Childhood Ptsd - Blog Posts

Not gonna lie… I’m pretty proud of these.

So, meet the sisters. They are triplets with the same mother, but different fathers (God pregnancy is weird, but if the Norse goddess Frey’s can give birth to more than half of the dwarf population every single day then these three can be triplets with different fathers). I got most of my knowledge of mythology from “Overly Sarcastic Productions” Go to YouTube and check them out, show them some love ❤️ they are really cool.

The Angst is strong with these three, and they all need some therapy.

Kami:

Age: 11-ish

PTSD: Claustrophobia, from her mom locking her in the closet so many times

The youngest sister, and the daughter of Zeus. No one is really surprised by Zeus’s offspring anymore sense he can never “Keep it in his pants” the second a pretty mortal catches his eyes. And like all the other times Zeus’s wife, Hera, finds out Zeus had an affair with some other girl, Kami is now on Hera’s hit list. (For real, how is she even still WITH Zeus with the amount of times Zeus has cheated on her?) Even though no one is surprised by how many offsprings Zeus has had, no one would’ve guessed in a million years that Kami is Zeus’s daughter. It’s Darwinism at work, Kami is the total opposite of her dad, she is; shy, quiet, timid, selfless, a little gullible and naïve, her self esteem is almost nonexistent, and is afraid of fighting. She hates it when her sisters argue with each other, she’s worried about ending up on the terms their fathers are on with each other. She has the strongest magic out of her sisters, it she’s afraid to use it after what happened with her mom. Her mom would lock her in the closet, sometimes even overnight after she would have magical outbursts (if you’ve ever seen “Shazam” think of when Billy simply points at Freddy and Lightning bursts from his fingers). At camp, they sleep outside instead of in cabins thanks to her claustrophobia.

Morgan:

Age: 11-ish

Doesn’t have PTSD

The eldest. Daughter of Poseidon. Her mother didn’t punish her so much because she had more control of her magic and dint use it so much. She’s Lesbian but knew her mother wouldn’t have approved or accepted it so she kept it a secret. She tries to help her sisters get over their PTSD, but with how calm she acts, Dabi Gets mad at her easily and they argue often. She’s the kind of person that has your back, but there’s no one to have her back. The only person that doesn’t have Morgan in their lives is Morgan. She has an older half brother and she was thrilled to meet him in Camp, but her brother isn’t as happy to see her because he thanks his dad just left him to rule Atlantis by himself and just went out to impregnate someone and leave him to deal with it. She saved her sisters by dunking sleeping pills in her mom’s morning coffee. Thanks to Morgan‘s ability to control water they could get freshwater on the streets without having to pay for bottles, because Morgan can filter the dirty water. she just wants her older brothers approval and that isn’t very healthy for her.

Dabi:

Age: 11-ish

PTSD: Haphephobia (The fear of being touched)

Gods bless Dabi, she went through the absolute worst of the abuse. The middle child, Daughter of Hades. Fair mom was a bit of a nut job when it came to Catholic religion and worship (which is funny when you think about how Hades is basically the Greek version of Satan) Hades tricked her into thinking that he was some kind of angel or some other kind of Holy Spirit to have Dabi with her. When the sisters were three, their mother took them to church to get the girls baptized. But the priest started to scare Dabi and she accidentally set the priest on fire with a sudden magical outburst. After that, their mother locked Dabi up in the basement, she was convinced that her daughter was possessed by some kind of demon and did every thing she could to make her body “inhabitable” for a demon that was never even there to begin with. Until finally, their mother decided to crucify Dabi… her sisters weren’t going to let that happen. Dabi still has nightmares about being locked up and has a hard time trusting people. She won’t even let her sisters touch her, it took a long while before she got used to Kami clinging to her out of fear and when Morgan touches her to try and calm her down, but she still burns them on reflex from time to time. Has an older half brother who is the camp counselor, but she doesn’t get along with him because he focuses too much on the camp instead of her. The first friend she ever made was the son of Ate, who’s a bit of a floozy. Rescued a Wolf-Dog and named him Harry, Morgan sometimes refers to him as a therapy dog. Is a Dog person like her dad. When Dabi finds out who her father is, she denies it at first, because, not only is her dad the king of the Greek underworld, her mom was also right about her after all these years.

So please feel free to ask questions about these three, I’m am honestly very happy with the way that these girls turned out. Sorry it’s so long I tend to ramble about my characters😅

Also Go and check out the origins of Olympus on YouTube they are where I got this idea from and I just had to post it, so go check out the Minecraft Origins Crew and show them some ❤️ as well

Hope you enjoyed and as always, have a day or night full of magic ☺️💕

Tw: self harm, self loathing

A girl lies on her bedroom floor.

She bleeds through her eyes and cries through her veins.

I watch her helplessly and let her fall apart.

Everyday she fights long lost battles and dies gruesome deaths.

Her life is nothing but a grave full of dead hopes.

I watch her and do nothing.

Perhaps because there isn't much left of her to be saved.

She is covered in bruises I don't recognize her anymore.

I watch her with curiosity.

Her eyes dark and cold like the night itself, she reeks of misery.

A home full of ghosts, none of them remotedly as dead as her soul.

I watch her mercilessly.

After all that's what monsters like her deserve.

I say, and I stop watching her.

No part of her deserves to be loved.

I say, and I step away from the mirror.

Tw: eating disorders and self harm

The monsters in my head. They won't leave.

An empty stomach. A grave where I live.

Scars on my thighs. A strange relief.

A disconsolate existence. A sigh of grief

My shattered childhood. It haunts me still

Whimpers of pain. A broken will.

Venomous family. Full of greed.

Begged you to stop it. It never did.

What is family if not hate disguised as love

Tw: self harm, ed

Alternate universe

In an alternate universe,

I am 14 and alone in my room,

And my hands haven't harmed myself yet.

In an alternate universe,

My mom isn't emotionally dead,

And my dad isn't the monster yet.

In an alternate universe,

I still have her by my side,

I haven't screwed everything yet.

In an alternate universe,

I don't flinch when I look in the mirror,

There are no scars on my thighs yet.

In an alternate universe,

I still eat like a normal person,

I haven't ruined myself yet.

lights camera action by lana del ray gives me emotions that I can only describe as the need to peel off your skin and rot on the floor so that you never existed in the first place and not in a good way. Iblike the song its a good song and she sings it beautifully but I can't ever listen to it and even coming across it on tiktok is enough to send me into an episode. I don't know if I even saw it on tiktok but its in my head now and I was tryna have a good day but its hard when you feel the need to eat your own spine rn.