Yesterday, As I Was Going To My Driving Lesson, I Realized That The Random Pair Of Sweats I Picked Up

back in middle school, my friend stopped standing for the pledge. she was called outside by the teacher and she told me that she was told off by her for it (unsurprisingly because of the person the teacher was)

soon enough, most of us stopped standing for it after realizing it was an option

when i entered high school (in 2021 due to covid), no one stood for the pledge.

my school was majority hispanic, black, and asian with like 4 white people.

we knew this country didnt care about us. we werent going to pledge for a country that hated us

dear usamerican high schoolers looking for a way to resist fascism: sit through the pledge of allegiance.

no getting up. no looking at the flag.

everyone will be looking at you. you'll be sweating like a fucking hippopotamus. your teacher will sternly tell you to get up. you'll feel stupid and that maybe its not worth it because you're just a kid in a classroom. but I'm here to remind you that there are no real life consequences to detention. there are however real life consequences to resisting a thoughtless performance of nationalism.

I SAID THAT THEY WERE GOING TO GO AFTER AO3 TOO, AND SOME OF Y'ALL FUCKERS OVER ON REDDIT SAID I WAS OVERREACTING AND FEAR-MONGERING. FUCK YOU, I WAS RIGHT. AND FUCK YOU DUMBASS WHITE WOMEN THAT VOTED TRUMP AND SAID "Well I thought we liked morally ambiguous men so..." GO FUCK YOURSELVES.

And I KNOW that seems childish to be focusing on this but I feel SO FUCKING VINDICATED because I was talking about this months prior about how they WANT to ban sexually explicit material because they WANT TO SILENCE, CRIMINALIZE AND MAKE OUT MARGINALIZED GROUPS TO BE SEXUAL DEVIANTS. AND I WAS TOLD THAT I WAS FEAR-MONGERING.

I HATE, HATE HATE, how I was gaslit into believing that bullshit >:(

And guess what, you can't download your fav ao3 queer/smut fics bc these things either once they go through with this, because that's akin to possessing CSEM. Yes, you may or may not be legally required to delete that story (fanfic or not) you've invested sweat, tears and sleepless nights into.

Consuming, creating or owning sexually explicit, EDUCATIONAL OR NOT, COULD PUT YOU ON THE SEX OFFENDER REGISTRY.

I'M NOT AMERICAN, I'M JUST MAD AND TERRIFIED BECAUSE HISTORY IS CLEARLY REPEATING ITSELF.

HOLY SHIT I JUSTFOUND OUT ME AND PRINCESS PEACH SHARE THE SAME BIRTHDAY

SEPT 13TH 💞💞

Hi everyone! I'm Mouse!

Some of you may recognize me from the trans deer centaur comic I made on here a few years ago. (As seen below)

While most of you still probably don't know me at all- and that's okay!

I'm hoping to bring a lot of art and good vibes to the community here. So, having said that- welcome to my cottage! Sit down, stay awhile, grab a blanket and a cozy drink while I tell you a story and show you my art ^^

opened up my main tumblr and saw 40 notifications

hit tumblr page

im so happy being on tumblr rather than twitter since its easier for me to see/interact with other trans men and transmascs

on twitter the only stuff i ever see about transmascs are people denying our existence and experiences and, very rarely, artwork

dude i want to take out my hair and wear my fro i wanna look more masc 💔💔

'oh but if you remove the words trans and cis...!'

Its a different sentence.

Observe:

Trans men experience greater rates of sexual violence than cis women - True ✅

Men experience greater rates of sexual violence than women- False ❌

See how its NOT the same sentence if you remove the words trans and cis?

the amount of hate i’ve experienced as a tman/tmasc is so shocking especially because a lot came from online queers and even other trans folk.

it disheartened me a lot seeing how trans men are treated online, ESPECIALLY by trans people and queers. we’re often forgotten, fetishized, have femininity forced on us, and are treated like villains for wanting to be / being men. even IN queer communities too!!

ive seen a post here on tumblr where someone was trying to vent in a trans discord server about how trans men are treated and usually ignored and erased and other trans people chimed in, telling him that its his fault because “of course he would be. no one wants to be around a masculine man”.

a trans woman (who used to act on the hate/undermined the hate and discrimination tmen/tmascs go through) once told me on reddit that it often comes from them being uncomfortable with masculinity as a whole so some of them would force it on us then blame us whenever we got upset over the way we’re treated.

i was once even told by a trans medicalist that i wasnt trans because i never experienced dysphoria before and i almost believed them since i didnt know much about trans stuff at the time!! if it werent for the people rightfully calling them out on it and telling me that i could instead have gender euphoria (which i do!!) and if it werent for them i wouldnt have realized that i was trans.

im lucky enough that i dont get much dysphoria or dysmorphia dressing fem still and actually love dressing that way! its just annoying how much its expected of us since we “were women at some point”. we’re fetishized in stereotypically feminine ways (ie: ftm porn often has us bottoming or doing more “fem” roles)

but then again, all this hate towards tmen/tmascs came from twitter and a subreddit thats well known for hating non binary tmen so LMAO dont know what i expected

Can we take a moment to think about the younger trans men and mascs on tumblr right now?

I was a teenager when ace and transmed discourses were at their peaks, and I can’t exaggerate how badly it affected me then.

Now trans men are the latest target, and I’m terrified for trans kids.

It’s easy to say “intracommunity discourse is an online problem! Go talk to queer people irl!”, but people forget that so many kids and teenagers do not have safe or reliable access to IRL LGBT+ communities and support groups. For many, online spaces are the only option.

We need to make sure the younger members of our community are being heard, and block out the hateful voices with messages of support and encouragement. Things are bad enough for trans people right now, and it's easy to forget that trans minors are often the ones suffering the most.

To any younger trans men or transmasculine people reading this:

The hate you are experiencing isn’t normal, it hasn’t always been like this, and it won’t always be this way. It is bleeding out from a small, miserable group of self-absorbed jerks.

Don’t feel obligated to call them out, don’t feel like you have to interact with these people. Please don’t doomscroll through discourse tags; it will make you feel like everyone is out to get you.

If you want to speak up for your community, that’s fine, but please take a break if you feel like your mental health is worsening. Block anybody who so much as breathes rudely in your direction.

You’re just as trans as the rest of us. You are welcome here.

Oh, and if you want to seek out external resources and groups, PFLAG helped me a lot when I was younger. It is an American-based organization, however, so if anyone has recommendations for those living outside of the US, please let me know in the reblogs!

i find this really funny because before i finally transitioned (like a month before) i was telling my then boyfriend about how i wanted to have a dick and asked him if he ever wanted to have a vagina and he went “???? no???” and thats when i found out that wanting the opposite sex organ is NOT a normal thought most people have :/

all of my bsfs when i had told them about my want also agreed with me and ironically half of them are trans (one is a trans man and one is genderfluid) LMAO

Just trans things.