Irl Yandere - Blog Posts

uwa... i have been perceived....

how did you find me?...

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I found you? hm.. maybe I've seen that emoji somewhere :)

what am i even supposed to do without her??? shes the only thing keeping me alive in this world. i might be dramatic and pathetic over this but omg

god im so jealous, my friend just said shes going to hang out with her bestfriend and that shes staying overnight for 3 days.... why does she even need other friends? i can even change myself for her to find me more interesting or whatever

god im so jealous, my friend just said shes going to hang out with her bestfriend and that shes staying overnight for 3 days.... why does she even need other friends? i can even change myself for her to find me more interesting or whatever

break my legs, put cigarettes to my flesh, bite me until I'm cover in wounds, paint Me black and blue, kick me, hit me, pull my hair, slap me, kill me too if you desire to, As long as it's you I'm fine with it, I love you so much my dear. Abuse me as you please, as long as I have your love and attention I will allow it.

OH GOD SOMEONE WANT ME, SOMEONE PLEASE NEED ME. TELL ME YOU WANT ME TELL ME YOU WANT ME TELL ME YOU WANT ME SAY THAT YOU NEED ME PLEASE JUST SOMEONE SAY THEY NEED ME OH GOD GOOD LORD JUST SAY IT! TELL ME I'M LOVED, TELL ME I AM NEEDED, TELL ME ANYTHING TO SHOW THAT I AM WANTED

Greetings and Merry Christmas to all you wondrous folks! I wish everyone in the Yan community a marvelous holiday and a wonderful new Year with their darlings!

Some folks say being unhealthy obsessed with a person and or idea is bad but I'm quite literally only a lad, ok? I'm only a lad

i wanna be a doll for you, a perfect little thing fit to be your companion. But we both know I am little more than a jester at the end of the day, something playing at class and grace. A fool who was born to be mocked and a clown who wishes to amuse you. I was born a fool and will die a fool but please let me be your fool. Every king needs a jester so please let me be yours

Call me whenever you please, lapdog, errand boy, butler, your dog, your servant, your little prince, your toy, your dearest punching bag. It doesn't matter. As long as you are looking at me and giving me your love and attention I can be whatever you want.

BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME BELOVED SAVE ME

I think if I ever saw my friend kiss someone I’d have to go to an asylum/srs

Oh! You want me? Oh Jeez... I WILL TELL YOU MY ADDRESS AND GIVE YOU ALL OF MY SOCIAL MEDIAS AND PUT UP A CAMERA IN MY OWN HOME FOR YOU!.... I'm a darling, PLEASE I'm begging.

Welcome to my Winter Wonderland

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About this blog and a bit about myself;

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Preferred Name: Tundra

I am 20

They/Them/Snow/Snowself

Non-binary

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☾ Dynamic: Omega (Ω)

☾ Theriotype: Bunny, Crow Avian, Snow Leopard.

☾ Scent: Vanilla, Fresh Snow, Pine, Ginger bread, coffee.

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Diagnosed with: Epilepsy, Autism,

BPD, ADHD, Tic disorder, stutter, lisp,

and DID.

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Do not interact/follow if:

✩ you are a minor.

✩ racist, "blue lives matter", etc DNI

✩ terf, transphobe, "gender-critical" DNI

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✩ incest/pædo/z00/etc-shippers, l0lic0n, nymphettes/coquettes or whatever, etc. DNI

✩ Radqueer DNI

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[My DNI list is simply just for my own comfort bc something triggers me or makes me feel uncomfortable. No hate to anyone <33]

It's very nice to meet you!

Hope you have a wonderful stay in my winter wonderland˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

Oh, goodness. I need a yandere so bad...I want to feel loved for once in my life and to have someone obsess over me like I obsess over them. I want someone to see my terrible obsessive side and still choose to interact with me. "I want someone to love me without me feeling like I am begging for it." Said a post and I feel exactly that. It is really hard to find yan4yan, but if anyone sees this post, then you have no competition and I easily submit to anyone who shows me affection. If you are over the age of 18 and a girl, then please PLEASEEEEE talk to me. I am desperate!

I am definitely unlovable. I am just too insane and weird for anyone to relate to me or like me. I must accept this reality in order to continue living a life of loneliness, but a life without love is no life at all...I have no idea what to do.

Tw: vent, a bit of violence, gender dysphoria, and depression.

