I Have Never Been So Close - Blog Posts

so mf close.

i have never been so mf close.

for about a week i had been feeling as though what i was doing for my manifesting was not enough. i had been on tumblr constantly looking for help. for something to click and yet i didn’t find it. i was very demotivated until today. this morning i had woken up and opened my gifts like other have done, i wanted to take a nap and so i did i laid down and was just imagining scenarios to fall asleep. that was until one of the was of my dream life. i imagined that i got my family everything they wanted; and i wanted to make this simple scenario a reality.

i’d been struggling with the void for about a year (i first found out about it through instagram), but i can never get it right. sure i did manifest things without the void but i’d always wanted to feel the relaxation that the state brings. i had tried almost everything i saw, subliminals, guided meditations, reprogramming your subconscious, and yet i didn’t get in nor did i like doing the methods.

but when i laid down i assured myself that i was doing everything right and tried to get into he void my own way. i had the closest attempt ever. my heart was beating fast my body felt nonexistent, my eyelids felt like they would fly open; so i tried to relax to focus more on affirming but i think that may be where i have gone wrong. but before i got the chance to retry i was told to get ready for my christmas party. BUT IT IS OKAYYYYY because now i know what works for me 🥰🥰🥰🥰