when you grew up as a lonely uncool girl it will never stop haunting you by the way. you will meet a cool person at a bar or the train station or at a friend's party and you can wear your most stylish outfit and striking eye makeup and you will swear that they can see through all of the facade and see the lonely terribly insecure teenage girl you used to be who desperately wanted to connect and you will swear that they know that there is like an insurmountable gap between you. this will happen forever
“Do you believe in destiny? That even the powers of time can be altered for a single purpose? That the luckiest man who walks on this earth is the one who finds… true love?”
― Bram Stoker, Dracula.
I'm very happy with my new copy of Dracula, it's very stunning. 🖤
fuck this, i should've been born a nepo baby.
quotes from my favorite books:
"You are whoever they want you to be. You are more than enough, because you are not real. You are perfect, because you don't exist...They look at you and see whatever they want. Because they don't see you at all." -The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue by VE Schwab
"I love you- I do- but I am afraid of making that love too important. Because you're always going to leave me, A. We can't deny it. You're always going to leave." - Every Day by David Levithan
"In French, there’s a phrase for the random urge to jump from high places, the irrational desire to swerve into traffic despite imminent destruction: l'appel du vide, the call of the void. Those sudden feral impulses tend to be shoved away immediately, but humans still experience them. What if you jumped? What if you touched the fire? What if?...When I looked at him, staring at me, the void called." - Her Soul to Take by Harley Laroux
"The day you stole from me was the best day of my life...Because then you became my life, and I don’t want it back. I won’t fucking take it." - Does it Hurt? by HD Carlton
"She made her choice. And now she is bound to a steel bed with a needle in her arm and a smile on her face. She is happy. But that doesn’t mean it was the right choice. It also doesn’t mean it was the wrong one...What would you abandon for happiness?" - The Bell Chime by Mona Kabbani
i wasn’t made for hookup culture. i was made for the type of devotion that makes my heart ache because i can’t believe it’s real. i was made for soul-crushing, mind-bending, time-crossing eternity. i was made for you.
i feel every single emotion so deeply and i'm so passionate about everything all the time and i think that's what gets me hurt. but then straight men will have the audacity to be nonchalant about every single important thing in their lives and it's so frustrating. i hate being on the receiving end but also why can't that be me?
"I love you. Even when we are a whisper of existence among the stars."
Feyre and Rhysand's Secret Mating Ceremony commissioned by me with the amazingly talented Artcraawl (link to art post here).
song lyrics i can't stop thinking about
the combination of the smell of books and the sound of rain…absolute perfection.
she/her | bisexual aphrodite devotee | horror fan | this is my aesthetic side blog
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