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I drew this for too long… but I'm glad I finally finished it! reference

by the way, while I was drawing this I thought about the AU It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia and Attack on Titan. Even though Reiner is in Charlie's place here, I would say he is Mac, Jean is Dennis, and Charlie is Connie. Dee could be Sasha. I thought about Frank for a long time… I decided that Hange would be suitable for this role, but I'm not sure.

Sh*t Jean Kirschtein says — Happy birthday, Jean! (07.04) (part 2) (part 1 here)

hi valmendy! i love your art! have you ever thought of drawing marlowe? 🥺

Marlo +annie and jean

What if we kissed 😳 in the middle of a war 😳🔥

In which Marco never died because I said so

In which Marco surprises Jean with a small kiss when they’re being goofy and jean thinks about it for the whole week

Chapter 4: Yes or yes

||I said I’d make a new chapter, so here it is! This one may end up being on the shorter side since it’s late but I’m experiencing a huge burst of energy haha! Also I really love this song because, vibes 😎 Anyways, enjoy the chapter and look out on Friday! (Also just in time for Valentines Day)||

[Restaurant. Thursday, 5:00 pm. {name}’s pov]

“What I’m going to say next might sound silly…but…I-“ I got cut off with the sound of Levi saying “We’re going to leave as soon as I pay for the meal. We need to prepare for the concert and get ready.” We all hummed in response. “I’ll tell you after the concert, alright?”. Jean responded with a nod and we left after Levi paid.

The car ride to the hotel was silent, other than the radio that played a song. The song “Yes or yes” by Twice played. I smiled and sang along, and I got surprised looks from everyone but Armin. I continued to sing along, a smile on my face. Once the song ended, I was greeted by the surprise from the members of the group. “I didn’t know you could sing so well!” Jean said, acting like a child in a candy store.

“Thanks” I said with a smile. “I told you she could sing well” Armin said in a teasing voice. “You should sing with us some day. As a guest” Eren suggested. “I…I’m not sure I can sing THAT well, but I’ll consider it” I said with a shrug. “It doesn’t hurt to try!” Connie said, with an encouraging smile. “Like I said, I’ll consider it” I said in a teasing voice as we entered the parking lot for the hotel.

[The concert. Thursday, 10:00 pm, Jeans pov]

Crowds singing. Dance. Sing. Lights, flashing. Sound. Lots of sound. Why? Why must I feel so warm inside?? I mean, dancing causes that, but…it’s a different kind of warmth. One that I haven’t felt in an long time…

While dancing and singing on the stage, I couldn’t help but feel nervous, despite me looking all happy (and serious when called for) on stage. I mean, it’s normal to feel nervous around your crush? Right? Or is it perhaps more than a crush? Perhaps, it’s this feeling of love I’m feeling…

I took a quick glance to where {name} was and I saw her smiling, looking super happy, the lanyard around her neck following her movements, entranced by the way a snake would be by a snake-charmer. Seeing her all happy motivated me to continue to dance, despite me being on the brink of collapse. Do it for her, make her proud. You can collapse later, just not right now…mows definitely not a good time.

Once the concert ended, we were greeted by a happy {name}, saying loads of praises on how good we were singing, her favorite parts, and a “You are all so talented and amazing! I loved the part when-“ while she continued to spout praises and her excitement on being backstage, I fell a bit more deeper for her. Once we were in the green room, {name}, Connie, and Eren were trying to convince her to sing onstage (with Levi listening and commenting once in a while), while I was talking to Armin.

“I see you have feeling for someone” he teased. “Is it that obvious?” I asked, my voice low. “Nope, I can just happen to read people that well. You might have what people call Aitai ga jou, mitai ga yamai.” “Eh?! No I don’t” I said, crossing my arms. “Yeah, sure. Uso o tsuite iru koto ga wakarimasu” He said with a smile and he gently nudged my arm. I sighed, “Īdeshou, tabun”

[Hotel balcony. Thursday, 11:00 pm, {name}’s pov]

I stood on the balcony, watching the sky above glitter with stars, sparkling and shining like tiny flashlights, the moon giving off a soft glow, contrast to the darkness night brought. I heard the sliding glass door open and close. “Hello there Jean.” I said with a smile. Jean responded with a hello. I looked up at the sky…I’m going to do it, tonight is the perfect night! You got this…

“The moon is beautiful, isn’t it?” I asked before I looked at Jean, smiling softly.

