Sie Fragen Wies Mir Geht.

Haunted by you

All the paths I take

Lead back there

As if you'd be a place

Where parts of my

Rotten heart rests

And I try to set

It on fire

Burn it down

To the ground

But the wasted

Parts are everything

Thats left in the end

Glances

I despise

Entering the stage

As I'd be a kind

Of tragical disgrace

Spots too bright

They melt my face

And I feel like

A tragic disgrace

Doesn't matter

which side I light

Cause the shadow

Remains behind

My ribcage is a bombshell

It's compressing the air I breathe

In danger of sudden ignition

By my heart which violently beats

Trying

I'm trying my best

To keep on going

Stay true and remember

To learn and adapt

To Be honest and open

Towards you and myself

And when I'm exhausted

I'm trying to rest

I hear cars rushing

On the wet sounding asphalt

Soothing ocean waves

Dissatisfaction

We learned to live in pain and fear

As we forgot how to love

Used all our blood to write the words:

“This love is not enough”

Sorry...

Sorry for being a burden.

Sorry for being clingy.

Sorry for being such a mess.

Sorry for having no self control.

Sorry for being insensitive.

Sorry for being thougtless.

Sorry for being heartless.

Sorry for being unempathic.

Sorry for overestimating.

Sorry for not grasping cues.

Sorry for being emotional.

Sorry for overthinking.

Sorry for being distant.

Sorry for being manic.

Sorry for being depressed.

Sorry for being arrogant.

Sorry for hating myself.

Sorry for bothering you.

Sorry for dissapointing you.

Sorry for making excuses.

Sorry for being suicidal.

Sorry for telling you about it.

Sorry for staying.

Sorry for opening up.

Sorry for saying all that.

Sorry for apologizing.

...I'm sorry.

That moment back then

When I kid around

And her question

"Why are you like this?"

To this day, still

Makes me drown

Mein Herz ist erfroren

Bitte, bitte wärm es auf

Sitz' allein bei mir zuhaus'

Schaue zu den Sternen rauf

Ja, ich hab trust issues

Aber dir kann ich vertrauen

Irgendwo mit dir zu sein

Das ist alles was ich brauch'

Mein Herz ist so kalt

Und du taust es auf

Lauf' durch die Nacht

Und ich lauf' und ich lauf'

Frag die Sterne und sie sagen

Zu mir dir kann ich vertrauen

Denn wenn ich mit dir bin

Fühlt sich das an wie zuhaus'

Bin auf der Straße bei Nacht

die Autos ziehen vorbei

Vergesse wer ich bin

Und dann fühl' ich mich allein

Hab ein Zerren in der Brust

Als ob es mich zerreißt

Es tut weh, dieser Schmerz,

Aber keiner hört mich schreien

- Ausser dir

Hab' ein Problem damit zu streiten

Fange an zu schweigen

Fress es in mich rein bis

Der Sturm dann vorbei ist

Frier' wieder ein und

Falle tief doch du fängst mich

Bei dir kann ich sein

Bitte lass' mich nicht allein

- Ich hoff' du bleibst

I'll find my own voice

Find myself again

I'll pick up the pieces

Pick up the remains

I'll decide when to leave

Decide to carry on

I'll learn how to speak up

When it's getting tough

I'll stay true to myself

And learn how to love...

                                       ...Myself