you like that one too). the tips of his hair are slightly curled upwards, revealing that family trait of curly hair.
you creep closer, just watching him wait for youâthe way he folds his arms in an attempt to warm up, and the little shuffle he does on his feet. you laugh softly, he mustâve been waiting a whileâjust like you have for him.
sam turns at the sound of your laugh, his body unconsciously tilting towards you, like a magnetâs uncontrollable attracting to metal. âyou made it,â he breathes, his nose, ears and cheeks pinkened by the cold.
you nod, unable to stop a bashful smile from forming on your lips. âi made it.â
a big grin splits his face, mimicking yours. underneath the lone lamplight he looks jaw-droppingly handsome. you feel yourself become warm just in proximity to him.
âi wanted to talk to you in private,â he says. samâs buzzing with energy, surveying the dark streets before meeting your gaze with his. âitâs kinda cold out here though⌠i, umâi can sneak you into my roomâŚâ
your heart skips a beat, like youâve skipped a step on a staircase. âwhat?â you croak.
your eyes catch onto him wringing his fingers, a nervous habit you canât help but always notice (not because his hands are nice and interesting to look at, not at all).
âyou donât wanna?â
âno!â you inhale, trying to alleviate the twisting sensation in your gut. âi do wanna, ahem, lead the way.â
sam smiles at you, dimples and all. he leads you towards the tiny bedroom window in front of his house. the window is already openâyou assume thatâs where he jumped out of to meet you.
he climbs through the window with minimal effort, landing on the flooring with a dull thump!
you raise a brow. âhave you done this before?â
sam stretches his hand out to you, waiting. his smile turnt sheepish. âi mean, i think we were all rebellious teenagers once.â
you resist the urge to snortâsamâs nervous, you can tell. he doesnât have his quips and jokes tonight. and heâs shy, but eager. like a puppy, excited and curious about the world.
âo-kay,â you say, one hand in his hand the other set firmly on the windowsill. âmake sure i donât fall please.â
sam nods, eagerly. the curled ends of his hair shake along with the motion as he does.
how endearing.
you tighten your grip on his hand, hauling yourself through the small window, trying your damn best to not make any sudden noise. which is successful for the most part, only a tiny huff of exertion escapes you.
annoying, yes. but the chill of winter burns through any energy you have faster than other seasons.
your feet connect with the wood of his floor, hand still clasped in his and the chill merely at your back. itâs warm inside, with him.
his room is the same as itâs always been when youâd visit beforeâshelves, band equipment, postersâbut the ambiance is different. a little more charged with tension so thick you could cut through it with a knife.
sam does not bother turning on his light, you donât mind it all that much. but it takes some effort to avoid tumbling over stray objects that clutter his bedroom floor.
âlook, I know Iâve been about nothing but the band for a while nowâŚâ he starts. âbut I donât want you to think thatâs all iâm interested in.â
you chuckle, clasping your fingers behind your back. âit certainly takes up a big chunk of your interests.â
he pouts, literally pouts. it must be the love bug you caught because you think itâs just plain adorable. âiâm really trying over here!â
âsorry!â you grin, âokay, continue.â
âwell, um⌠shoot, this is kinda hard, huh?â he forces an awkward chuckle. âand nerve-wrecking⌠but what iâm trying to say isâŚâ
âiâm really happy that weâve grown this close, and wellâŚâ sam looks at you, heâs stupidly redâthe color spreading all over his face. âiâiâm just wondering, do you think of me as⌠just a friend?â
your breath stutters, and you feel yourself blushing before you can do anything to stop it. you stare at him as he does with you. the two of you locking eyes for a second, it feels like itâs just you and him in the world.
you feel your shy admittance at the tip of your tongue. no, youâd say, youâre more than that for me, if you want to be.
sam smiles at you, shy but so, so overwhelmingly brightâitâs blinding. your head is running a mile a minute when you finally get the courageâ
âsam!â you hear jodiâs groggy voice from outside the door. your stomach drops with dread. âsomebodyâs at the door! go and check please?â
you lock eyes once again, this time for entirely different reasons, and with entirely different feelings.
âoh my god, sam,â you whisper hurriedly, panic gripping you. âyour mom doesnât know iâm hereâwhat do we doââ
âhold onââ he replies, with the same sense of urgency as you. âokay, okayâi have a plan, just trust me, âkay?â
you think you might break out into a cold sweat. you look at him quizzically, âwhat?â
sam gives you an apologetic smile with that stupid beautiful face of his, he moves forward, grabbing you by your wrists, and moving you with himâtowards his bed.
âsam!â you hiss, alarms are blaring in every corner of your mind as sam all but drags you under the toasty covers of his bed. he lifts the blanket and stations you by the edge, covering you in the blanketâwhich is now a lumpy mess.
this is his childhood bed youâre in, where his mother and brother are just by the door.
and his mother is calling him.
âiâll get this over with quick,â he says to you, already heading towards the door of his room. âhang on tight, âkay?â
you breathe a sound of agreement, way too jittery to formulate any proper response as you quieten under the covers.
though the sheets do feel nice, and smells overwhelmingly of that specific cologne he uses (stolen from joja inventory, he told you once). you will yourself not to relax and melt into the sheets so fast. instead, you listen for each and every sound that may give hint to whatever the hell is happening.
thereâs a commotion that you can hear happening, the door swings open, the hinges creaking along with itâthis whole surreal experience feels a little like the confrontation part of a horror movie, the helpless victim hiding and the heavy footfalls of the killer.
though in your case, itâs not one set of footsteps, but two.
âwhat are you two doing here?â
âyouâre the one who called us over, remember?â you can recognize the bandâs shut-in pianistâs voice from anywhere. âyou were all like, stop skipping practice, seb.â
samâs voice is oddly pitchy when he responds. ââŚwell, tonightâs no good!â
you hear the other person huff, you strain your ears harder to listen. the huffing person clearly fed up with the strange behavior samâs putting out right now.
âmy mom and vincent are asleep,â he adds hurriedly. âtheyâd wake upââ
you resist the urge to groan, stifling your mouth under a sweaty palm. jodie was just speaking to him minutes ago, thereâs no way theyâd buy that. he cannot be a more obvious liar.
thankfully they gloss over the fact. âsam, why are you acting so damn weird?â sebastian asks, straightforward as ever.
âyeah,â the other voice adds. feminine but strong. which you now identify as abigailâs, you hear a pinch of impatience in her voice. âand why are you red? did you sit outside in the snow or somethingââ
sam chokes, which he tries to conceal as an odd sounding cough. abigail pauses mid-sentence. the shift in the atmosphere is palpable. you screw your eyes shut, hearing the rapid rate of your heartbeat. itâs so loud youâre almost convinced the trio can hear the thumping from your hiding spot under the sheets. this is it, theyâre going to discover you.
âoh, oh i see,â abigail grins. âon second thought, i wouldn't risk catching all those germs. iâm feeling starved, letâs hit the saloon, seb.â
the aforementioned man grumbles, seemingly puzzled by the sudden switch in abigailâs attitude. âhuh⌠why?â abigail must have whispered something to himâyou can barely hear over the muffle of samâs blanket comforters. âugh, alright. fine. you owe us one, sam.â
âoh, of course! mhm, yup,â you cringe at the immense awkwardness of samâs response, feeling the overwhelming urge to pull out your own hair. âiâll see you guys tomorrow, yeah? now shoo! wouldnât wanna get you both sick or somethinââŚâ
âhuh?â sebastian replies, rightfully puzzled as theyâre forcefully pushed out of the room. âwhy would we see you tomorrow if youâre sickââ
âwell seb,â abigail says smugly. âletâs just say sammy here is taking care of some important businessââ
âokay, bye!â you hear the door click shut. to your utter bewilderment, sam shut the door in their faces.
the room is deathly quiet, the air is stagnant and stuffy. once you feel it safe enough, you crane your neck out of the blankets to check over him. to trace any lingering feeling the sudden visit mightâve given him. samâs got his back rested against the wood of his door, his back slumped.
âiâi wasnât expecting that,â you say quietly from your hiding spot on his bed. peeking the top half of your face, watching the door carefully. âkinda nerve-wracking.â
and embarrassing.
âi knowâiâm sorry,â he sighs, rubbing his temples. âi didnât expect them coming over.â
âsebastian said you invited them for practice, though.â you point out.
âmaybe i did,â he admits, creeping closer to you on the bed, even if heâs guilty and embarrassed. âi totally forgotâi mean, i was really nervous! my mind blanks when i get nervousâŚâ
sam stops right by the side of the bed, as if heâs waiting for your permission to get in with youâin his own bed. and to be perfectly honest, you really want him to.
âkinda ruined the atmosphere too,â he looks away from you, eyes downcast and melancholy. âi had this whole thing planned too, and i, just⌠ughâŚâ
your eyes soften. âsam, itâs really fine. okay, maybe a little shocking but you know itâs not enough to scare me away.â
he looks down at you, worried. his eyebrows are ever so slightly pinchedâyou wish you could run your fingers over it, and smooth it out yourself.
âplus,â you murmur, reaching over the small amount of space between the two of you to clasp his wrist. âiâm not just gonna leave⌠just tell me what you were going to sayâbefore the⌠interruption.â
that gives you the final push to gather your courage to tug him into bed with you. sam follows, flopping onto the empty bedding next to you without a fight. for a moment, itâs just the two of you, side by side, slowly huddling closer and closer for warmth.
and sam is warm. heâs practically radiating comfy heat you wish to burrow intoâor wrap yourself around. the perfect bed-partner for winter nights like these.
you find yourself becoming addicted to the feeling.
sam angles his body towards you. you on your back and him on his side, it feels intimate and special. and for some reason, it feels familiarâlike youâve always belonged by his side.