“I can die happy” He responded smiling back. “How did you know?” I asked, smiling with a blush on my face. “Armin told me in case” he said with a small laugh. Our faces grew a few inches closer, the wind bringing in a whisper, a conscience asking, is this right? Is this wrong? But in the moment…it felt so right… I closed my eyes and our lips touched, at first slightly awkward, then it slowly bloomed into something I didn’t want end.

|| Translation (rough, may not be entirely correct but it’s close enough 😅):

“Aitai ga jou, mitai ga yamai.” - love sickness

“Uso o tsuite iru koto ga wakarimasu” - I can tell you’re lying (basically)

“Ideshou tabun” - Okay, maybe

Also! The phrase “The moon is beautiful, isn’t it?” Which is a Japanese phrase (“tsuki ga kirei desu ne?”) where one confesses their love to. Well, if you want to be cheesy, that is. The least unrealistic response (the one I decided to use) is “I can die happy” or “shindemo iiwa”

The most realistic response (which I’m deciding to include here) is “Sōda ne 〜. Tokorode daiji daijina hanashi hanashi ga aru tte gen ittenakatta? Nani nani?” Which roughly means, “Yep. Isn’t there something important you would want to tell me?”

The responses on the internet can be rather false and incorrect 😅

Anyways, I hope you enjoyed this “mini chapter” and have a great Valentine’s Day ❤️

-Lucky 🐾

|| Taglist: @1-800-asuka

Chapter 2: Maria

|| Hello and welcome to a new chapter! This chapter and from now on may have some cursing (I’m sure y’all can handle, but I understand if not ^^ ) also there may be a smut chapter depending on if I feel comfortable 😅 ALSO I will add warnings beforehand and I’ll try not to add important dialogue in there so those who skip won’t miss important stuff! I have never written smut before so we’ll see! Another really fast note, this fanfic will have she/her pronouns, but feel free to change them according to what suits you best! Enough of my rambling, lets resume our story!||

[Hotel, Wednesday, Jeans pov]

I was hanging out with Eren, Armin, and Connie in the dimly lit living room, playing a game of UNO. Yesterday, we got notified of the winner being someone named {name}. They sound like an nice person. I hope they’re nice. “UNO!” Connie shouts, snapping me out of my thoughts. Damn it. He won again. His second round of winning. Little bitch. “Another round?” Asked Armin, not willing to give up just yet. When it comes to games like these, he’s not one to accept losing so easily. Neither am I.

We agree to Armins suggestion. Levi has been watching us play UNO for the past…half hour? Well, it felt like that. It probably was longer than I thought. “You’re on” Connie and I say in unison with a few laughs before we heard a few knocks coming from the tree-bark-brown door. Everyone fell silent. That must be them.

[Hotel, 2:00 pm, {name}’s pov]

I knocked on the door. Room 2456. I hope this is the right one. I hear the door open, which revealed Levi. “Oh. You must be {name} right?” The man asked. I responded with a nod. “Yeah, that’s me” I responded more awkwardly than I had hoped. “Come inside then. You can put your stuff in the closet”. He stated before heading to a light brown sofa. I did as he instructed before deciding to say hello to the others.

“Good afternoon” I said with a smile. “Hello” everyone responded. I had no idea why, but I couldn’t help but look at Jean. Oh god, since when was he so hot? I blinked before deciding to sit in between Armin and Jean. “playing Uno?” I asked, trying to lighten the mood. “Uh, yeah! Would you like to join? You got just in time! We just finished a round” Connie responded with a smile. “I would love to!” I said with a smile back.

[2 hours later]

I ended up beating them in 3 rounds before Levi said it was time to eat dinner so we can get ready to sleep. I decided to enter the balcony to enjoy the sunset, closing the sliding door behind me. The sky turned into a beautiful cotton candy pink, the birds chirping and soaring through the sky. I had always loved watching the sun set. Especially watching the cars below and the people walking on the busy sidewalk.

I heard the door open and close. “Just checking on you. You okay?” Asked a voice that I knew so well. “I’m doing alright, Mr. Kirstein” I said with a small laugh. “How did you know it’s me?” Asked Jean, who was pretty shocked. “Your voice is one I can recognize” I responded, looking at him with a smile. I watched him smile back, the sunset making him practically glow. Quite literally. The uncontrollable urge to fall just a bit more in love with that man intensified. “I was watching the sunset. I did that a lot back home. Would you like to join?” I asked. “Sure! I would love to”

[Wednesday, Balcony, Hotel, precisely sunset. Jean’s pov]

The girl who entered the door. They were pretty. She also looked familiar. Did she sit at the front row during the concert? I’m pretty sure she did. I think I’m right, she probably did!

“We’re you at the concert yesterday?” I asked them after a brief moment of the two of us, gazing at the sunset, being partially blocked by the buildings across from us. She looked at me and nodded. “Yeah, I was there. Why?” She asked, Her head slightly tilted to the left. “We’ll, I-“ the rest of my sentence got cut off by an airplane that was passing overhead, it’s engines making a low growling sound as it soared.

