I Want The Kind Of Love That Shows Itself In Small Daily Moments. The One That Makes You Offer Your Arm

new obsession: belly button piercings on boys

i either need a man that whimpers or a woman that'll choke me out. maybe both, i dunno.

smallish things i do to keep my life whimsical:

i carry a small plushie of anubis (the egyptian god of death, he looks like a jackal) in my bag to protect me. my friends and i give him head pats and i let him sit on my laptop while i'm working. i also carry a green mushroom shaped crystal and say it's in case he gets hungry.

i talk to my guinea pigs like people. i read to them, tell them they're in charge when i leave, and ask them how their day was when i get back. i read somewhere that they can tell when you're speaking to them so i hope this makes them happy.

there's a couple ladybugs living in my bedroom and i always make sure to greet them and make a wish when i see them. i also name every bumblebee that i encounter pamela and greet it with that name. i don't know why but i've always done this and can't be stopped.

i own a mini terrarium named aphrodite, a tiny succulent named philly cheese steak, and a big boy succulent named priscilla.

i own a ton of mini ducks and leave them places for people to find.

i have a chalkboard wall to doodle on and write my thoughts.

i dye my hair bright colors and wear jewelry that makes me jingle when i walk and wear glittery perfume and dress a little over the top so i can feel like a goth fairy. occasionally little kids compliment me and it's so sweet.

i occasionally read by candlelight.

i listen to music that makes me feel like i have my own personal soundtrack. for example, britney spears and 3oh!3 to get ready in the morning like i'm in a 2000s teen movie. or if i'm drawing something angsty i'll go for she wants revenge or nine inch nails. it's not very consistent but it makes me happy.

i'm learning italian because i love complimenting people in that language, it sounds so beautiful.

i say thank you to the universe whenever the weather matches my mood or i eat really good food or take a relaxing shower, really anything like that.

Sorry I’m just crashing out cause what do you mean I’m not a teenage boy in the 2000’s who rides skateboards and is in a band with my best friends?

”match my freak” match my melancholy. be nostalgic about a past you weren’t even that happy in. find something to be haunted about throughout every second of your day

book quotes that i will never recover from

"he is half of my soul, as the poets say. " - song of achilles

"write me a letter telling me how to live the rest of my life without you." - how to make friends with the dark

"they were my birthday presents." - shatter me

"she had realized that she had forgotten the precise blue of his eyes and the depth of his laugh." - clockwork princess

"my name is sam cortland... and i will not be afraid." - assassin's blade

"you chose me four years ago. would you choose me still?" - these violent delights

"we were all supposed to make it." - crooked kingdom

"i remember everything." - the invisible life of addie larue

"come home and shout at me. come home and fight with me. come home and break my heart, if you must. just come home." - cruel prince

"i wasted all those yesterdays and am completely out of tomorrows." - they both die at the end

"you hated the idea of me." - the final gambit

"bob says hello." - house of hades

"abuse can feel like love. starving people will eat anything." - nightfall

"i missed you only with an ocean between us. but if death was separating us... i would find you." - queen of shadows

"i loved him. i love him. as best i could." - we were liars

"i'm the villain, even in my own story. but you were supposed to play a different role." - finale

"i will find you again in the next world—the next life. and we will have that time. i promise." - a court of wings and ruin

"i spent half of my time loving her and the other half hiding how much i loved her." - the seven husbands of evelyn hugo

cutely watching psychosexual movies and relating to the protagonists an unhealthy amount

• Goth flowers.

when you grew up as a lonely uncool girl it will never stop haunting you by the way. you will meet a cool person at a bar or the train station or at a friend's party and you can wear your most stylish outfit and striking eye makeup and you will swear that they can see through all of the facade and see the lonely terribly insecure teenage girl you used to be who desperately wanted to connect and you will swear that they know that there is like an insurmountable gap between you. this will happen forever