âi think you know already,â he tells you, his eyes are not clear in the dim light but you know, there are practically hearts in them. âthat i like you.â
you giggle softly. âand i think you know the same about me.â
sam tentatively grasps your hand, the freezing fingertips thawing under his careful touch. the caress of his hand on yours sends tingling electricity down your spine, your whole body feels alertâalive.
he speaks again, but this time his tone is a whisper of what it usually is. âstay awhile?â
âyeah,â you swallow, squeezing his hand in your grip. a small smile on your lips. âyes, i want to.â
âgood,â he smiles, his eyes crinkle at the edges so softly and the dimples on his cheeks deepen. there really is no one else who can compare for you. âhey, youâre really cold⌠let me warm you up?â
you turn to your side, facing him. at this angle, your faces are mere inches apart. you can trace every dip, line and curve of his face, and he yours. your hand tingles with the overwhelming urge to reach for him and squeeze.
âit is cold,â you agree. âiâd very much like that.â
âphew,â he softly sighs. sam drags his fingers up your arm, stopping at your elbow. wherever he touches, a whisper of him lingers on your skinâa bone deep imprint you yearn for him to spread all across your skin.
you roll into him with little to no effort at all. sam drags you to his chest, your ear perched right above his heart, you can hear the steady thump! of his heartbeat from underneath. sam winds his arms around you, intensifying the heat you feel by tenfoldâitâs not uncomfortable at all, though. you like it.
your bodies fit perfectly together, just like puzzle pieces. a mess of limbs tangling together. the warmth of him making you shudder in honey-like delight. it feels syrupy and soft and warm wrapped in his arms.
his hand at your back travels downwards, leaving a trail of goosebumps in its wake you feel even through the thickness of the fabric separating the skin of your back and his fingertips. his hands feel rough and calloused at the small of your backâfrom playing guitar and his skateboarding incidentsâbut you enjoy the feeling.
you trail your fingers under the thick fabric of his jacket and shirt, feeling the smooth skin underneathâthe action has no deeper meaning than you wanting to feel.
samâs uncharacteristically quiet. his breaths are slow and long, like heâs on the verge of sleep. yet his arms are wound tight around youâlike he never wants to let go of you. your nerves make you feel like a slow simmering soup. warm and slowly cooking over the fire.
you two stay entangled for a while, in comfortable silence. sometime during the night youâve matched your breathing to his, and he pulled you somehow even closer to his body.
but, a thump comes from his window, a light tapping sound. soft but persistent. the two of you opt to ignore it, in favor of snuggling closer to each other. yet the taps continue, and become louder and faster.
disrupted by the noise, sam mournfully throws the covers from over him to check, untangling himself from your grip. leaving a very him-shaped indent on the bed left in his wake. you groan, sticking your bottom lip out, you miss the warmth of him already.
âoh shit.â
the expletive makes you sit up in his bed, the comforter draping off your middle. you can make out the shape of him even with the dimness of the lightâsamâs back is towards you, and if your eyes dare deceive you, he looks like heâs shrinking into himself a tiny bit.
âwhat is it?â you whisper-shout to him.
he slowly turns to you, wide eyed, his shoulders stiff. sort of resembling a kicked-dog. sam bows down his headâwith what you think is shame, for what reason, you canât tell. rubbing your eyes of sleep, you furrow your brow, craning your neck to look out the window behind him.
abigail and sebastian are there, waving wildly at you. your eyes widen. abigail and sebastian are waving at you with smug smiles plastered on their faces.
your stomach drops for the umpteenth time that night. you honestly feel too horrified to speak.
you bury yourself under the sheets, a feeble attempt to conceal your mortification. so thatâs why abigail was playing along with samâs urgent ramblingsâshe knew (not that sam was any good at keeping a cool facade, he is totally incapable of lying smoothly). you groan, you feel like a rebellious teenager again, only the part where you get caught and utterly humiliated.
outside, you can hear the loud roaring laughter of the duo through the glass, alongside the awkward, embarrassed chatter of your newly-minted boyfriend. (not technically official, but the title succeeds to relieve your horror by the tiniest bit)
still, you stay put. through the mortification and embarrassment you still stick yourself to samâs side, or more literally, on his bedâbecause you know, thereâs no other place youâd rather be.
you spare another glance out of the covers at the trioâto your surprise, samâs beat you to it. looking at you with heart eyes and the most lovesick expression (youâre pretty sure yours looks the same).
you know thereâs going to be a lot more explaining to do in the morning. but it doesnât matter to you, not right now when youâre in samâs bed on the verge of sleep.
not when you feel so warm.
a/n: shoutout to the ass trio for making an appearance in the fic! i love you abby and seb.
Sebastian likes frogs. Emphasis on the word likes.
He appreciates them, they do good for the environment. They eat up all the nasty flies that buzz around the mountain lake, too. He doesnât have to worry about mosquitos snaking on his blood while he smokes. Itâs just a plus that he finds them cool and interesting.
Which most people find weird. Sebastian thinks itâs weird that they find it weird. Frogs arenât going out of their way to bother people.
Yes, he likes them. Theyâre his favorite animal, certainly.
But favorite is not enough for him to want to smooch a frog.
âSam, Iâm not gonna fucking kiss a frog.â
âCâmon! Itâll be like the movie!â Sam teases, insistently shoving Sebastian to the frog innocently sitting on a park bench. âWho knows, maybe itâll be your very own froggy princessââ
âDidnât the girl turn into a frog when she kissed it,â he shoots back, elbowing Sam backwards in the gut. The blond lets out an overdramatic hiss of pain, bent over and clutching his stomach. âAbby, back me up here.â
âI never watched that stuff,â Abigail shrugs, watching with amusement. She makes no move to help at all, comfortably resting against the wide wooden posts of a fence. âWatched a lotta cartoons though. Phineas and Ferb is my jam.â
âNot about the movie,â Sebastian grits exasperatedly. His brows knitting together in frustration âThe frog.â
âMhm, go on,â a cheshire-like grin on her face. âKiss it, Seb. A big smooch right on its slimy mouth.â
Sam eggs him on, the pain of being elbowed magically disappearing. âDo it! Do it!â
Sebastian presses his lips tightly together. Thereâs no use resisting once Abby and Sam band together. Theyâre a force to be reckoned with like thisâdemanding and overbearing. Sebastian exasperatedly wipes a hand over his face, shooting the poor frog a sorry look.
Sam pushes him one more time, he gives him a stony glare in return. âFuckâalright! Stop being so damn loud, youâll scare it away.â
The frog in question croaks slightly, like it senses the trio talking about it. He gives it a wary glance.
As he slowly approaches, Sebastian can hear Abby and Samâs satisfied sniggering behind him. They roped him into doing another stupidly outrageous thing for the umpteenth time.
He sighs, he really needs better friends.
Mustering up all his courage, he bends down, almost eye level with the frog, resting a hand on the wooden grain bench on where itâs perched upon.
He screws his eyes shut and goes for it.
Sebastianâs lips connect with the frogâs slimy, almost rough skin. So fast and featherlight that it can barely be considered a kiss. Cold against his lips. He pulls back immediately after, wiping any residue off his lips with the back of his hand.
The frog jumps, croaking with,what he assumes is, alarm.
âSee?â Abby laughs, ruffling his hair good-naturedly. âNo princess in sight. You didnât turn into a frog either!â
âMan,â Sam snickers, patting him roughly on the back. Sebastian groans with every smack. âIt wouldâve been cool though, if you turned into a frog. Weâd have a frog drummer in our band!â
Sebastian shoves his unruly friends off. âYeah, whatever. Letâs get going. The frog is probably traumatized.â
âYou can check that off your bucket list,â Abby teases, a smirk playing on her lips. âKiss a frog before I die. Weâll tell the story for generations.â
Sam howls with laughter, Sebastian feels absolutely mortified.
Before the trio could make any move out of the park, a cloud of green smoke curtains the frog, so thick and so unusual. Sebastian unconsciously backs away from it.
âWhatâwoah,â Sam says, more mezmerised than shocked at the green smoke pouring out of the frog Sebastian kissed. âWhat is that?â
âThe fuck if we know, Sam!â
âBoys, boys, shut the fuck up. Look.â
Abigail points at the fog. It grows and grows, stopping and dissipating once the whole bench is covered with the green mist.
The frog is goneâdisappeared into thin air. Instead, a not-so-frog shaped person sits. You blink up at Sebastian slowly.
Woah, woah.
He feels his heart acceleratingâfor all the wrong reasons. An unusual thumping sound that vibrates all throughout his bodyâhis fingertips, his stomach, his toes. Where there should be fear and panic and definitely fear, Sebastian feels exhilaration.
Youâre pretty.
Itâs also pretty horrifying for him to thinkâand feel.
You blink slowlyâa frog-like trait that cement his suspicions. Youâre staring up at him as he stares back down at you, curious meets bewildered. ââŚâ
His eyes are wide, scanning each and every part of your now not frog-like features. Sebastian feels cold sweat dripping down his foreheadâa stark temperature difference to the heat in his cheeks. âOhâoh shit.â
âUhm⌠ribbit?â
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Another thing he blames on Sam and Abbyâhis horrifying attraction you; the person, not the frog.
