Society Abandoned Me. People Don't Even Know I Exist. People Literally Ignore Me When I Talk To Them.

Something that's severely undertalked about it the loneliness and lack of real friends that come with being disabled, both mentally and physically. I especially don't see physically mentioned a lot.

But how tf am I supposed to have close friends when I'm constantly sleep deprived? If my general physical strength and endurance are severely limited?

I'd take this argument more seriously if you weren't the same people who acted like pap smear ad campaigns that said "people with cervixes" instead of women was the pinnacle of evil

not to be dramatic but the phrase "putting a bun in the oven" is disgusting. Not only does is objectify and reduce women, but also why are people so afraid of using the real word? Like there's grown adults who say "sex" as by spelling it out while whispering. These people can vote, drive, work a job. It's genuinely weak and disgusting.

Like just..... Sex, pregnant, vagina, uterus. Oh well gee would you look at that, I didn't get raptures out of existence. And neither will you. Just say pregnant instead of reducing women to their wombs and treated said womb as just another object or commodity to be used.

Even ignoring my dysphoria, mental illness, and the general state of the world and society, you know what really makes me want to end it all?

My memory loss due to depression. One of the main functions of our brain and it just doesn't work. Some of my core memories are gone or severely altered. My short term memory is absolute shit. And this is all permanent.

I'm about to turn 20, only 20, and I already have a massive setback compared to my peers. All due to being born into incredibly shitty circumstances that I never stood a chance against. *that* is what makes me really want to end it all. To physically feel my mind, and to extend, body deteriorating. Being suicidal, and by extension, if I actually were to do it.. it is absolutely not a choice. I don't want to die, especially not this young. I'm supposed to have an entire life ahead of me.

Except, I kinda don't. And either way I don't want it with this body and mind.

I've concluded nobody gives a shit about trans rights. Not even other trans people. And especially American trans people. Atp I hope the election takes away your hrt, shouldn't have been a selfish and inconsiderate prick to trans people outside of the US. Maybe this is karma. Good luck out there, but I won't care if you loose access to your tiddy skittles.

quote of my life

im so convinced i was some kind of really bad person in my past life and my current life is my punishment for what ive done

Sorry not sorry but sometimes I really am done having to put up with mentally ill folks. Like the fuck do you mean you can make fun of my sexual assault and abuse I've faced and then go "whoopsie daisy, it's just my BPD making me do that, teehee" and then when I call them out, I'm the ableist one??? The fuck??

I don't know how to take amabs seriously when they describe how oppressed they think they were for their sex as children and it's literally just that they weren't allowed to wear frilly clothes. Like I'm sorry but no, I don't care about the time you cried because your parents made you get a haircut you didn't like. I was taught by the world's most common religion as a child that afab people are the root of all human evil, we exist to be slaves for amab people, and our only redemption is suffering.

You are well within your right to be angry about the help you didn't get and should have gotten.

You are well within your right to be angry about having your needs neglected.

You are well within your right to be angry.

"there were no signs" as if they didn't solely buy you dresses, pink shirts, and girl toys even if you asked for something else

Being forcefully raised as a woman is not any less traumatic and emotionally repressive as being forcefully raised as a man. Femininity is not inherently pure and safe. Coercing someone to perform femininity is not any less toxic than coerced masculinity. Being dysphoric around femininity or having trauma from women doesn’t make you a misogynist.

“transandrophobia isn’t real” literally just this morning i walked downstairs to find on the tv a news story about “young mentally ill girls mutiliating themselves with double mastectomies” but yeah sure everyone loves and respects trans men