Tomorrow I Will Start Taking Pictures Of My Foods That I Eat And Post Them To My Account. Even If I Drink

My big jar of zero calorie sweetness

16oz water

Morning tea with a little cream

Grocery shopping today-

Zero sugar torani flavor syrup carmel and vanilla

Zero sugar coffee creamer pumpkin spice

More tea flavors

Canned pumpkin

Cinnamon

Recently I have fasted for a full 24 hrs - after that I gave in and rapidly ate some pizza (again) so I had a horrible stumach ache, gas and bloating. I feel terrible as I lack will power and self control. So today will be different. I'm gonna be good and fast untill supper time (let's see how long my will power will last)

Oh and the scale is down 4 more lbs so I'm doing good losing weight but I fear it's not fast enough. Oh well I'll just have to be patient and take the best of what I can get.

Fuck today is gonna be rough. I'm already feeling shaky and nausea due to the fatty sugary foods I ate. I'm also starting to realize that I don't deserve kindness as fat whore. I should be grateful for whatever kindness someone does to me and having sex is a luxury for me. It's a miracle anybody really wants me.... but I know I can redeem myself through fasting and food restriction.

700 calories is my new safe number now. I dont feel safe eating above 700. I know it's not sustainable but I will give everything I got to meet that number. I don't want to be fat anymore it's making me a target for abuse and my weight has kept me trapped in a bad relationship.

Every lb I lose will dig me out of this cage my ex has put me in.

Low calorie food list

**Food items should be weighed for accuracy

Tea- 0 calories

Water- 0 calories

Coffee medium roast/flavored 0 calories for flavored check the bag to make sure.

Arugula 5 calories per cup

Lettuce- 5 calories per cup

Egg whites- 18 calories per egg yolk has to be removed

Alfalfa Sprouts- 8 calories per cup

Napa Cabbage 13 calories per cup

Cucumber 16 calories per cup

Celery- 14 calories per cup

Radishes - 19 calories per cup sliced

Bok Choy- 20 calories per cup

cabbage- 22 calories per cup

Mushrooms- 22 calories per cup

Eggplant 35 calories sliced

Swiss Chard 35 calories per cup sliced Asparagus 40 calories per cup

Spinach 41 calories per cup

Summer Squash 34 calories per cup

Diet soda - 0 calories

zero suger coffee creamer 15 to 25 calories always check the package-

splenda - 0 calories