He checks that off his metaphorical bucket list, too.
word count: 3.2k
summary: samâs ten heart event with a twist.
tags: winter, developing relationships, fluff, swearing, cuddling, hiding from his mother in his bed lol
a/n: this spiralled out of my control and into 3k words⌠enjoy!
itâs cold.
the fleece coat youâve bundled yourself in cannot protect goosebumps from forming from the biting chill of the valleyâs winter nights. your breaths come out in cloudy puffs of air, the heat slowly draining out of every exhale. itâs dark out, poorly spaced lampposts providing the bare minimum amount of light to navigate.
you got samâs letter earlier, a clumsily written note that was stuffed haphazardly into your farmâs mailboxâthe yellow lined paper he used, all crumpled and ripped.
meet me in front of my house! at 8 pm, iâll be waiting. thereâs something i want to tell you.
the ending sentence is somehow even more sloppily written compared to the ones before it. as if he was debating whether or not to add it in, but ultimately decided for itâitâs funny to imagine him hunched over his desk, stressing over what to write to you.
well, you wonât deny feeling excitement over the possibility of whatever sam has to say. if the subtle skip in your step is anything to go by.
you walk through the silent night of the town, it seems like everythingâs frozen in place during the colder times of the yearâeveryoneâs safe at home, toasty under their covers and youâd imagine thoroughly enjoying going to bed at 7 pm.
you do too, sometimes. thereâs less to do when the ground is too frozen to plant any crop.
thereâs a lot more free time out of the farm during the winter. youâve really started integrating yourself with the townspeopleâhelping haley find her bracelet, befriending samâs prickly coworker shane, and even discovering a shadowperson named Krobus in the town sewers. it really is starting to feel like home.
walking, you cut the corner passing by emily and haleyâs houseâand there he is.
he looks devastatingly handsome all dressed in winter clothing. his regular denim jacket switched out for a dark woolen coat, his pants are unripped and, surprisingly, not smeared with dirt.
though what you like most about his winter attire is his hair. those wild golden locks are laid flat under a woolen beanieâa stark difference from the spiked updo he usually does (though you like that one too). the tips of his hair are slightly curled upwards, revealing that family trait of curly hair.
you creep closer, just watching him wait for youâthe way he folds his arms in an attempt to warm up, and the little shuffle he does on his feet. you laugh softly, he mustâve been waiting a whileâjust like you have for him.
sam turns at the sound of your laugh, his body unconsciously tilting towards you, like a magnetâs uncontrollable attracting to metal. âyou made it,â he breathes, his nose, ears and cheeks pinkened by the cold.
you nod, unable to stop a bashful smile from forming on your lips. âi made it.â
a big grin splits his face, mimicking yours. underneath the lone lamplight he looks jaw-droppingly handsome. you feel yourself become warm just in proximity to him.
âi wanted to talk to you in private,â he says. samâs buzzing with energy, surveying the dark streets before meeting your gaze with his. âitâs kinda cold out here though⌠i, umâi can sneak you into my roomâŚâ
your heart skips a beat, like youâve skipped a step on a staircase. âwhat?â you croak.
your eyes catch onto him wringing his fingers, a nervous habit you canât help but always notice (not because his hands are nice and interesting to look at, not at all).
âyou donât wanna?â
âno!â you inhale, trying to alleviate the twisting sensation in your gut. âi do wanna, ahem, lead the way.â
sam smiles at you, dimples and all. he leads you towards the tiny bedroom window in front of his house. the window is already openâyou assume thatâs where he jumped out of to meet you.
he climbs through the window with minimal effort, landing on the flooring with a dull thump!
you raise a brow. âhave you done this before?â
sam stretches his hand out to you, waiting. his smile turnt sheepish. âi mean, i think we were all rebellious teenagers once.â
you resist the urge to snortâsamâs nervous, you can tell. he doesnât have his quips and jokes tonight. and heâs shy, but eager. like a puppy, excited and curious about the world.
âo-kay,â you say, one hand in his hand the other set firmly on the windowsill. âmake sure i donât fall please.â
sam nods, eagerly. the curled ends of his hair shake along with the motion as he does.
how endearing.
you tighten your grip on his hand, hauling yourself through the small window, trying your damn best to not make any sudden noise. which is successful for the most part, only a tiny huff of exertion escapes you.
annoying, yes. but the chill of winter burns through any energy you have faster than other seasons.
your feet connect with the wood of his floor, hand still clasped in his and the chill merely at your back. itâs warm inside, with him.
his room is the same as itâs always been when youâd visit beforeâshelves, band equipment, postersâbut the ambiance is different. a little more charged with tension so thick you could cut through it with a knife.
sam does not bother turning on his light, you donât mind it all that much. but it takes some effort to avoid tumbling over stray objects that clutter his bedroom floor.
âlook, I know Iâve been about nothing but the band for a while nowâŚâ he starts. âbut I donât want you to think thatâs all iâm interested in.â
you chuckle, clasping your fingers behind your back. âit certainly takes up a big chunk of your interests.â
he pouts, literally pouts. it must be the love bug you caught because you think itâs just plain adorable. âiâm really trying over here!â
âsorry!â you grin, âokay, continue.â
âwell, um⌠shoot, this is kinda hard, huh?â he forces an awkward chuckle. âand nerve-wrecking⌠but what iâm trying to say isâŚâ
âiâm really happy that weâve grown this close, and wellâŚâ sam looks at you, heâs stupidly redâthe color spreading all over his face. âiâiâm just wondering, do you think of me as⌠just a friend?â
your breath stutters, and you feel yourself blushing before you can do anything to stop it. you stare at him as he does with you. the two of you locking eyes for a second, it feels like itâs just you and him in the world.
you feel your shy admittance at the tip of your tongue. no, youâd say, youâre more than that for me, if you want to be.
sam smiles at you, shy but so, so overwhelmingly brightâitâs blinding. your head is running a mile a minute when you finally get the courageâ
âsam!â you hear jodiâs groggy voice from outside the door. your stomach drops with dread. âsomebodyâs at the door! go and check please?â
you lock eyes once again, this time for entirely different reasons, and with entirely different feelings.
âoh my god, sam,â you whisper hurriedly, panic gripping you. âyour mom doesnât know iâm hereâwhat do we doââ
âhold onââ he replies, with the same sense of urgency as you. âokay, okayâi have a plan, just trust me, âkay?â
you think you might break out into a cold sweat. you look at him quizzically, âwhat?â
sam gives you an apologetic smile with that stupid beautiful face of his, he moves forward, grabbing you by your wrists, and moving you with himâtowards his bed.
âsam!â you hiss, alarms are blaring in every corner of your mind as sam all but drags you under the toasty covers of his bed. he lifts the blanket and stations you by the edge, covering you in the blanketâwhich is now a lumpy mess.
this is his childhood bed youâre in, where his mother and brother are just by the door.
and his mother is calling him.
âiâll get this over with quick,â he says to you, already heading towards the door of his room. âhang on tight, âkay?â
you breathe a sound of agreement, way too jittery to formulate any proper response as you quieten under the covers.
though the sheets do feel nice, and smells overwhelmingly of that specific cologne he uses (stolen from joja inventory, he told you once). you will yourself not to relax and melt into the sheets so fast. instead, you listen for each and every sound that may give hint to whatever the hell is happening.
thereâs a commotion that you can hear happening, the door swings open, the hinges creaking along with itâthis whole surreal experience feels a little like the confrontation part of a horror movie, the helpless victim hiding and the heavy footfalls of the killer.
though in your case, itâs not one set of footsteps, but two.
âwhat are you two doing here?â
âyouâre the one who called us over, remember?â you can recognize the bandâs shut-in pianistâs voice from anywhere. âyou were all like, stop skipping practice, seb.â
samâs voice is oddly pitchy when he responds. ââŚwell, tonightâs no good!â
you hear the other person huff, you strain your ears harder to listen. the huffing person clearly fed up with the strange behavior samâs putting out right now.
âmy mom and vincent are asleep,â he adds hurriedly. âtheyâd wake upââ
you resist the urge to groan, stifling your mouth under a sweaty palm. jodie was just speaking to him minutes ago, thereâs no way theyâd buy that. he cannot be a more obvious liar.
thankfully they gloss over the fact. âsam, why are you acting so damn weird?â sebastian asks, straightforward as ever.
âyeah,â the other voice adds. feminine but strong. which you now identify as abigailâs, you hear a pinch of impatience in her voice. âand why are you red? did you sit outside in the snow or somethingââ
sam chokes, which he tries to conceal as an odd sounding cough. abigail pauses mid-sentence. the shift in the atmosphere is palpable. you screw your eyes shut, hearing the rapid rate of your heartbeat. itâs so loud youâre almost convinced the trio can hear the thumping from your hiding spot under the sheets. this is it, theyâre going to discover you.
