Look How Far You’ve Come

Riko spent his free time obsessing over Kevin

Nora confirmed he watched the first time Kevin had sex(he chose the girl) and the first time he had sex with Thea (absolutely not weird at all)

The other way he spent his free time was torturing Jean and also obsessing with him, to the point he noticed Jean liked man just bc of the way he looked at Kevin (I mean, why are you looking so much at the both of them???)

When Neil was in Evermore, part of the torture included cuffing him shirtless to Kevin's old bed (dude, wtf????)

Riko got mad with the idea of having a queer on his Perfect Court, but somebody should have told this kid the call was coming from inside the house all along

“I will not have queers on my court”

The court in question:

Andrew - gay

Neil - has a gay boyfriend

Jean - bisexual disaster

Jeremy - very gay

Kevin - suppressed sexuality to the point of dissociation

Riko - insane internalized homophobia

my favourite scene of tsc is when cat saves jean from fans by asking him in french if he wants to fuck and jean is so shocked he just stops functioning and forgets to be an asshole long enough for them to drag him away. 10/10 problem solving from catalina alvarez

Ex raven Neil would be a menace for the jerejean relationship. Jeremy thinks he's scary now? Give Neil years of attachment to Jean as his one and only lifeline and you'll learn what terror really means. He doesn't even like Jean like that (definitely obsessed with that one foxes goalkeeper) but he WILL threaten anyone who even tries. He thinks it's funny. Jean is so used to it he just sighs and moves on. Jeremy ends up playing matchmaker to andreil JUST to get Neil out of his life because God is it scary to wake up and see blue eyes just staring at you. Mind you Neil is already on the foxes lineup. How in god's green earth he has enough time to show for dinner once a week Jeremy will never understand. He locks eyes with Andrew and they're both overcome by a neuro telepathical bond of suffering for whatever the hell that is. Last year it was as bad (for Andrew, at least) because Jean was still in the nest and Neil couldn't just come and go there, but now he can and does.

Jeremy is brave and all but having the known son of a Mafia boss in his face telling him very clearly that jean is first and foremost his best friend? Yeah no I would run for the hills Jeremy you stubborn fool that's a RED flag.

Bonus points if both Jean and Neil think this is Neil behaving. Jean is actually pleasantly surprised by how calm Neil is being.

"Every time he blinked, he saw Neil broken and still on the floor" — That part is insane because Neil is never still. He is always running his mouth, always ready to bolt. Even after his father caught him, he fought back and still had something to say to the FBI. But now, he is curled up on the floor, an agonized, unmoving ball

(Andrew's eidetic memory is going to have a field day with this)

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!! jolinda renaissance !!

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The thing is that Kevin has no one to lean and confide into

Thea could barely believe that Riko broke Kevin's hand. She gets mad at him for not being open with her and then proceeds to discredit and not believe in him (how to be an awfull person 101). Kevin could never trust her enough to really talk about the level of abuse he faced, she could barely handle the surface of it

Even though he has his dad, I dont think Kevin feels confortable to really share those things with him, simply bc Wymack is also too emotionally involved in the situation and probably blames himself for not being there to protect Kevin (which is not his fault).

He cant connect or trust Bee and considers her to be Andrew's

Andrew and Neil are in a world of their own

This leaves him with no one and a very serious alcohol related problem

Not to mention Kevin was the one who spent the most time In the Nest. Jean arrived when he was 14, Kevin has been in that hell hole since his mom died. He probably watched Riko get more and more cruel and mean everyday, without being able to do nothing about it. Not to mention how hard it must have been to deal with the change in the way he was treated after his mom died. Being slowly turned into a thing, into property, by the kid you considered your brother and the man you considered your uncle. When did things got so bad?

How it must have been the first day Riko tortured him? Does he remembers it? And how it happened? Did Riko slowly started to realize, now that Kevin was alone in the world, he could do whatever he wanted to him? Did Kevin try do defend himself only to learn that Tetsuji would ignore Riko's behavior, but wouldnt ignore it if Kevin fought back? In the back of his mind, does Kevin remembers the days in which things weren't like this? Like a faded memory of him and Riko playing around and laughing while Tetsuji and Kaylight talked? Did he grab onto this memory at the begging, hoping the kid he considered his brother was still in there somehow, somewhere, only to learn slowly that whatever path Riko chose had no coming back from?

Like, just imagine being a kid, grieving your mother and all of a sudden Uncle Tetsuji becomes Master and your best friend becomes self proclaimed n° 1

And then abuse becomes almost a second language, all your days feel like a fever dream , training like hell, being hurten like hell, all alone in the world, stuck in the Nest and trying to tell yourself this is what your mother would have wanted, even though the fading memories of her touch feels so different from the heavy hands and sticks you are now used to. How could someone who cradled you so gentily want this for you? But...did she ever cradled him? Or was that distant memory just a dream? It certainly felt like a dream sometimes.

Kevin really desearves to heal properly 🥺🥺🥺

no Listen kevin is doing the least healing out of everyone andrew goes to therapy he trusts people in his life he confides in neil and neil coped by running and lying and now he’s Staying he’s trying to be honest and to confide in others and letting himself love even jean is going to therapy for his water phobia and is working to trust people and is getting to the point where he can admit what happened to him was awful and he didn’t deserve it but kevin?? kevin doesn’t talk about his feelings Ever the most vulnerable we see him is when he has panic attacks about riko and what does he do? talk to the people around him? NO he chugs vodka and shoves it all down that’s all he does repress repress repress I doubt he’s even vulnerable in therapy yes bee knows the facts of the situation but when I first got into therapy I would give my life history so rehearsed and robotic and detached he can’t acknowledge how the horrible things he went through Affected him part of him still thinks the abuse made sense!!! because it was punishment for not being perfect!!! and he still believes he has to be perfect above all else!!!!

While not being able to find a decent match for himself

Like, c'mmon Kevin, Thea???????

listen

kevin day can be the queen of the court or whatever

he can be one of the best players in the game

but his TRUE talent is unintentionally matchmaking his queer friends

And thats why he is my fave, dude is a literal menace

Also, Aaron absolutely not reacting to Neil throwing sh*t at him is so funny. Unbothered king

my favorite scene in all of literature is when Neil Josten wakes up in Columbia after being drugged, hurls an alarm clock at Aaron, dumps his water on the floor and throws the cup at Aaron, stuff his clothes down the toilet and squeezes out through the window, has the foresight to call Matt from a pay phone to protect his shit, hitch hikes back to campus, eyes back to brown?? shows up on Wymack’s door like 😜 and reveals he could speak German the whole time?? CHARACTER OF ALL TIME, that is a protagonist who knows how MOVE THE MFING PLOT ALONG

“A cool evening breeze. Rainbows. Open roads. Friends.”

Eu me sinto uma palhaça

Lendo "A Prisão do Rei" (da saga de Rainha Vermelha) eu jurei que odiava profundamente o Maven e que nunca sentiria pena dele

Agora estou lendo "Tempestade de Guerra" e deu vontade de dar uma abraço no Maven kkkakka O menino realmente era um monstro, mas a consciência dele disso e o fato de que odeia o que se tornou me pegaram desprevenida (não deveria, estava claro desde a Prisão do Rei, mas eu fiquei tão brava lendo q nem notei)

Em fim, no final de tudo a culpa sempre volta para a maldita da Elara

Essa sim eu quero que queime no inferno