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kinn and porsche + being smitten with each other again

Soo... we already knew that the KinnPorsche OST is a masterpiece but I just realised the details they put in. Because the literal English translation from the Thai lyrics are different from the English lyrics. And I kind of figured that the Thai ver. is Kinn’s POV and the English ver. is Porsche’s POV.

This is such a beautiful and fitting detail that makes me love it even more. (T-T)

Journal Entry_VEGASPETE

“Someday, judgment will come to you,” Pete hisses.

The drag of chains from the movement of his shackled hands clang loudly in the quiet of the room. And he, the devil himself, only smiled sweetly at this. Dark eyes crinkled in delight as his lips stretched into a beautiful smile with white fangs dangerously glinting behind.

“And no hell will ever accept you,” he finishes, venom coating his words as his eyes glare at the other in the dim lights of the room.

To this, the evil incarnate only laughs. Puffs of breath sensually intertwine with his low-timbred voice. A beautiful laugh, really. If only it wasn’t from someone so despicable as Vegas.

He tilts his head and approaches Pete’s kneeling form, hands raised above and feet bound on its spot. Quickly, the hand roughly clutched his jaw and tilted it, gazing up at the delighted expression plastered on Vegas’ face.

He is amused, Pete nervously concluded.

Shifting, he tries to move away. The chains rattling loudly at his subtle movement. But as he tries to withdraw, the grip tightened. The insides of his cheeks pushing to his teeth, premolars painfully touching the fragile buccal. He gulps, breath harshly leaving parted lips. Eyes diverting anywhere but of the figure casting him in its shadows.

He shivers, like prey, and he, the apex predator, pounces.

 Bending down at him with his vice grip, allowing no room for escape, he whispers, “Good.” Vegas’ face draws closer to his, round eyes unable to meet the sharp gaze. The pounding of Pete’s heart is loud in his ears as he forcefully moves away, but the hold, the fucking grip, on him doesn’t allow it.

“Khun Veg—”

“I only want you to accept me.”

Pete sucks a harsh breath. Wide eyes focused onto Vegas while he shivers at the words.

This cannot be real, his mind echoes. But with the half-lidded gaze so focused on him, he felt untethered in his panic. 

Oh my god, this shit cannot be happening.

Wide eyes rove anywhere but Vegas, trying to find a way out of this nightmare. Because if this is reality, Pete believes death to be the better option.

“Don’t worry, Pete.” 

His exhales warm Pete’s jaw as it crept slowly towards his neck. Painful grip, loosening to gently caress his cheek, but despite of its softness, he can feel it dominating his senses. And Pete wills himself to move away.

“I won’t hurt you.”

Still frozen, he can feel his chest rapidly expanding and deflating. His eyes darting from one corner of the room to the other as his mind scream for his mobility.

“Unless, you want me to.”

He moves.

Kinn x Porsche

Kinn x Porsche

Porsche Pachara Kittisawasd

Kinn x Porsche

Kim's chains & their possible symbolism (Special)

I suggest reading the previous 3 part series I made before this

The conflict

This is the only instances in ep 9 where Kim is conflicted when Porchay confesses. After seeing that mini shrine on his wall, hearing the love song, thinking of him during his own songwriting & now the innocent confession.

Kim stopped himself the last time when Chay serenaded him. And now Porchay has the audacity to be this cute innocent boy who promised God to risk confessing in return if he passed his college entrance exam.

Kim can't take it anymore. This is the ONLY instance until ep 12 where Kim has let his emotions get the better of him WHILE wearing a necklace.

This goes a long way to show the intensity of Kim's feelings. Considering he's somebody who suppresses his emotions with ease compared to an average person.

It can serve as symbolism for Kim letting himself indulge his emotional needs. He is removing his self imposed restrictions & involuntarily choosing to love. Choosing to be selfish in satisfying his momentary desire instead of constantly looking at the bigger picture.

And later when Kim gets a hug & hugs back. He's overwhelmed. He realises the warmth of a hug after being seemingly touch starved since years.

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Part 2

Part 3

Kim's chains & their possible symbolism (Part 2/3)

No necklaces

We can take this at face value.

Kimhan unhinged Theerapanyakul.