âoh, oh i see,â abigail grins. âon second thought, i wouldn't risk catching all those germs. iâm feeling starved, letâs hit the saloon, seb.â
the aforementioned man grumbles, seemingly puzzled by the sudden switch in abigailâs attitude. âhuh⌠why?â abigail must have whispered something to himâyou can barely hear over the muffle of samâs blanket comforters. âugh, alright. fine. you owe us one, sam.â
âoh, of course! mhm, yup,â you cringe at the immense awkwardness of samâs response, feeling the overwhelming urge to pull out your own hair. âiâll see you guys tomorrow, yeah? now shoo! wouldnât wanna get you both sick or somethinââŚâ
âhuh?â sebastian replies, rightfully puzzled as theyâre forcefully pushed out of the room. âwhy would we see you tomorrow if youâre sickââ
âwell seb,â abigail says smugly. âletâs just say sammy here is taking care of some important businessââ
âokay, bye!â you hear the door click shut. to your utter bewilderment, sam shut the door in their faces.
the room is deathly quiet, the air is stagnant and stuffy. once you feel it safe enough, you crane your neck out of the blankets to check over him. to trace any lingering feeling the sudden visit mightâve given him. samâs got his back rested against the wood of his door, his back slumped.
âiâi wasnât expecting that,â you say quietly from your hiding spot on his bed. peeking the top half of your face, watching the door carefully. âkinda nerve-wracking.â
and embarrassing.
âi knowâiâm sorry,â he sighs, rubbing his temples. âi didnât expect them coming over.â
âsebastian said you invited them for practice, though.â you point out.
âmaybe i did,â he admits, creeping closer to you on the bed, even if heâs guilty and embarrassed. âi totally forgotâi mean, i was really nervous! my mind blanks when i get nervousâŚâ
sam stops right by the side of the bed, as if heâs waiting for your permission to get in with youâin his own bed. and to be perfectly honest, you really want him to.
âkinda ruined the atmosphere too,â he looks away from you, eyes downcast and melancholy. âi had this whole thing planned too, and i, just⌠ughâŚâ
your eyes soften. âsam, itâs really fine. okay, maybe a little shocking but you know itâs not enough to scare me away.â
he looks down at you, worried. his eyebrows are ever so slightly pinchedâyou wish you could run your fingers over it, and smooth it out yourself.
âplus,â you murmur, reaching over the small amount of space between the two of you to clasp his wrist. âiâm not just gonna leave⌠just tell me what you were going to sayâbefore the⌠interruption.â
that gives you the final push to gather your courage to tug him into bed with you. sam follows, flopping onto the empty bedding next to you without a fight. for a moment, itâs just the two of you, side by side, slowly huddling closer and closer for warmth.
and sam is warm. heâs practically radiating comfy heat you wish to burrow intoâor wrap yourself around. the perfect bed-partner for winter nights like these.
you find yourself becoming addicted to the feeling.
sam angles his body towards you. you on your back and him on his side, it feels intimate and special. and for some reason, it feels familiarâlike youâve always belonged by his side.
âi think you know already,â he tells you, his eyes are not clear in the dim light but you know, there are practically hearts in them. âthat i like you.â
you giggle softly. âand i think you know the same about me.â
sam tentatively grasps your hand, the freezing fingertips thawing under his careful touch. the caress of his hand on yours sends tingling electricity down your spine, your whole body feels alertâalive.
he speaks again, but this time his tone is a whisper of what it usually is. âstay awhile?â
âyeah,â you swallow, squeezing his hand in your grip. a small smile on your lips. âyes, i want to.â
âgood,â he smiles, his eyes crinkle at the edges so softly and the dimples on his cheeks deepen. there really is no one else who can compare for you. âhey, youâre really cold⌠let me warm you up?â
you turn to your side, facing him. at this angle, your faces are mere inches apart. you can trace every dip, line and curve of his face, and he yours. your hand tingles with the overwhelming urge to reach for him and squeeze.
âit is cold,â you agree. âiâd very much like that.â
âphew,â he softly sighs. sam drags his fingers up your arm, stopping at your elbow. wherever he touches, a whisper of him lingers on your skinâa bone deep imprint you yearn for him to spread all across your skin.
you roll into him with little to no effort at all. sam drags you to his chest, your ear perched right above his heart, you can hear the steady thump! of his heartbeat from underneath. sam winds his arms around you, intensifying the heat you feel by tenfoldâitâs not uncomfortable at all, though. you like it.
your bodies fit perfectly together, just like puzzle pieces. a mess of limbs tangling together. the warmth of him making you shudder in honey-like delight. it feels syrupy and soft and warm wrapped in his arms.
his hand at your back travels downwards, leaving a trail of goosebumps in its wake you feel even through the thickness of the fabric separating the skin of your back and his fingertips. his hands feel rough and calloused at the small of your backâfrom playing guitar and his skateboarding incidentsâbut you enjoy the feeling.
you trail your fingers under the thick fabric of his jacket and shirt, feeling the smooth skin underneathâthe action has no deeper meaning than you wanting to feel.
samâs uncharacteristically quiet. his breaths are slow and long, like heâs on the verge of sleep. yet his arms are wound tight around youâlike he never wants to let go of you. your nerves make you feel like a slow simmering soup. warm and slowly cooking over the fire.
you two stay entangled for a while, in comfortable silence. sometime during the night youâve matched your breathing to his, and he pulled you somehow even closer to his body.
but, a thump comes from his window, a light tapping sound. soft but persistent. the two of you opt to ignore it, in favor of snuggling closer to each other. yet the taps continue, and become louder and faster.
disrupted by the noise, sam mournfully throws the covers from over him to check, untangling himself from your grip. leaving a very him-shaped indent on the bed left in his wake. you groan, sticking your bottom lip out, you miss the warmth of him already.
âoh shit.â
the expletive makes you sit up in his bed, the comforter draping off your middle. you can make out the shape of him even with the dimness of the lightâsamâs back is towards you, and if your eyes dare deceive you, he looks like heâs shrinking into himself a tiny bit.
âwhat is it?â you whisper-shout to him.
he slowly turns to you, wide eyed, his shoulders stiff. sort of resembling a kicked-dog. sam bows down his headâwith what you think is shame, for what reason, you canât tell. rubbing your eyes of sleep, you furrow your brow, craning your neck to look out the window behind him.
abigail and sebastian are there, waving wildly at you. your eyes widen. abigail and sebastian are waving at you with smug smiles plastered on their faces.
your stomach drops for the umpteenth time that night. you honestly feel too horrified to speak.
you bury yourself under the sheets, a feeble attempt to conceal your mortification. so thatâs why abigail was playing along with samâs urgent ramblingsâshe knew (not that sam was any good at keeping a cool facade, he is totally incapable of lying smoothly). you groan, you feel like a rebellious teenager again, only the part where you get caught and utterly humiliated.
outside, you can hear the loud roaring laughter of the duo through the glass, alongside the awkward, embarrassed chatter of your newly-minted boyfriend. (not technically official, but the title succeeds to relieve your horror by the tiniest bit)
still, you stay put. through the mortification and embarrassment you still stick yourself to samâs side, or more literally, on his bedâbecause you know, thereâs no other place youâd rather be.
you spare another glance out of the covers at the trioâto your surprise, samâs beat you to it. looking at you with heart eyes and the most lovesick expression (youâre pretty sure yours looks the same).
you know thereâs going to be a lot more explaining to do in the morning. but it doesnât matter to you, not right now when youâre in samâs bed on the verge of sleep.
not when you feel so warm.
a/n: shoutout to the ass trio for making an appearance in the fic! i love you abby and seb.
word count: 3.2k
summary: samâs ten heart event with a twist.
tags: winter, developing relationships, fluff, swearing, cuddling, hiding from his mother in his bed lol
a/n: this spiralled out of my control and into 3k words⌠enjoy!
itâs cold.
the fleece coat youâve bundled yourself in cannot protect goosebumps from forming from the biting chill of the valleyâs winter nights. your breaths come out in cloudy puffs of air, the heat slowly draining out of every exhale. itâs dark out, poorly spaced lampposts providing the bare minimum amount of light to navigate.
you got samâs letter earlier, a clumsily written note that was stuffed haphazardly into your farmâs mailboxâthe yellow lined paper he used, all crumpled and ripped.
meet me in front of my house! at 8 pm, iâll be waiting. thereâs something i want to tell you.
the ending sentence is somehow even more sloppily written compared to the ones before it. as if he was debating whether or not to add it in, but ultimately decided for itâitâs funny to imagine him hunched over his desk, stressing over what to write to you.
well, you wonât deny feeling excitement over the possibility of whatever sam has to say. if the subtle skip in your step is anything to go by.
you walk through the silent night of the town, it seems like everythingâs frozen in place during the colder times of the yearâeveryoneâs safe at home, toasty under their covers and youâd imagine thoroughly enjoying going to bed at 7 pm.
you do too, sometimes. thereâs less to do when the ground is too frozen to plant any crop.
thereâs a lot more free time out of the farm during the winter. youâve really started integrating yourself with the townspeopleâhelping haley find her bracelet, befriending samâs prickly coworker shane, and even discovering a shadowperson named Krobus in the town sewers. it really is starting to feel like home.
walking, you cut the corner passing by emily and haleyâs houseâand there he is.
he looks devastatingly handsome all dressed in winter clothing. his regular denim jacket switched out for a dark woolen coat, his pants are unripped and, surprisingly, not smeared with dirt.
though what you like most about his winter attire is his hair. those wild golden locks are laid flat under a woolen beanieâa stark difference from the spiked updo he usually does (though you like that one too). the tips of his hair are slightly curled upwards, revealing that family trait of curly hair.
you creep closer, just watching him wait for youâthe way he folds his arms in an attempt to warm up, and the little shuffle he does on his feet. you laugh softly, he mustâve been waiting a whileâjust like you have for him.
sam turns at the sound of your laugh, his body unconsciously tilting towards you, like a magnetâs uncontrollable attracting to metal. âyou made it,â he breathes, his nose, ears and cheeks pinkened by the cold.
you nod, unable to stop a bashful smile from forming on your lips. âi made it.â
a big grin splits his face, mimicking yours. underneath the lone lamplight he looks jaw-droppingly handsome. you feel yourself become warm just in proximity to him.
