✨ My BSD Hot Takes/unpopular Opinions ✨:

*Atsushi drinking for the first time with the ADA*

Dazai: Atsushi-kun now that you have drunk, say goodbye to your childhood, you are an adult now!!!

Atsushi, smiling obliviously: I never had a childhood.

Dazai:

ADA:

Dazai: me neither

Yosano: Have any of us had a normal childhood?

Ranpo: I had a dad when I was 14, does that count?

Kunikida: how many of you have gone to a proper school?

*no one answers*

Dazai: but most of us have killed people!

Kunikida: is that a good thing?

I will fall in love with someone ONLY if they say

"I look at you and suddenly the sonnets make sense"

(If we were villians)

Atsushi really said "I can fix him" AND HE DID

sskk makes me ugly cry (both romantic and platonic)

Every time I hear "Do we need more?" I spontaneously combust

Atsushi's diary:

"Dazai-san was telling me I can grow shrimp out of shrimp's tail by planting them. What kind of FOOL he thinks I am, what kind of idiot will believe that at this age? Kunikida-san told me I did nice work today, it made me feel so good that I almost cried. I think I have abandonment issues. Last night, I went to Junichiro-kun's house to return him a bag he lent me, and I heard some weird noises from his house. Note to self- do not go to Tanizaki household alone. Kyouka-chan gets cold really easily, I want to buy her a big fluffy blanket but my savings are running low. Kenji-kun told me he'll give me farm fresh vegetables every two days, that'll save some money, but I do not want to bother him with my problems. Something weird happened today, Yosano-san pulled me aside during lunch, she told me that she is worried about my health. She's always worried about people's health, she is so kind. "You should rely on people more, Atsushi. We all are here for you. It is not good for your well being if you worry about every single thing all by yourself". Yosano-san is a doctor, she knows what she is talking about. But she doesn't know me. Truly. I know myself. I have always been a burden on people. I want to take care of myself now, and of Kyouka-chan. There are so many nice people in the world, I can never be compared to them, I just do whatever I can.

Tomorrow I am going on a mission with Ranpo-san. This is the only time I am not scared. Ranpo-san is childish but he is so reliable"

(ps: this doesn't follow any timeline, only for fanfiction-ey funsies)

⚠️ SPOILERS CHAPTER 113 ⚠️

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WTF DID I JUST READ? WHAT WAS THAT!

Let me just organise my thoughts:

The old men Yaoi was expected but it still killed me

The last panel was so chilling and traumatic with Aya's cheerful words and Fukuzawa's expression 😭

Why wasn't Fukuzawa holding Fukuchi in his arms????

SIGMA IS ALIVVVEE

WHERE IS NIKOLAI? Did he go to bury Fyodor's hand or smtg?

FYODOR AND BRAM HAVE HISTORY

So that MF is immortal or really really old or smtg

There's NO way an immortal being like Fyodor dies by a helicopter falling on him!

Before dying (allegedly) Fyodor had mentioned "that man" as his rival before Dazai, could it be Bram? 🤔

Bram serving as usual 💅

Sigma looked like Sleeping Beauty (maybe you should have kissed the Princess instead of throwing him down 15 times Chuuya 🙄)

Fyodor has more Jesus allegories

Dazai wasn't in Fukuzawa's thoughts about the ADA..... maybe he is going to transfer to PM and the reason Chuuya was sent to rescue him was because they were going back to Mori together

NO AKUTAGAWA UPDATE (come on this was his birthday week 🥺)

CHUUYA LOST HIS VAMPIRE TEETH AHHH

WTF IS FYODOR? WTH IS GOING ON WITH HIM

I have so many more thoughts but mostly-----I really want to track down Asagiri to ask him wtf is going on here

I can't understand anything

I'll go and watch some yt shorts

This is all too much for my brain to process (I understand Sigma now)

You walk alone in your life, no one matters but you. Fuck everyone who has done anything harmful to you, they will only get satisfaction if you choose to make your life miserable because of them. There are 8 billion people on earth, and you are stuck with people you hate, but that doesn't matter because there are so many wonderful people you have never met. Life is a journey, there will be crossroads, and you have to trust your own feet and not follow someone's else's footprint. No matter if anyone else believes in you or not, you don't need their approval or validation to live. You have to let people go who don't give you their time or ears, those people who only talk to you when they need your help. You have to move on from negativity to become an actual individual with their own thoughts. Do not take extreme steps, don't make permanent solution to a temporary problem. Things are as they are and you have no control over them but on how you react to them. We know things can go wrong but that doesn't mean we cannot improve.

Julian: so you killed two people?

Henry: you can justify anything, if you do it poetically enough

Francis *wishpers*: wrong fandom Henry.

One of the theories going around about Fyodor is that his ability is to take the years of a person's life whom he kills. So does that mean Fyodor is a Shinigami, a god of death? That's why he is immortal? 🤔

What if Fyodor becomes Light's Shinigami, what his reaction would be like when Light says he wants to be the God of the new world?

Now all I can think about is Fyodor and Light forging a mutual friendship where they try to get rid of all the "evil" in the world by their philosophies.

Or they resent each other, cuz there can't be two gods of the new world at the same time!

"I am Justice"

(could L/ Near catch Light and Fyodor if they are working together?)

Harry: guys, I think snape is up to something

Hermione: Dumbledore trusts him, Harry

Ron: I agree to disagree

5 minutes later...

Harry: guys, I think Malfoy is up to something

Hermione: in your dreams, Harry

Ron: what do you think he is? A death eater? Haha

5 books later

Hermione: Snape killed Dumbledore!!! Malfoy is death eater!!!

Ron: who saw that coming?

Harry *calmly*: I did.

Ps:I do know it was never confirmed in the books if Draco became a death eater or not. Still confused.

There's no way Rat Man is dead right? He even went out spewing Jesus's line about resurrection.

But I DON'T want Nikolai to be the one who saved Fyodor at the last minute, let it be anyone else (let's say Agatha Christie). Nikolai saving Fyodor will take away all of the emotions of the climax. It was such a sad/heartbreaking moment for Nikolai that Dazai, who always had snide remarks, didn't make a joke about it (probably because he understands Nikolai and would feel the same way if Chuuya died).

If Fyodor survives and is ready for his next villain arc with Agatha, then let him be the one to reveal himself to Nikolai and recruit him....this time not as a pawn but as an ally/friend.