After a few seconds I opened my mouth to say something, then I closed it muttering a “Nevermind” before looking at the now, faded sunset, it’s color slowing inching towards a black. “You can say it” She responded after a few moments. “Don’t worry, I won’t judge” she said with a reassuring smile. “I was just wondering” I said with a shrug. “I was thinking that you looked familiar and I guessed it was from a concert.” I glanced at her and looked at the remnants of what once was a beautiful sunset.

“I’m heading back inside” the female called out with a small smile. “It was nice talking to you Mr. Kirstein” she said, happiness and relaxation radiating from her. One can’t help but feel a sense of calm, when talking to her. “Please, call me Jean. We’re friends now, right?” I asked with a smile. Maybe we can become more than that. I’m ready whoever you are. I wanted to say that, but it’s too early. Maybe she won’t return my feelings. Worst

case scenario is I get rejected. It will hurt, but maybe I’ll get over it.

Falling in love with someone you just met that day. How pathetic. “Alright Jean. I’m heading inside. Is there a place for me to sleep?” She asked, holding the handle of the glass sliding door, frozen in place. “No, we don’t have a spare room. Would you like me to book one for you? I would be happy to-“ I got cut off with a “I can sleep on the sofa. I don’t mind, really, I don’t.” I looked at her like I thought she was crazy. “No, I can’t do that to our guest, especially after a long day. Uh, do you have any ideas?” I asked, trying to think of one.

[Wednesday, balcony, night time, 9:00 pm, {name}’s pov]

“I have one. I don’t know if you’d be comfortable with it though….” I said, feeling embarrassed by the thought. “Er, promise not to laugh, okay?” She asked, looking like she has seen a ghost. “I won’t, don’t worry.” Jean said before flashing a reassuring smile. “Icould sleepwithyouifyou’dlike” I said, before feeling the temperature grow 5x more warmer than the before, changing from partially chilly to hot as an oven. “I mean…if you’re not okay with that, then I completely-“ I got cut off with a small laugh. “No need to get worked up kid, it’s perfectly fine by me” Jean said with a smile.

I felt the breeze brush me, which resulted in my shivering a little. “Let’s head inside, if you want. It’s nice and all but…it’s kind of cold, not gonna lie” Jean nodded in agreement and we went inside the building, shutting the sliding door with a small thump. “Are you still cold? The heater in this room hasn’t been working for a while. You can borrow a jacket if you’d like” the man offered. “Sure. I…thank you” I said with a warm smile. This must be a dream

As I got ready for bed, Jean was ready, sitting on the queen sized bed. When I exited the bathroom, I was greeted by him, reading a book. The Great Gatsby. I remember reading that book junior year of high school. “Interesting book you got there good sir” I say with a teasing tone, which made him jump “Ah, I didn’t expect you to be done so quickly! Damn. Well, I guess we can call it a night. How does that sound?” He asked, before setting the slightly faded book on the bedside table. “Sounds good Jean.” I entered the bed and was greeted by a nice warmth, like sitting in front of a fire on a cold, winters day. I turned off the lampshade and laid down. “Goodnight Jean. See you tomorrow” I said while pulling the blanket over myself. “Goodnight {name}. Rest well” the man responded. Before I knew it, I was out like a light.

|| Thank you so much for reading this chapter of Red Lights! I hope ya’ll enjoyed this chapter! I apologize for this being out a tad bit late! I fell asleep yesterday after staying up studying 😅 Anyways, I hope y’all have a great day/night! - Lucky 🐾 ||

Taglist: @1-800-asuka

Chapter 1: From home

|| Welcome to Chapter 1! I made a collage to make things more interesting! I hope you like it! Also feel free to reblog as you’d like! It will be greatly appreciated 😌! Now, without a further ado, lets let continue the story! ||

[Monday, hotel room, noon, 5 hours till performance. Jean’s pov]

The day of performances is always the most nerve-wracking day. Yes, preforming is fun, but the fear of messing up in front of thousands can make one really nervous. I glance from my phone and watch Armin frantically going over the song list for the umpteenth time. “Hey, Armin. No need to stress yourself out okay? You’re shaking so much that you might cause an earthquake” I remark, trying to lighten his mood. Armin looked like he might faint at any moment, I can’t help but feel bad for him.

“I’m not stressed…” he lies and I quirk an eyebrow. “Uh huh. Sure, sure.” I pause before I inhale and ask “ Would you like to go over a few songs before we preform?” I ask. “Aniyo” he murmurs absent-mindedly, staring at the song list….again. “Alright, I’ll ask the others if they’d like to join. I’ll be right back. Geogi seo” I say before I leave.

I ask the others if they’d like to join and they nod in unison. “Alright, we’ll go over the encore and the hardest ones. How does that sound?” I ask. Everyone looked at each other for a brief moment before agreeing to my idea. After about half an hour of singing with the track, Armin seemed less nervous. “We should get ready. Also, try not to look sweaty before we even start” Levi states before we nod and get ready to preform.