âi wanted to talk to you in private,â he says. samâs buzzing with energy, surveying the dark streets before meeting your gaze with his. âitâs kinda cold out here though⌠i, umâi can sneak you into my roomâŚâ
your heart skips a beat, like youâve skipped a step on a staircase. âwhat?â you croak.
your eyes catch onto him wringing his fingers, a nervous habit you canât help but always notice (not because his hands are nice and interesting to look at, not at all).
âyou donât wanna?â
âno!â you inhale, trying to alleviate the twisting sensation in your gut. âi do wanna, ahem, lead the way.â
sam smiles at you, dimples and all. he leads you towards the tiny bedroom window in front of his house. the window is already openâyou assume thatâs where he jumped out of to meet you.
he climbs through the window with minimal effort, landing on the flooring with a dull thump!
you raise a brow. âhave you done this before?â
sam stretches his hand out to you, waiting. his smile turnt sheepish. âi mean, i think we were all rebellious teenagers once.â
you resist the urge to snortâsamâs nervous, you can tell. he doesnât have his quips and jokes tonight. and heâs shy, but eager. like a puppy, excited and curious about the world.
âo-kay,â you say, one hand in his hand the other set firmly on the windowsill. âmake sure i donât fall please.â
sam nods, eagerly. the curled ends of his hair shake along with the motion as he does.
how endearing.
you tighten your grip on his hand, hauling yourself through the small window, trying your damn best to not make any sudden noise. which is successful for the most part, only a tiny huff of exertion escapes you.
annoying, yes. but the chill of winter burns through any energy you have faster than other seasons.
your feet connect with the wood of his floor, hand still clasped in his and the chill merely at your back. itâs warm inside, with him.
his room is the same as itâs always been when youâd visit beforeâshelves, band equipment, postersâbut the ambiance is different. a little more charged with tension so thick you could cut through it with a knife.
sam does not bother turning on his light, you donât mind it all that much. but it takes some effort to avoid tumbling over stray objects that clutter his bedroom floor.
âlook, I know Iâve been about nothing but the band for a while nowâŚâ he starts. âbut I donât want you to think thatâs all iâm interested in.â
you chuckle, clasping your fingers behind your back. âit certainly takes up a big chunk of your interests.â
he pouts, literally pouts. it must be the love bug you caught because you think itâs just plain adorable. âiâm really trying over here!â
âsorry!â you grin, âokay, continue.â
âwell, um⌠shoot, this is kinda hard, huh?â he forces an awkward chuckle. âand nerve-wrecking⌠but what iâm trying to say isâŚâ
âiâm really happy that weâve grown this close, and wellâŚâ sam looks at you, heâs stupidly redâthe color spreading all over his face. âiâiâm just wondering, do you think of me as⌠just a friend?â
your breath stutters, and you feel yourself blushing before you can do anything to stop it. you stare at him as he does with you. the two of you locking eyes for a second, it feels like itâs just you and him in the world.
you feel your shy admittance at the tip of your tongue. no, youâd say, youâre more than that for me, if you want to be.
sam smiles at you, shy but so, so overwhelmingly brightâitâs blinding. your head is running a mile a minute when you finally get the courageâ
âsam!â you hear jodiâs groggy voice from outside the door. your stomach drops with dread. âsomebodyâs at the door! go and check please?â
you lock eyes once again, this time for entirely different reasons, and with entirely different feelings.
âoh my god, sam,â you whisper hurriedly, panic gripping you. âyour mom doesnât know iâm hereâwhat do we doââ
âhold onââ he replies, with the same sense of urgency as you. âokay, okayâi have a plan, just trust me, âkay?â
you think you might break out into a cold sweat. you look at him quizzically, âwhat?â
sam gives you an apologetic smile with that stupid beautiful face of his, he moves forward, grabbing you by your wrists, and moving you with himâtowards his bed.
âsam!â you hiss, alarms are blaring in every corner of your mind as sam all but drags you under the toasty covers of his bed. he lifts the blanket and stations you by the edge, covering you in the blanketâwhich is now a lumpy mess.
this is his childhood bed youâre in, where his mother and brother are just by the door.
and his mother is calling him.
âiâll get this over with quick,â he says to you, already heading towards the door of his room. âhang on tight, âkay?â
you breathe a sound of agreement, way too jittery to formulate any proper response as you quieten under the covers.
though the sheets do feel nice, and smells overwhelmingly of that specific cologne he uses (stolen from joja inventory, he told you once). you will yourself not to relax and melt into the sheets so fast. instead, you listen for each and every sound that may give hint to whatever the hell is happening.
thereâs a commotion that you can hear happening, the door swings open, the hinges creaking along with itâthis whole surreal experience feels a little like the confrontation part of a horror movie, the helpless victim hiding and the heavy footfalls of the killer.
though in your case, itâs not one set of footsteps, but two.
âwhat are you two doing here?â
âyouâre the one who called us over, remember?â you can recognize the bandâs shut-in pianistâs voice from anywhere. âyou were all like, stop skipping practice, seb.â
samâs voice is oddly pitchy when he responds. ââŚwell, tonightâs no good!â
you hear the other person huff, you strain your ears harder to listen. the huffing person clearly fed up with the strange behavior samâs putting out right now.
âmy mom and vincent are asleep,â he adds hurriedly. âtheyâd wake upââ
you resist the urge to groan, stifling your mouth under a sweaty palm. jodie was just speaking to him minutes ago, thereâs no way theyâd buy that. he cannot be a more obvious liar.
thankfully they gloss over the fact. âsam, why are you acting so damn weird?â sebastian asks, straightforward as ever.
âyeah,â the other voice adds. feminine but strong. which you now identify as abigailâs, you hear a pinch of impatience in her voice. âand why are you red? did you sit outside in the snow or somethingââ
sam chokes, which he tries to conceal as an odd sounding cough. abigail pauses mid-sentence. the shift in the atmosphere is palpable. you screw your eyes shut, hearing the rapid rate of your heartbeat. itâs so loud youâre almost convinced the trio can hear the thumping from your hiding spot under the sheets. this is it, theyâre going to discover you.
âoh, oh i see,â abigail grins. âon second thought, i wouldn't risk catching all those germs. iâm feeling starved, letâs hit the saloon, seb.â
the aforementioned man grumbles, seemingly puzzled by the sudden switch in abigailâs attitude. âhuh⌠why?â abigail must have whispered something to himâyou can barely hear over the muffle of samâs blanket comforters. âugh, alright. fine. you owe us one, sam.â
âoh, of course! mhm, yup,â you cringe at the immense awkwardness of samâs response, feeling the overwhelming urge to pull out your own hair. âiâll see you guys tomorrow, yeah? now shoo! wouldnât wanna get you both sick or somethinââŚâ
âhuh?â sebastian replies, rightfully puzzled as theyâre forcefully pushed out of the room. âwhy would we see you tomorrow if youâre sickââ
âwell seb,â abigail says smugly. âletâs just say sammy here is taking care of some important businessââ
âokay, bye!â you hear the door click shut. to your utter bewilderment, sam shut the door in their faces.
the room is deathly quiet, the air is stagnant and stuffy. once you feel it safe enough, you crane your neck out of the blankets to check over him. to trace any lingering feeling the sudden visit mightâve given him. samâs got his back rested against the wood of his door, his back slumped.
âiâi wasnât expecting that,â you say quietly from your hiding spot on his bed. peeking the top half of your face, watching the door carefully. âkinda nerve-wracking.â
and embarrassing.
âi knowâiâm sorry,â he sighs, rubbing his temples. âi didnât expect them coming over.â
âsebastian said you invited them for practice, though.â you point out.
âmaybe i did,â he admits, creeping closer to you on the bed, even if heâs guilty and embarrassed. âi totally forgotâi mean, i was really nervous! my mind blanks when i get nervousâŚâ
sam stops right by the side of the bed, as if heâs waiting for your permission to get in with youâin his own bed. and to be perfectly honest, you really want him to.
âkinda ruined the atmosphere too,â he looks away from you, eyes downcast and melancholy. âi had this whole thing planned too, and i, just⌠ughâŚâ
your eyes soften. âsam, itâs really fine. okay, maybe a little shocking but you know itâs not enough to scare me away.â
he looks down at you, worried. his eyebrows are ever so slightly pinchedâyou wish you could run your fingers over it, and smooth it out yourself.
âplus,â you murmur, reaching over the small amount of space between the two of you to clasp his wrist. âiâm not just gonna leave⌠just tell me what you were going to sayâbefore the⌠interruption.â
that gives you the final push to gather your courage to tug him into bed with you. sam follows, flopping onto the empty bedding next to you without a fight. for a moment, itâs just the two of you, side by side, slowly huddling closer and closer for warmth.
and sam is warm. heâs practically radiating comfy heat you wish to burrow intoâor wrap yourself around. the perfect bed-partner for winter nights like these.
you find yourself becoming addicted to the feeling.
sam angles his body towards you. you on your back and him on his side, it feels intimate and special. and for some reason, it feels familiarâlike youâve always belonged by his side.
