Me: [feels Literally Anything]

so real, sometimes i think abt the bizarre workings of the magical system in the hp universe and barely resist the urge to start writing abt chemistry to justify all the nonsensical rules . .

like holy shit just make them kiss and share traumas with e/o they don't need to have an academic debate rn bc someone cast an aguamenti

i need to read more academic articles to make my yaoi more insane

i learned about your dron wip 5 minutes ago and im already hyped it truely is rarepair hell out here and i cant wait to get fed

eeeeeee tysm💖💖 i'm ecstatic it isn't a barren wasteland out here lmao, i'm acc getting responses!!

an update on the fic status, it's ~15k rn and still at the baby stages, i'm gonna start posting after i finish up the current chapter tho!

"Maybe I crave your attention, maybe I just want you to be creepy and weird with me, maybe I want to make you happy and hear you laugh. And maybe, just maybe, there is a part of me that wants to hug you, run my fingers through your hair, read you books so you fall asleep easily, make breakfast and black coffee for you, hold your hand and watch you sleep early in the morning, give you little kisses on tip of your nose because it tickles funny and I'd love to hear you giggle, watch you draw, bring your favourite treats back home, watch you dress up in the morning and put your make up on, and let you sit on my lap while putting on mine, lighting a candle for our TV dinner because it is special when it's with you."

- my diary entry, 11.11.2020

i knew this conceptually, but like you dont really KNOW that public school is designed to set you up to be a good worker bee until you're cracking out a report, after hours, at 7 pm on a monday night and it hits you; oh, i'm doing homework, this is why they made me do homework, and suddenly i'm feeling it in my chest. i cant believe i was raised by the state to be an automaton, and worse, i am one of the lucky robots who isn't doing manual labor.

at the risk of sounding like i think ron's only likeable bc he's "special" in some way (untrue): this dude doesnt understand ron's sokka-from-atla and lance-from-vld coded 😨 (team's strategist and heart)

also

Why do people who dont like Ron and Ginny automatically get accused of classicism and anti poor bigotry? I am not saying there are no people who hate Weasleys for being poor, the fandom is huge and all stripes of folks can be found here even the most despicable.

Most people I know who don't like Ron and Gin Gin also have Weasleys they do like such as : Fred, George, Percy, Bill, Arthur and Molly. (Yeah I don't get Molly bashing. She gave Harry his 1st motherly hug, loves her family and defeated Bellatrix. What's not to love? )

I personally don't like Ron, not coz he's poor and red head and all that shite. But coz he's very unremarkable, insecure, not too bright and not charismatic.

He's a good egg but have a distinct sidekick energy and not main character vibe like Harry, Hermione, Tom, Severus, Albus, Sirius, James, does.

And he's not brilliant like Percy, enterprising like the twins or cool like Bill.

He's like the characters Jonah Hill played once upon a time: Good hearted but ordinary, goofy guys.

These characters are good in comic scenes or slice of life dramas but not as the Main Male character or love interest in epic, larger than life romantic fics.

He's good. But he's not love interest material for most straight/bi women and gay/bi men.

I am sure in real life many of us would be happy to date a guy like Ron. But when it comes to reading fics, he's just not that guy you feel interested in.

He's that good, stable, nice guy your parents hope you end up with and they are right too.

But not the type of guy you fantasize about or want to read as MC or love interest.

He's too much of an every man, he reminds many of us too much of ordinary blokes we know to read him as MC or love interest.

since i got two of these gay ass fucking reels in a row and got one-shotted by this fuckin one right before i was abt to go to bed i think this would be a good time to share that the central conflict or wtvr of inspiral is that the two of them are trying to keep draco from dying.

yes, draco tries to have the "you need to learn how to act when i'm gone" conversation, several times in fact. good freaking night.

(bonus)

While hashing out my Late-Borgin Tom design and demeanor I was thinking about horcrux timelines and when he'd made the locket

"Hm. The locket is the one Ron had homoerotic tension with right"

LOCK IN

I have no AU in mind i just like when loving couples are not matching each other's energy at all and think tom being patronizing towards his much younger agonizingly normal boyfriend who he is emotionally dependent on is really, really funny.

the dron interactions in my fic are boutta be wild bc they're gonna be in such a ginormous grey area where they know they're both somewhat gay + acknowledge they're acting Pretty gay rn with each other + do nothing about it

"no time to hash this out we have a mission to accomplish" type shit bc i suck :) ---

ron, annoyed, nudging a clingy draco away but not far enough to acc move him: stop it you're being so gay rn

draco, offended: i'm the one being gay?? let go of my hand!

that childhood abuse survivor feel when you see a healthy family and part of you is happy that not everyone had to suffer like you did but the rest of you is just in this deep agony looking at what you never got to have