In first 2 instances, Porchay is in kidnapped. And Kim himself is in action when he has Kinn & the bodyguards who could have rescued Chay for him. He not only risked his life, but also God forbid if he came out alive & Chay caught his lie.

These are the only cases where Kim is thinking about Chay as the boy he loves & not a source of information. Which is why he's acting based on emotions & not a well thought plan.

In the third picture he's visibly disturbed for someone who mostly comes across as stoic.

It also explains why an unexpressive person like Kim's first response is violence. If we look at what he did at the club, (4th pic) he need not have the been the person to hit first.

In conclusion, we see a glimpse of how fiery Kim actually is if not for that ice water if "rationality" he always dips himself in.

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Part 3

Special

Kim's chains & their possible symbolism (Part 1/3)

The safety pins

Both are instances when Kim is intruding other's rooms to find information. Therefore the "I'm a safe space" symbolism of safety pin doesn't stand here. Especially when Kim is breaking into the place where others keep their things safe.

It could probably mean Kim is poking his nose here like a pin 😂😂

The safety pin is holding 2 ends of the chain, so it could also mean he's trying to piece together all the clues & information he can lay his hands on.

Part 2

Part 3

Special

Kim : So what's your type?

Chay : Handsome, musician, kind, good hair, oblivious, charming, mysterious and talented.

Kim : Sounds a lot like me...too bad we're just friends

Chay : Did I mention oblivious?

Kim : Yeah, why?

Chay : Okay, just making sure

How Kim & WIK were 2 different people until Porchay came along.

Part 2/4

Now that we have identified his 2 personalities let's go back a to where all the trouble started.

Kim being surprised that an experienced bodyguard like Big was replaced with a newbie due to his injury. The more he learnt about the preferential treatment Prosche received from both Kinn & Korn, he immediately smelled something fishy. So he decides to do the background check Korn deliberately didn't.

When he discovers Porchay is Porsche's brother he doesn't hesitate to take advantage of his fanboy. He never intended to be cruel, he considered it an exchange for the time he would invest in tutoring.

Disclosing that Kim & WIK are 2 sides of the same coin was a calculated move. He knew that the Kittisawads & Theerapanyakuls' fates would only get more intertwined in future. (Also notice how Kim mentions "sad love song" to Big in their conversation. Could that mean he knew about Big's feelings for Kinn without anyone telling?) However, he is not subtle in ways (lucky Kim that Porchay was too näive to suspect) possibly due to lack of social engagement.

Kim's only miscalculation was his budding feelings for Porchay. He is barely in touch with his feelings to be able to do something before it's too late. We see Kimhan smiling only when he discovers Chay fanboying over him (the texts & his room wall) or when Chay is singing. So it is not Kim, but WIK the artist & tutor falling for Porchay.

So in essence, Kim asked him to write a song on Porsche but WIK fell in love with the song. WIK asked him to write a love song & WIK fell in love with Chay.

Kimhan doesn't even realize his feelings until he can't help but smile at the song dedicated for him. (Let's just take a moment to appreciate it 🤭)

He acknowledges his feelings for the first time when the thought of Porchay clears his creative block. After all, for an artist, you know you're in love when they become your muse.

He is well aware that he has to stop seeing Porchay so that both their feelings don't get hurt. But WIK takes over Kim when Porchay shyly confesses. (Seriously, as if he wasn't cute enough already - Porchay reveals he promised God he would risk confessing to his celebrity crush. How could someone NOT melt at that innocence)

For the first time in the series we see Kim follow his heart over his head like most humans. Considering he let himself feel happy despite his overly practical self. It goes a long way to highlight the intensity of his feelings.

Like a well crafted character his personality doesn't change overnight. His original habits resurface very soon.

He stares at his own hand in happiness mingled with guilt. Yes he would love to vow to protect Porchay's innocent sunshine smile & teenage dreams. Forever. But he hates himself. Because he can't. Nothing can help him escape his reality. He's a Theerapanyakul. He's a threat to anyone he loves. He's not allowed to love.

He feels unworthy of someone who says "I love you" without expecting anything in return. He hates himself for letting himself be happy & forget all this worries. He would have left Porchay with a note that day if not for the mishap.

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Part 4

How Kim & WIK were 2 different people until Porchay came along.

