If You’re Cis And Dont Know What You Can Be Doing Right Now, Or Even Trans But Not Sure What You Can

oops forgot to update

im blonde now yall!!

+face reveal

my room lighting makes it look golden i PROMISE ITS LIGHTER IT DOES NEED TO BE LIFTED AGAIN THO LOL

waiting for the (late) bus to go to my driving lesson

Im not sure if i should transition or not. What helped you figure out what to do? Its honestly upsetting how back and forth my mind goes

I knew if I didn't at least try hrt, I would spend the rest of my life wondering and that's my biggest fear.

Also, people who don't need to transition don't usually spend so much time thinking about it. Just a thought.

my issue with my anxiety is that the way i typically deal with it at home, i cannot do the same thing at work / in public.

its the reason why i want to start anxiety meds but my mom said that i should try looking at other coping mechanisms first before jumping into something that changes my brain chemistry (shes a nurse and shes for finding other ways to deal with issues before taking something that changes your brain chemistry. which i understand and agree with!!)

im just tired of the anxiety tbh i just wanna live a normal life without the constantly shaking, not being able to breathe properly, fear, etc.

yall im in my online class and MY LAPTOP CRASHED 💀💀💀

WTF 😭😭😭

02/12/25 :

went to jersey to get my hair done since im going to jamaica soon !! :)

knotless 613!!

anyone else hate getting their hair done ? its so overwhelming i hate it. i hate the amount of time it takes, i hate being touched, i hate the gel touching any part of my body (especially my face), i hate when my clothes (especially my sweater) gets dirty with anything as i feel like its an extension of my body, i hate my hair being pulled, i hate how loud it is, i hate the smells, i hate how much work it is to deal with my hair in general, etc etc

my baby hairs are very sensitive so i cannot get them braided in at all or they’ll literally fall out too :( and i know whenever they get braided in because it hurts like hell

then i also hate explaining this to braiders whenever i go because they never understand it at first so i have to explain it 2-5 more times which causes my anxiety riddled ass to get quieter and more scared

i do plan on getting locs tho so!! only got the knotless because my hair was a mess and i couldnt keep it out

IM SO JEALOUS OF GUYS ON HRT I WANNA BE ON HRT SO BAD FUCK WHY DID I HAVE TO PROMISE MY MOM I WOULDNT START UNTIL I STARTED THERAPY THERAPISTS ARE SO FUCKING EXPENSIVE IM HAVING SO MUCH GENDER ENVY GOD I WANNA LOOK MORE MASCULINE SO BADLY OH MY GOD

BEING TOLD YOURE A PLEASURE TO HAVE IN CLASS ISNT A GOOD THING????

therapists saying you're surprisingly self aware is like being called a pleasure to have in class for adults

It genuinely bothers me how almost nobody wants to talk about or acknowledge how disturbingly normalized it is to mock, devalue, and appearance-shame nonbinary folks online.

I hate being told it’s wrong for me to identify under the trans umbrella because I “don’t belong there”. I hate being misgendered and accused of “faking” and “attention-whoring” because I’m not androgynous and don’t feel dysphoric about my breasts. I hate being called a “theyfab” and having that term used to discredit me. I hate being told to censor my self-expression so I “don’t look like a stereotype”. I hate my preferred pronouns never being used because it/its is too “weird”. I hate being laughed at the very second I bring up neopronouns and xenogenders. I hate being subject to jokes about my chosen name. I hate having every single aspect of my identity and expression laughed at and mocked constantly because y’all hold such a fucked-up stereotype of nonbinary people as these 2016-esque SJW keyboard warrior caricatures and I hate watching people online giggling away at “Arson (they/star/bun) in the Discord groupchat” memes because cringe culture never died to them, they just chose a more “acceptable” target to project it onto.

"Everyone, look! It's the transmasc/trans man who is whining and bitching about how his/their bodily autonomy rights are being taken away and how he/they is still a target for malpractice in the medical field and how he/they are still a target for misogyny and transphobia in the cis ran world! Everyone point and laugh!" 🤡

This is genuinely have some of you mfs sound. Stfu. Ignorance is not bliss, it actually harms people in the long run.

#You are perpetuating the same misogyny we've experienced the majority of our lives it's just in a different font now.