I am starting to lose hope. I do not think that anyone will ever love me as much as I love them. Depression makes it really hard to express my feelings. Everyone I care for will eventually find someone else they love more. I know that it will always happen. It is always gonna go wrong. I fear nothing more than failure and my life is just a big compilation of me failing everything. I cannot let go though, which is the scary part. It is almost as if you chop your legs off because they were walking into the school cafeteria on their own. The cafeteria full of eyes that see you (I must never go there). Then your body starts rolling on its own into the place, which sets you up for your ultimate demise. It is moments like this that I crave the nothingness, I crave to no longer exist, and I crave a release from my pain. I hate myself and I hate that I was born to look like a freak. I want to die, but I can't...The only thing left to do is to continue my obsession, it is too late to abandon it now, because she has overtaken my mind. The worst part of all this is that I am never gonna pass as a female because of my stupid body that I want to rip into pieces with surgeries. I am gonna change everything about myself until there is nothing left of me. I am just a big pile of waste, which is infested with trauma, ugliness, gender dysphoria, depression, anxiety, failure, the inability to do anything right, and a universe full of pain to show for everything I have gone through. Idk whether to give up or not...

Not me overthinking about whether or not my obsession hates me. It hurts to think that maybe I did something wrong and messed everything up. I am really stressed out about if this person is gonna even love me in the end. I think about it every moment of the day. I am definitely not good enough, am I? Sometimes my obsession makes me feel so happy, but she also makes me feel weak. I am so worried about the future, oh goodness, I am so worried! I know that if it does not happen, then it was not meant to be, but I want to believe that it is meant to be. She is just so perfect, I am gonna spend the entire rest of my day thinking only of her!

I love her so much. She is the only one who can make me feel anything anymore. I am dead without her. My only wish is for her to pay attention to me.

Obsessions. Quite interesting, are they not? In some ways it can be linked to ideology where you believe in an idealized version of someone. I am gonna talk about how I am feeling, no need to rationalize it. My obsession is my life. I cannot focus on anything else. The obsession emits such a divine feeling, which is pure and free from all possible contortions. Yet, every inch of this obsession is corrupt and depraved, but I fucking live for it. "How can the right thing be so wrong?" As they say, but also: "How can the wrong thing be so right?" I want to be locked in a room with my obsession as I break down in front of her and confess how much I crave her every moment of the day and also confess all the depraved things I have gone through to get more information about her. Insanity can be a light that provides guidance. Insanity is the one thing that I know never goes away. My love for insanity rivals the love I feel for my obsession. I have been referred to as a "maniac" by my doctor because my obsession went too far. I am like a drug addict.

It feels intense when you are obsessed with someone beyond belief, yet they do not know and they act normal around you. It feels like you are hiding a water dam behind your back. At some point I might tell the person about it, but they will likely not feel the same. Like even if they are a yandere too, it is clear that they like someone else.

he's so beautiful i need to consume him i need to tear him apart with my teeth i need to feel his blood dripping from my mouth i want to have him in the most visceral way possible i need to eat him alive

Seeing him makes my head hurt with desire. I don't know why, but I want to bleed on him, tie him to me in way that he can't erase from his mind. I hate that a part of me even wants him to cut me. Him gently caressing the area before, holding my hand with his other hand, whispering sweet and reassuring words whilst quickly wounding me so I could taint him with my blood. After I'd just wanna lay with him, no words would be needed, I'd just wish to admire his skin painted with my blood.

When you had started to kinda forgot about him but then see him again after a long time:

Kinda funny how I'm obsessed with him. Go out of my way to just see him for half a second. Wish I could just look at him for hours. But at the same time I aknowledge that he's kinda ugly.

Why can't anyone love me like I love them. Like just matching a fraction of my obsession would be more than enough.

He was sitting next to her again. I want to destroy her, but at the same time I want to become besties with her to manipulate her to make him hate her, but also get information abt him from her.

They're probs dating, I want to tear my own skin off.

I hate how my ridiculous obsession with him makes me feel such hatred towards a girl that has done nothing to me. My eyes glazed over her and my mind started automatically fantasizing about killing her. Seeing the fear in her eyes. Even when it wont being me closer to him a part of me would see it as a win, I hate that.

Why the fuck is he with her so much. It can't be a coincidence that so many times I've seen him he's with her. Are they dating? I'm 75% sure that girl is one of the girls that talked shit abt him, but things can change. He probs wants her, even if she doesn't want him. It makes me want cry, makes me want to carve up her pretty face so he would ignore her, makes me isolate him so he would only think about me, and it makes me want to cut myself to forget.

Is this too much to ask for???

I wish I knew what he thought of me. What thought come into his head when he glides his gaze over me? I would even want to know if it's bad, it's better than living in the unknown, I could change if possible and I could use the sadness to cut myself.

If only I could read his mind, better yet control it.