Part 1/4

Lets first look at the 2 personas of Kimhan Theerapanyakul

Kim

Third son of the major family

Shrewd, calculative & sort of a silent killer in human form

Has no difficulty stopping emotions from meddling with his rational mind

Grew up in a world of organised crime

Watched his eldest brother get kidnapped & suffer from unhealed trauma

Was encouraged to inculcate trust issues & never believe in the goodness that exists in the world

Extremely good at reading people

Introverted

The last 2 points could either be inherent or acquired. Witnessing his brothers struggle, the constant rivalry between major & minor family must have made him lose his innocence quite early without even trying. (Imagine how sick it can be when the adults encourage cousins to be rivals)

I strongly believe he discovered something disturbing about his family which made him choose to move out & isolate himself. His ability to shut down his emotions with ease could again be inherent or acquired, but it only makes him more dangerous if he were to actively get involved in crime.

He could be gathering information after moving out for either of the following reasons

He discovered a family secret he shouldn't have which even his elder brothers are unaware of

He is disinterested in the family business & power play; lucky enough to have Kinn who made the sacrifice

It's all a disguise to gather intelligence & protect his brother from far

He has a plan which should be executed without his father's knowledge

WIK

Student at a music school

Celebrity, singer & songwriter, plays guitar & piano

Perceived as a common civilian by public

Has a good fan following

Gets equally impressed & excited on meeting a dedicated fanboy

My stance is that he wouldn't agree to tutor Porchay even if he was not a mafia's son. Because he is a celebrity; he would want to keep a healthy distance from his fans.

He himself admits to Porchay that WIK is the side of him which he prefers. For someone who lives in self imposed isolation (privacy is now at double risk as a celebrity & mafia prince) his art is an outlet for emotions. Music is his safe space.

Kimhan Theerapanyakul has no trouble compartmentalizing his life & switching personas.... Until Chay enters his life.

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Part 4

A fanfic of Vegas' villian origin story in KinnPorsche

Imagine Vegas being allowed to go on a field trip to a beach in a village when 13. It's got to do with his father's mission but he's grateful for the chance to use the school bus for once. Like other kids. Cut to Vegas sitting alone waiting for his father in the evening. His classmates have left for home.

He grabs fistfuls of sand & watches the grains slip from his hand while realizing the salt water on his chin is not the sea spray. Suddenly, a hand on his shoulder causes him to flinch. A cracked male voice enquires, "Are you lost?". He shakes his head sideways. On turning around he can't tear his gaze away from the sculpted features of a boy in oversized clothes & messy hair.

"Do you want a friend?" The boy asks again, flashing his dimples & eye smiles. Vegas nods in agreement. The boy sits beside him. "I'm Pete. Even I'm alone today. All my friends are away for vacation. Grandma will be back tomorrow morn. What's your name?" Vegas hesitantly responds, "Vienna. I'm just waiting for my father."

Vegas reads him a story and Pete listens to it with fascination. Pete picks & shows him various seashells but Vegas is only looking at his hands until he spots his father at a distance. Afraid of being spotted together he tells him to hide from his scary father & scurries away.

Since that day Vegas turns to that chest tingling memory for warmth & comfort. He even tries to find that boy but doesn't find any useful leads. Plus the nostalgia of first love also brings regret with it. The fact he didn't even say goodbye. To the boy who deserved to know his real first name at the least. So he tries to distract himself. By plotting against the major family to please his father (spoiler alert : he always fails to)

On a particular bad day the last thing he'd want to do was meeting the major family. But the minor family's heir didn't have the luxury to rest.

This time a new bodyguard greets them with a tight smile. Vegas catches himself thinking "He's cute" as the new recruit escorts them to the meeting room before taking a spot beside Tankhun and half of Vegas' attention.

As they're exiting the room Vegas picks up the new recruit's fallen ID card. He shakes his head in disbelief on seeing a familiar name. There's no way on Earth they could find the one only he knew & never found, right?

His face loses colour when he flips the case. It's like seeing the mirror of Erised. It was a face only he knew from seven years ago. With the same eye smile that had made him feel weak in the knees for the first & last time. There was an old woman in the picture too.