âi think you know already,â he tells you, his eyes are not clear in the dim light but you know, there are practically hearts in them. âthat i like you.â
you giggle softly. âand i think you know the same about me.â
sam tentatively grasps your hand, the freezing fingertips thawing under his careful touch. the caress of his hand on yours sends tingling electricity down your spine, your whole body feels alertâalive.
he speaks again, but this time his tone is a whisper of what it usually is. âstay awhile?â
âyeah,â you swallow, squeezing his hand in your grip. a small smile on your lips. âyes, i want to.â
âgood,â he smiles, his eyes crinkle at the edges so softly and the dimples on his cheeks deepen. there really is no one else who can compare for you. âhey, youâre really cold⌠let me warm you up?â
you turn to your side, facing him. at this angle, your faces are mere inches apart. you can trace every dip, line and curve of his face, and he yours. your hand tingles with the overwhelming urge to reach for him and squeeze.
âit is cold,â you agree. âiâd very much like that.â
âphew,â he softly sighs. sam drags his fingers up your arm, stopping at your elbow. wherever he touches, a whisper of him lingers on your skinâa bone deep imprint you yearn for him to spread all across your skin.
you roll into him with little to no effort at all. sam drags you to his chest, your ear perched right above his heart, you can hear the steady thump! of his heartbeat from underneath. sam winds his arms around you, intensifying the heat you feel by tenfoldâitâs not uncomfortable at all, though. you like it.
your bodies fit perfectly together, just like puzzle pieces. a mess of limbs tangling together. the warmth of him making you shudder in honey-like delight. it feels syrupy and soft and warm wrapped in his arms.
his hand at your back travels downwards, leaving a trail of goosebumps in its wake you feel even through the thickness of the fabric separating the skin of your back and his fingertips. his hands feel rough and calloused at the small of your backâfrom playing guitar and his skateboarding incidentsâbut you enjoy the feeling.
you trail your fingers under the thick fabric of his jacket and shirt, feeling the smooth skin underneathâthe action has no deeper meaning than you wanting to feel.
samâs uncharacteristically quiet. his breaths are slow and long, like heâs on the verge of sleep. yet his arms are wound tight around youâlike he never wants to let go of you. your nerves make you feel like a slow simmering soup. warm and slowly cooking over the fire.
you two stay entangled for a while, in comfortable silence. sometime during the night youâve matched your breathing to his, and he pulled you somehow even closer to his body.
but, a thump comes from his window, a light tapping sound. soft but persistent. the two of you opt to ignore it, in favor of snuggling closer to each other. yet the taps continue, and become louder and faster.
disrupted by the noise, sam mournfully throws the covers from over him to check, untangling himself from your grip. leaving a very him-shaped indent on the bed left in his wake. you groan, sticking your bottom lip out, you miss the warmth of him already.
âoh shit.â
the expletive makes you sit up in his bed, the comforter draping off your middle. you can make out the shape of him even with the dimness of the lightâsamâs back is towards you, and if your eyes dare deceive you, he looks like heâs shrinking into himself a tiny bit.
âwhat is it?â you whisper-shout to him.
he slowly turns to you, wide eyed, his shoulders stiff. sort of resembling a kicked-dog. sam bows down his headâwith what you think is shame, for what reason, you canât tell. rubbing your eyes of sleep, you furrow your brow, craning your neck to look out the window behind him.
abigail and sebastian are there, waving wildly at you. your eyes widen. abigail and sebastian are waving at you with smug smiles plastered on their faces.
your stomach drops for the umpteenth time that night. you honestly feel too horrified to speak.
you bury yourself under the sheets, a feeble attempt to conceal your mortification. so thatâs why abigail was playing along with samâs urgent ramblingsâshe knew (not that sam was any good at keeping a cool facade, he is totally incapable of lying smoothly). you groan, you feel like a rebellious teenager again, only the part where you get caught and utterly humiliated.
outside, you can hear the loud roaring laughter of the duo through the glass, alongside the awkward, embarrassed chatter of your newly-minted boyfriend. (not technically official, but the title succeeds to relieve your horror by the tiniest bit)
still, you stay put. through the mortification and embarrassment you still stick yourself to samâs side, or more literally, on his bedâbecause you know, thereâs no other place youâd rather be.
you spare another glance out of the covers at the trioâto your surprise, samâs beat you to it. looking at you with heart eyes and the most lovesick expression (youâre pretty sure yours looks the same).
you know thereâs going to be a lot more explaining to do in the morning. but it doesnât matter to you, not right now when youâre in samâs bed on the verge of sleep.
not when you feel so warm.
a/n: shoutout to the ass trio for making an appearance in the fic! i love you abby and seb.
sweet like
word count: 1.5 k
synopsis: love confessions are not easy, having nosy neighbours isnât eitherâbut loving sam is different, itâs as easy as breathing.
a/n: samson my beloved, youre allergic to pollen but accepted my bouquet anyway. đâ¤ď¸
edit: sweet like is now on ao3! here
todayâs the day, youâre really going to do it. no ifs or buts.
you swear you will, but damn if it isnât messing with your head. itâs definitely the nervousness or heat stroke symptoms causing the overly-conscious way you regard all other shoppers in pierreâs general store. you feel the uneven, erratic thrum of your pulse underneath your skin.
your hands are cold and clammy and disgustingly sweaty as a bright bouquet of tulips, poppies, sweet peas and fairy roses is unceremoniously slid across the store counter and bundled into your arms. the smell is dizzyingly perfumed. pierre doesnât bat an eye though the knowing glint just tells you that he knows.
you and sam have been friends for as long as you started living in the valley. heâs a literal ball of sunshine compacted into a 5â10 body, and heâs sweetâmaybe at times a little sloppy and forgetful but those quirks make him all the more lovableâto you.
and you admit yes, you did have a crush on himâand after watching his bandâs performance in zuzu city, it got even worse. suddenly the ignition jump started the thrum of your heartâbeating at race car speeds at the mere mention of his name. restless and anxious
so, here you are, buying a bouquet (one you could surely make yourself, but according to abigail buying this exact one is town tradition) at 10 am in the morning, in front of all your nosy neighbours.
you clutch the flowers tighter to your chest as caroline cranes her neck to take a peek. slowing down as she restocks the shelves. shameless, these people are sharks to blood when it comes to gossip.
you shoot her a wary glare, lips pursed together. pushing open the door to the shop, the little entrance bell rings with your exit.
after your realization, you see the world through rose-tinted glasses, the skies seem brighter and clearer, with soft fluffy clouds suspended in them. the breeze is soft and refreshing, while the sun is a comforting warmth at your back.
not even a few steps past the stardrop saloon do you feel any different.
adrenaline pumps through your veins as you see a flash of familiar spiked-up golden hair in your periphery. you feel your breath stutter as you reflexively stuff the delicate bouquet in your pack and snap it shut.
you turn your back, clutching a hand to your chestâyou feel your heart racing underneath your fingertips as well as the heat rising up your skin. itâs fine, you reason, youâll play it off as sunburn.
you slap at your cheeks, encouragingly.
the aforementioned man, skates towards you, calling your attention. turning, you nod your head in greeting, offering him a less than wobbly smile.
you wait until the skateboard skids to a stop, sam stops a few feet from you. his breaths slightly labored from the effort, heâs still as bright and cheery as ever
âsam,â you cringe as your voice cracks into an awkward pitch. he perks up at the mention of his name, giving you an enthusiastic wave. you swallow the lump forming in your throat.
âhey farmer,â he smiles, sam sets one of his feet down from on his skateboard. âitâs really bright out today. whatâcha up to?â
âi was looking for you, actually.â
âand iâm here!â he replies before sheepishly adding. âthatâs a coincidence. i was going to go visit youâwell, before i forgot.â
âreally,â your stomach traitorously flutters. âwhat for?â
âto give you something,â he says breezily, sam digs around in his pant pockets, seemingly looking for something. âi swear i have the thingy in here somewhere..â
you watch as he fumbles around looking for the thingy. Your mind drifts to the scrunched up bouquet sitting in your pack. you hadnât expected running into him so soonâ
maybe, you think. you arenât as ready as you think.
âahh, here it is!â
sam fishes out a rectangular shaped object from his back pocket, its slim and clear. you tilt your head in curiosity and he smiles wider.
âa cassette of the bandâs song,â he tells you, grabbing your limp hand to stuff it into your palm. âlisten to it! you have a cassette player on your farm, right?â
the momental brush of his hand against yours has you stumbling over your mess of thoughts and feelings. it is a little pathetic, to be acting like a lovesick teenager againâyou groan to yourself. âyeah, i do.â
the cassette is light in your palm, the hard plastic case is covered in sharpied lightning bolts and smiley facesâalong with the careful engraving of your name. the hand drawn designs are wonky and childlike (you suspect he asked vincent to draw them), but itâs yours.
he made this for you.
you feel the giddy warmth spread all throughout your bodyâconcentrated in your chest and stomach which twists with some emotion youâre too confused to name.
