Follow Your Passion: A Seamless Tumblr Journey
10:22 : apparenly i messed up :(. my post that i scheduled didnt frickin save but wtv lol. yesterday was pretty cool bc my mom came with me to band (being deadnamed wasnt fun but whatever) and i was laughing at her hahahah. i also had my sax lesson yesterday and my teacher basically layed into me real hard :( about how i need to actually apply myself and practice like (as he said) "as long as it takes for you to get it" (3 hours lol). i feel like he actually knocked some sense into me.
2:38 : so to finish my rant from earlier, since dr wits knocked some sense into me, i went home relazed for like an hour and then i practiced my saxophone even more (1 more hour). it was an okay night. i ate some good food and just felt generally content. i have chosen a solo (for solo & ensemble) and i really really like it. im excited to learn it. also i am in chemistry and i hate it. im dying. this teacher doesnt even teach us bruh, but im so smart i figure it all out suuuuupppeerrrr fast :) . i have so much stuff to do but i can get it done, imma use my planner and do everything that i need to do :) .
I wake up at 6am, take my two buses at 7, get to look at the beautiful sunrise with headphones in my ears. I enjoy looking out the window, seeing the busy students and workers striding fast to their destinations. Suddenly, everything seems so lovely. Then i arrive at uni to take my morning classes. Different people are becoming friends.. each individual special in his own way; the way they do their hair, or the lipstick they have on.. even the way they do their hijab.. each one of them seem to be truly unique. I get out at 12 and take my buses again, happy to go have lunch with my mum and tell my brother about my day. Sometimes, the routine is changed slightly by buying a croissant in the morning to take it with my café au lait or reading a book in the bus.
When you're comfortable with who you are and who you're becoming, suddenly everyone seems busy with their own lives. I don't focus on the dark side anymore, i don't focus on the illusion of others mocking me. that version of me simply doesn't exist anymore. I'm now unapologetically my true authentic self.
looks like today is going to be a busy day and I can't sleep thinking about it, oh my god I feel like I just want to sleep all day.