The major family somehow always seemed to have everything he wanted & never got. Loving parents, wealth, power, status, self esteem & respect. Life couldn't be more unfair. One boy, whose memory was only his, his first love, his sole comfort memory that didn't include his deceased mother. Somehow even this was bestowed upon the major family. The one he yearned for was now serving his rivals. They didn't even worship him like he did for 7 long years.

Vegas sought revenge. If he couldn't have his love then he'd never let his rival Kinn be in love either. So he pocketed the card & set out to trap Tawan.

Possible explaination for Vegas visiting a temple

It is a known fact that Vegas wears a million masks & has lost himself in the process. These could be one of the two reasons he visits a temple despite being a ruthless criminal.

Guilt : As his human side surfaces in ep 11, it now seems believeable that Vegas indeed feels a tinge of guilt for any of these reasons :

Taking away innocent lives

Manipulating people to fall in love with him only to kill them later (they could be the only form of affectionate touch he gets except from Macau)

Having to raise Macau, the only family he loves & trusts, in a toxic environment

Vegas probably wakes up every morning only to fulfil his duties as a son & heir without any self driven motivation. (He doesn't even seem to know himself as Vegas without the Theerapanyakul) He is probably clinging to this mafia life just because there is no alternative. Also there's a need to shield Macau from their toxic father.

Perhaps he goes gives offerings to the temple to beg forgiveness for the sins he's obliged to commit. He could've felt guilty for failing to protect Macau or constantly disappointing his father by always being the second best after Kinn. He might also believe he is paying for the sins of his past lives. Or fear the sins of this life shall carry on to the next.

Which leads me the second possible reason - Lack of purpose.

People commonly turn to spirituality to find answers for questions like - Who am I? What is the purpose of life? Questions which Vegas definitely seems inclined to find answers for. Because he feels unwanted. Unloved. Unworthy. And then in ep 7, he watches Pete.

Pete, who happens to be passing by, stops & bows when he notices a shrine. Earlier in the ep we see Pete asking Big to stop trashing a rival gang member afraid it would lead to his death. This shows Pete's compassionate side despite being in a job that demands you to be violent & merciless. (Yes they needed him to live to make him talk but he neither seemed to have bled nor fainted. We only see Big hitting him only a couple of times prior) Vegas must have considered if faith in God is what keeps a person like Pete from crumbling. So decides to give God a chance.

But someone makes him realize he wants something from life. Which for once, doesn't have to do with his family. Pete.

He might have tried talking to deal with the awkwardness of being caught while spying. But this sentence means a lot to Vegas who has probably never experienced platonic love. No one had ever asked him about his likes or dislikes without intending to use it against him. And now all he wants is someone to whom he can ask about interests & be asked back . So he answers.

However, the peace may not be from just hearing the sermon, but from hearing it alongside Pete. Vegas has never been treated like a commoner before. The absence of hierarchy in this conversation oddly liberates him. And for the first time, he admits to having desires; in his own way.

By next life he could have meant "In a life where we are not us". He wished Pete was his friend in a world where he could afford to have one. A life where he was not his father's son or the minor family's heir. An alternative universe where Pete was not one of his rival's fiercely loyal head bodyguard. Where Vegas didn't have to constantly switch personalities & Pete was still his non-judgemental self.

For the first time Vegas could sense a craving for a human relationship that didn't have to be bound by money, blood or blackmail. And he readily did a ritual if it meant something to his newfound desire.

But the type of love he craves can be found in any relationship. Considering his upbringing, he seems to believe blood or romantic relationships are utilitarian. Which only leaves friendships. A luxury he never had as a mafia prince.

Now to ruin the mood we all know what happens next😂 Pete is fucking attractive so Vegas couldn't hold back & needed an excuse to touch him I guess 🤣🤣

However it is worth noting that humans have multiple layers to their personalities. Moreover humans do tend to look for what they lack in their partners. So it's only normal for Vegas to find that comforting friend in Pete.

PS forgive me if I'm wrong this is my first time posting my own theory/interpretation 😛😅😭

KINNPORSCHE ANNIVERSARY WEEK 14

Free choice: KinnPorsche + text posts (pt. 61/65)

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pete said. porsche your boyfriend choked you to save your life. mine does it for fun. for my fun