âi couldnât find you after the performance,â he confesses. you peek up from the cassette at his faceâhis cheeks are bright pink with bashfulness. âit was too crowded, i wanted to give you the first sample recording.â
standing on willow street in front of his family house with the sun beating down on you, sweat dripping down your temple, flowers haphazardly stuffed into your backpack. youâre literally buzzing with energyâthe warmth, inside and out, is making your head spin.
you feel your mouth moving before you can even register what youâre saying, feverish words tumble out.
voice a tad strangled, you rasp. âsam.â
he looks down at his skateboard, his attention; short and slipping away. âyeah?â
âbe my boyfriend.â
âsure!â he pauses, processing what you said, his eyes whip back up to stare into yoursâwide and so, so blue. âwaaait.. wuuhââ
âi wasâuh, do you want to know why i wanted to visit you today?â you ramble on, tracing the cassette case edges with sweaty fingers. the beat of your heart is a resounding thumping sound in your eardrums. âactually, this is not how i planned things, but got nervous, you make me nervous.â
you shrug off your backpack, the heavy weight of it that once was grounding you groaned as it hit the ground. you open the flap and produce the now crumpled flowersâstems bent and broken, petals missing but the smell is still overwhelmingly sweet. you hold out the bouquet to him with shaky fingers, the cassette held in your other hand clasped behind your back.
ââi wanted to make this a little more specialâŚâ you sigh nervously, eyes squeezed shut while your bottom lip is chewed between worrying teeth. âitâs all crumpled, sorryâŚâ
âi think this is plenty special already.â
you feel as he moves closer, plucking the flowers out of your hands. now, thereâs barely any space between the both of you. your eyes snap open, mouth slightly gaping as he takes a long sniff full of flowers.
your heart sings for joy as he doesâbut the concerningly wet sneeze he lets out makes you furrow your brow in realization.
heâs goddamn allergic.
your eyes widen, reaching for the flowers. âsam, youâre allergic to pollen!â
your fingers barely brush the stems when he pull the flowers away from you. sam laughs, bright and pureâone that sounds like it came deep from his gut. you flush deeper in embarrassment, and a little in confusion.
âso? you gave me these. i like them!â
âi canât believe it slipped my mind,â you cringe. âdonât keep them! the stems are all twisted and broken anyway.â
he sneezes again, shaking his head petulantly, his nose pinkened with irritation, a small sound of mortification exits your mouth. how can you be so forgetful?
digging through your backpack, you grab the small pack of tissues you usually use to dab off sweat easily. you take one out of the pack and stretch it out towards him.
instead of your offered tissue, sam grabs you by the wrist, tugging you to him. you follow with not much of a fight, a confusing mixture of nervous and giddy energy youâve become. he holds you still against him, his arms coming behind you to wrap the both of you together tightly.
you go limp against him, head buried his shoulder. you think, you fit together perfectly.
âby the way, i like you too.â he murmurs into your hair. âa lot more than you think i do.â
âeven if i forgot you were allergic to flowers?â
he snorts, leaving a chaste peck on your forehead, you feel your cheeks flush. âespecially because you forgot, it was kinda funny.â
your head shoots up, nearly bumping his chin. âsam!â
he laughs and you canât help but smile in return. your gaze returns to the sky, and suddenly you canât quite recall what you were so worried about. really, life in stardew valley has never been so bright.
(and if you see some of your neighbors watching at the corner of your eye, you shut your eyes to ignore them.)
sweet like
word count: 1.5 k
synopsis: love confessions are not easy, having nosy neighbours isnât eitherâbut loving sam is different, itâs as easy as breathing.
a/n: samson my beloved, youre allergic to pollen but accepted my bouquet anyway. đâ¤ď¸
edit: sweet like is now on ao3! here
todayâs the day, youâre really going to do it. no ifs or buts.
you swear you will, but damn if it isnât messing with your head. itâs definitely the nervousness or heat stroke symptoms causing the overly-conscious way you regard all other shoppers in pierreâs general store. you feel the uneven, erratic thrum of your pulse underneath your skin.
your hands are cold and clammy and disgustingly sweaty as a bright bouquet of tulips, poppies, sweet peas and fairy roses is unceremoniously slid across the store counter and bundled into your arms. the smell is dizzyingly perfumed. pierre doesnât bat an eye though the knowing glint just tells you that he knows.
you and sam have been friends for as long as you started living in the valley. heâs a literal ball of sunshine compacted into a 5â10 body, and heâs sweetâmaybe at times a little sloppy and forgetful but those quirks make him all the more lovableâto you.
and you admit yes, you did have a crush on himâand after watching his bandâs performance in zuzu city, it got even worse. suddenly the ignition jump started the thrum of your heartâbeating at race car speeds at the mere mention of his name. restless and anxious
so, here you are, buying a bouquet (one you could surely make yourself, but according to abigail buying this exact one is town tradition) at 10 am in the morning, in front of all your nosy neighbours.
you clutch the flowers tighter to your chest as caroline cranes her neck to take a peek. slowing down as she restocks the shelves. shameless, these people are sharks to blood when it comes to gossip.
you shoot her a wary glare, lips pursed together. pushing open the door to the shop, the little entrance bell rings with your exit.
after your realization, you see the world through rose-tinted glasses, the skies seem brighter and clearer, with soft fluffy clouds suspended in them. the breeze is soft and refreshing, while the sun is a comforting warmth at your back.
not even a few steps past the stardrop saloon do you feel any different.
adrenaline pumps through your veins as you see a flash of familiar spiked-up golden hair in your periphery. you feel your breath stutter as you reflexively stuff the delicate bouquet in your pack and snap it shut.
you turn your back, clutching a hand to your chestâyou feel your heart racing underneath your fingertips as well as the heat rising up your skin. itâs fine, you reason, youâll play it off as sunburn.
you slap at your cheeks, encouragingly.
the aforementioned man, skates towards you, calling your attention. turning, you nod your head in greeting, offering him a less than wobbly smile.
you wait until the skateboard skids to a stop, sam stops a few feet from you. his breaths slightly labored from the effort, heâs still as bright and cheery as ever
âsam,â you cringe as your voice cracks into an awkward pitch. he perks up at the mention of his name, giving you an enthusiastic wave. you swallow the lump forming in your throat.
âhey farmer,â he smiles, sam sets one of his feet down from on his skateboard. âitâs really bright out today. whatâcha up to?â
âi was looking for you, actually.â
âand iâm here!â he replies before sheepishly adding. âthatâs a coincidence. i was going to go visit youâwell, before i forgot.â
âreally,â your stomach traitorously flutters. âwhat for?â
âto give you something,â he says breezily, sam digs around in his pant pockets, seemingly looking for something. âi swear i have the thingy in here somewhere..â
you watch as he fumbles around looking for the thingy. Your mind drifts to the scrunched up bouquet sitting in your pack. you hadnât expected running into him so soonâ
maybe, you think. you arenât as ready as you think.
âahh, here it is!â
sam fishes out a rectangular shaped object from his back pocket, its slim and clear. you tilt your head in curiosity and he smiles wider.
âa cassette of the bandâs song,â he tells you, grabbing your limp hand to stuff it into your palm. âlisten to it! you have a cassette player on your farm, right?â
the momental brush of his hand against yours has you stumbling over your mess of thoughts and feelings. it is a little pathetic, to be acting like a lovesick teenager againâyou groan to yourself. âyeah, i do.â
the cassette is light in your palm, the hard plastic case is covered in sharpied lightning bolts and smiley facesâalong with the careful engraving of your name. the hand drawn designs are wonky and childlike (you suspect he asked vincent to draw them), but itâs yours.
he made this for you.
you feel the giddy warmth spread all throughout your bodyâconcentrated in your chest and stomach which twists with some emotion youâre too confused to name.
âi couldnât find you after the performance,â he confesses. you peek up from the cassette at his faceâhis cheeks are bright pink with bashfulness. âit was too crowded, i wanted to give you the first sample recording.â
standing on willow street in front of his family house with the sun beating down on you, sweat dripping down your temple, flowers haphazardly stuffed into your backpack. youâre literally buzzing with energyâthe warmth, inside and out, is making your head spin.
you feel your mouth moving before you can even register what youâre saying, feverish words tumble out.
voice a tad strangled, you rasp. âsam.â
he looks down at his skateboard, his attention; short and slipping away. âyeah?â
âbe my boyfriend.â
âsure!â he pauses, processing what you said, his eyes whip back up to stare into yoursâwide and so, so blue. âwaaait.. wuuhââ
âi wasâuh, do you want to know why i wanted to visit you today?â you ramble on, tracing the cassette case edges with sweaty fingers. the beat of your heart is a resounding thumping sound in your eardrums. âactually, this is not how i planned things, but got nervous, you make me nervous.â
you shrug off your backpack, the heavy weight of it that once was grounding you groaned as it hit the ground. you open the flap and produce the now crumpled flowersâstems bent and broken, petals missing but the smell is still overwhelmingly sweet. you hold out the bouquet to him with shaky fingers, the cassette held in your other hand clasped behind your back.
ââi wanted to make this a little more specialâŚâ you sigh nervously, eyes squeezed shut while your bottom lip is chewed between worrying teeth. âitâs all crumpled, sorryâŚâ
âi think this is plenty special already.â
you feel as he moves closer, plucking the flowers out of your hands. now, thereâs barely any space between the both of you. your eyes snap open, mouth slightly gaping as he takes a long sniff full of flowers.
your heart sings for joy as he doesâbut the concerningly wet sneeze he lets out makes you furrow your brow in realization.
heâs goddamn allergic.
your eyes widen, reaching for the flowers. âsam, youâre allergic to pollen!â
your fingers barely brush the stems when he pull the flowers away from you. sam laughs, bright and pureâone that sounds like it came deep from his gut. you flush deeper in embarrassment, and a little in confusion.
