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My secret santa gift for @pinkflipphonez ! Merry christmas, god jul!

Star death

This drawing is based on the butterfly nebula :)

If anyone cares for my symbolism:

A nebula is often formed by the gas and dust ejected by a dying star after it burns out all its fuel. Stars die once the energy from fusion isn’t enough to sustain its mass, causing a collapse that produces a supernova, throwing heavy elements into space. Throughout a star’s life, they’re constantly fighting their own collapse, fusing hydrogen into helium to resist the pressure of their own gravitational pull. They die when they can no longer do this.

In the au I’m obsessed with that only exists in my head (more here), both of them sacrificed their teenage experiences to get into the school they did, and kind of know nothing else; in that way they’re fighting their own collapse and burnout. They're each other's first run-ins with a relationship like this and that experience makes them feel unable to sustain a disconnected tunnel vision outlook on life, if that makes sense. Hence star death.

And nebulae are how new stars form :)

Thank you for enabling me also my nyo America is called Jackie so I’m calling her that here sorry  

Ok so they're undergraduates in college, got randomly assigned roommates, and both earning a degree in aerospace engineering. They did not like each other at all at first, very competitive and both top of their class, but because of the horrific gender ratio they'd stick together anyway (it was also hard not to because they were roommates) and have each other's backs which established a trust despite hating each other on the surface.

And I imagine they didn’t really have coming of age experiences because both spent all their time studying to get into their university in the first place; they haven’t really explored things like sexuality and romance and whatnot. They also are both fucked up in the head, especially Anya, and suck at genuine human connection yeah

Because they have this stupid rivalry they become really enamored with the thought of having an equal and a perfect match and really being understood as a person do eventually they kind of become obsessed with each other. And they don’t want to admit to even being proper friends because neither of them “do friends” (for Jackie it’s a “keeping everyone as an acquaintance so no one can see me as anything less than perfect” thing and for Anya it’s “human connection is a waste of time and I fuck up every single relationship” thing) but if either of them even seemed properly friendly with someone else the other would get so jealous they’d feel actually sick. 

Jackie’s really taken with the thought of Anya being the only one that sees the “real her” and Anya is obsessed with the idea that Jackie will stay with her and see her as the most important priority. and they see each other more than anyone else and study together and witness the other when they're not put together in a way that feels more vulnerable and intimate than anything they've ever experienced. and both of them are way too possessive and want it to be them against the world but they also sometimes want to destroy the other for knowing them like that

So yeah they’re just in this fucked up codependent borderline situationship and they keep having the homoerotic encounters that most people deal with in middle school but they’ve never felt like this before and it’s intoxicating

Anyway this drawing was supposed to reflect having life changing emotionally destructive lesbian sex

gentlemen, what if I proposed a cheesy bratva au... but with dames??!!!! in the 80s??!!!!

look, I know the mafia/mobster au is popular and it's all been done before but where are the women!!!!!

no seriously, I'm thinking of lez rusame in 1987 los angeles. amelia is a dancer in vegas and she travels to la to audition for acting roles. anya is a bratva leader who married a mob leader in order to have authority within the organization.

they meet at a party in hollywood that gets shot up because they're targeting anya but amelia doesn't know this. anya is the only one that gets severely injured so amelia drives her to the hospital because the cops wouldn't make it on time. she drops her off that the hospital until her family gets there and calls it a day. weeks later, anya looks for her to thank her and ultimately tracks her down in las vegas and things blossom from there.

I'm thinking anya keeps it hidden from amelia on what she really does and tries giving her anything she wants. since she wants to be an actress, she probably ends up pulling strings for her to land a good acting gig.

still working out the kinks but dammit, i need mafia women!!!

the iconic jayne mansfield x sophia loren photo ft. a flustered anya and an aloof amelia