[Monday, {name}’s car, venue of the concert, 20 minutes till performance. {name}’s pov]

This venue is super crowded. Damn. Finding parking is such a nightmare, especially at concerts like this. I didn’t think 9inety-9ine would be the same, fairly empty parking lots...man, was I wrong. After a minute, I find a parking spot and exit my car. As I enter the venue, I see a table with a giveaway where the winner gets to join them on their tour. Hmmm should I do it? I pause for a minute before saying Why not and decided to give it a shot! I fill out my information. The winner is announced by e-mail tomorrow at noon. I wonder what happens if I win?

[Monday, Venue, 10 seconds till performance. {Name}’s pov. ]

I find my seat and look around and see a good majority of the venue (myself included) holding a lightstick. I notice the lights fade to black and the stage lights up. I hear the beginning of a song as well as the screams of fangirls and guys alike. I see them on stage and smile widely. Seeing them preform is amazing! If I do win, it would be nice, I think. I continued to watch the performance, lights flashing and changing from one song to the next.

Watching concerts like these is fun! If I do meet them, I would definitely tell them that I appreciate their music and dances.

[Venue. Jean’s pov]

Preforming is loads of fun, getting to dance, sing, and making others happy is the best feeling. Ever since our trainee days, our number one goal was to create music, dances, and share it with people all over the world. Our lifelong dream has come true!

I look at the audience, waving their lightsticks and singing along, and screaming with excitement. Looking back at how much we’ve grown, it makes me smile inside. We worked so hard, and to finally preform and feel proud is the best feeling. I can’t help but think about that one day at the studio. 3 years ago on that Wednesday is a day I’ll never forget

[Flashback: Dance studio, Wednesday, 3 years ago. Jean’s pov]

“I wonder how long it will be until we finally become idols” Connie asks out loud as we take a break from our session of dancing, . “It probably won’t take too long! We’ll be on that stage soon, naneun yagsoghanda” Armin says with a reassuring smile. Connie responds with a nod and a smile “Thanks ‘Min. Maybe your prediction will be right” “Considering how hard we’ve worked, it shouldn’t be too long” Levi states before drinking some water. “I agree” I say, with a smile. “If we do become idols, it would be nice” Eren spoke with a small smile.

[End of flashback. Present day, last song before end of concert. Jean’s pov]

Our concert is finally coming to an end, the energy still sky high. We say a few words of thanks to the audience before starting our last song: From home. For the song, Armin sang in Japanese and Korean , and the rest of us just sang in Korean . Levi was the one who first came up with the idea of the song. A song that we hold dear to our heart. After the song ended, we said our thanks and bowed before heading offstage, the roaring of our fans fading as we walked to our respective green rooms.

[Tuesday, the day after the concert, noon. {name}’s pov]

There is something people call post-concert blues. The feeling you get after a concert ends. Sometimes it lasts for days, BUT weeks, or even months. It’s hard to describe. It’s a sense of something being missing, perhaps it’s loneliness. I soon hear a ding and I turn on my phone. A notification from my email.

I look at the email. My heart skips a beat. No way this could be real.

Dear {name},

Congratulations! You are one of the lucky winners who won the lottery! You get to stay with 9inety-9ine for the rest of their tour! How exiting! All your rooms and transportation are booked for you! All you need to bring is money for food, and that’s about it! The date you get to join them is tomorrow at precisely 2:00 pm! Hope to see you then!

Sincerely,

[company name]

I can’t believe it. Going on tour with them will be so fun! I can’t wait! I smile and start preparing for tomorrow. I overhear a passing of a plane outside my open, window the noise burning out the chirping of the birds. A plane. Maybe we get to travel on a plane too? I would imagine we would. How fun that would be…

||Translations (these are rough translations that I got online lol, they may not be 100% accurat):

Aniyo - Yes (informal)

Geogi seo - stay right there

naneun yagsoghanda - I promise

Note: I hope y’all had a blast reading this! Sorry it took forever for this to come out! 😅 I might post again today or on Friday as scheduled! Keep your eyes peeled!

Until then, take care out there ^^

- Lucky🐾||

***Note 2.0: I would also like to say that there is going to be symbolism in this story {including this one and the previous one} so if y’all detectives can guess right by the end, then I’ll be proud ^^ consider this a challenge hehe

**Taglist: @1-800-asuka

An announcement!!

I wasn’t able to release a chapter yesterday because I got sick :( I’ll try to release one today (or tonight) or tomorrow in the morning :) I’m feeling better now and I hope y’all are looking foreword to the 1st chapter of Red lights! Thank you for your patience:)

-Lucky 🐾

Taglist: @1-800-asuka