âso? you gave me these. i like them!â
âi canât believe it slipped my mind,â you cringe. âdonât keep them! the stems are all twisted and broken anyway.â
he sneezes again, shaking his head petulantly, his nose pinkened with irritation, a small sound of mortification exits your mouth. how can you be so forgetful?
digging through your backpack, you grab the small pack of tissues you usually use to dab off sweat easily. you take one out of the pack and stretch it out towards him.
instead of your offered tissue, sam grabs you by the wrist, tugging you to him. you follow with not much of a fight, a confusing mixture of nervous and giddy energy youâve become. he holds you still against him, his arms coming behind you to wrap the both of you together tightly.
you go limp against him, head buried his shoulder. you think, you fit together perfectly.
âby the way, i like you too.â he murmurs into your hair. âa lot more than you think i do.â
âeven if i forgot you were allergic to flowers?â
he snorts, leaving a chaste peck on your forehead, you feel your cheeks flush. âespecially because you forgot, it was kinda funny.â
your head shoots up, nearly bumping his chin. âsam!â
he laughs and you canât help but smile in return. your gaze returns to the sky, and suddenly you canât quite recall what you were so worried about. really, life in stardew valley has never been so bright.
(and if you see some of your neighbors watching at the corner of your eye, you shut your eyes to ignore them.)
sweet like
word count: 1.5 k
synopsis: love confessions are not easy, having nosy neighbours isnât eitherâbut loving sam is different, itâs as easy as breathing.
a/n: samson my beloved, youre allergic to pollen but accepted my bouquet anyway. đâ¤ď¸
edit: sweet like is now on ao3! here
todayâs the day, youâre really going to do it. no ifs or buts.
you swear you will, but damn if it isnât messing with your head. itâs definitely the nervousness or heat stroke symptoms causing the overly-conscious way you regard all other shoppers in pierreâs general store. you feel the uneven, erratic thrum of your pulse underneath your skin.
your hands are cold and clammy and disgustingly sweaty as a bright bouquet of tulips, poppies, sweet peas and fairy roses is unceremoniously slid across the store counter and bundled into your arms. the smell is dizzyingly perfumed. pierre doesnât bat an eye though the knowing glint just tells you that he knows.
you and sam have been friends for as long as you started living in the valley. heâs a literal ball of sunshine compacted into a 5â10 body, and heâs sweetâmaybe at times a little sloppy and forgetful but those quirks make him all the more lovableâto you.
and you admit yes, you did have a crush on himâand after watching his bandâs performance in zuzu city, it got even worse. suddenly the ignition jump started the thrum of your heartâbeating at race car speeds at the mere mention of his name. restless and anxious
so, here you are, buying a bouquet (one you could surely make yourself, but according to abigail buying this exact one is town tradition) at 10 am in the morning, in front of all your nosy neighbours.
you clutch the flowers tighter to your chest as caroline cranes her neck to take a peek. slowing down as she restocks the shelves. shameless, these people are sharks to blood when it comes to gossip.
you shoot her a wary glare, lips pursed together. pushing open the door to the shop, the little entrance bell rings with your exit.
after your realization, you see the world through rose-tinted glasses, the skies seem brighter and clearer, with soft fluffy clouds suspended in them. the breeze is soft and refreshing, while the sun is a comforting warmth at your back.
not even a few steps past the stardrop saloon do you feel any different.
adrenaline pumps through your veins as you see a flash of familiar spiked-up golden hair in your periphery. you feel your breath stutter as you reflexively stuff the delicate bouquet in your pack and snap it shut.
you turn your back, clutching a hand to your chestâyou feel your heart racing underneath your fingertips as well as the heat rising up your skin. itâs fine, you reason, youâll play it off as sunburn.
you slap at your cheeks, encouragingly.
the aforementioned man, skates towards you, calling your attention. turning, you nod your head in greeting, offering him a less than wobbly smile.
you wait until the skateboard skids to a stop, sam stops a few feet from you. his breaths slightly labored from the effort, heâs still as bright and cheery as ever
âsam,â you cringe as your voice cracks into an awkward pitch. he perks up at the mention of his name, giving you an enthusiastic wave. you swallow the lump forming in your throat.
âhey farmer,â he smiles, sam sets one of his feet down from on his skateboard. âitâs really bright out today. whatâcha up to?â
âi was looking for you, actually.â
âand iâm here!â he replies before sheepishly adding. âthatâs a coincidence. i was going to go visit youâwell, before i forgot.â
âreally,â your stomach traitorously flutters. âwhat for?â
âto give you something,â he says breezily, sam digs around in his pant pockets, seemingly looking for something. âi swear i have the thingy in here somewhere..â
you watch as he fumbles around looking for the thingy. Your mind drifts to the scrunched up bouquet sitting in your pack. you hadnât expected running into him so soonâ
maybe, you think. you arenât as ready as you think.
âahh, here it is!â
sam fishes out a rectangular shaped object from his back pocket, its slim and clear. you tilt your head in curiosity and he smiles wider.
âa cassette of the bandâs song,â he tells you, grabbing your limp hand to stuff it into your palm. âlisten to it! you have a cassette player on your farm, right?â
the momental brush of his hand against yours has you stumbling over your mess of thoughts and feelings. it is a little pathetic, to be acting like a lovesick teenager againâyou groan to yourself. âyeah, i do.â
the cassette is light in your palm, the hard plastic case is covered in sharpied lightning bolts and smiley facesâalong with the careful engraving of your name. the hand drawn designs are wonky and childlike (you suspect he asked vincent to draw them), but itâs yours.
he made this for you.
you feel the giddy warmth spread all throughout your bodyâconcentrated in your chest and stomach which twists with some emotion youâre too confused to name.
âi couldnât find you after the performance,â he confesses. you peek up from the cassette at his faceâhis cheeks are bright pink with bashfulness. âit was too crowded, i wanted to give you the first sample recording.â
standing on willow street in front of his family house with the sun beating down on you, sweat dripping down your temple, flowers haphazardly stuffed into your backpack. youâre literally buzzing with energyâthe warmth, inside and out, is making your head spin.
you feel your mouth moving before you can even register what youâre saying, feverish words tumble out.
voice a tad strangled, you rasp. âsam.â
he looks down at his skateboard, his attention; short and slipping away. âyeah?â
âbe my boyfriend.â
âsure!â he pauses, processing what you said, his eyes whip back up to stare into yoursâwide and so, so blue. âwaaait.. wuuhââ
âi wasâuh, do you want to know why i wanted to visit you today?â you ramble on, tracing the cassette case edges with sweaty fingers. the beat of your heart is a resounding thumping sound in your eardrums. âactually, this is not how i planned things, but got nervous, you make me nervous.â
you shrug off your backpack, the heavy weight of it that once was grounding you groaned as it hit the ground. you open the flap and produce the now crumpled flowersâstems bent and broken, petals missing but the smell is still overwhelmingly sweet. you hold out the bouquet to him with shaky fingers, the cassette held in your other hand clasped behind your back.
ââi wanted to make this a little more specialâŚâ you sigh nervously, eyes squeezed shut while your bottom lip is chewed between worrying teeth. âitâs all crumpled, sorryâŚâ
âi think this is plenty special already.â
you feel as he moves closer, plucking the flowers out of your hands. now, thereâs barely any space between the both of you. your eyes snap open, mouth slightly gaping as he takes a long sniff full of flowers.
your heart sings for joy as he doesâbut the concerningly wet sneeze he lets out makes you furrow your brow in realization.
heâs goddamn allergic.
your eyes widen, reaching for the flowers. âsam, youâre allergic to pollen!â
your fingers barely brush the stems when he pull the flowers away from you. sam laughs, bright and pureâone that sounds like it came deep from his gut. you flush deeper in embarrassment, and a little in confusion.
âso? you gave me these. i like them!â
âi canât believe it slipped my mind,â you cringe. âdonât keep them! the stems are all twisted and broken anyway.â
he sneezes again, shaking his head petulantly, his nose pinkened with irritation, a small sound of mortification exits your mouth. how can you be so forgetful?
digging through your backpack, you grab the small pack of tissues you usually use to dab off sweat easily. you take one out of the pack and stretch it out towards him.
instead of your offered tissue, sam grabs you by the wrist, tugging you to him. you follow with not much of a fight, a confusing mixture of nervous and giddy energy youâve become. he holds you still against him, his arms coming behind you to wrap the both of you together tightly.
you go limp against him, head buried his shoulder. you think, you fit together perfectly.
âby the way, i like you too.â he murmurs into your hair. âa lot more than you think i do.â
âeven if i forgot you were allergic to flowers?â
he snorts, leaving a chaste peck on your forehead, you feel your cheeks flush. âespecially because you forgot, it was kinda funny.â
your head shoots up, nearly bumping his chin. âsam!â
he laughs and you canât help but smile in return. your gaze returns to the sky, and suddenly you canât quite recall what you were so worried about. really, life in stardew valley has never been so bright.
(and if you see some of your neighbors watching at the corner of your eye, you shut your eyes to ignore them.)
sam is literally the type of dad to use the vacuum hack to tie his kidâs hair
he helps you clear the farm of leaves during fall but what he doesnât tell you is that he hides those leaves in the back to burn when you set up the bonfire later
you best believe sam is throwing random shit into the bonfire to watch it burn
you best believe sam is throwing random shit into the bonfire to watch it burn