Fyozai "the Kiss" Redraw : Part Two

i know the end

i was drawing while looking completely normal; hunched, bended towards table and had a calm, focused expression on my face. but inside, i was losing my mind. i was pulling a whole ass yotaro "im actually scared of drawing" panel. but i looked normal. it's so weird to me that i can lose my mind while sitting there and doing something i don't even have to. i was lying in my bed carefree and i chose to lose my freaking mind and be scared over some pen and paper. casually, of course. i lost my mind so casually even i was amazed by it.

i feel so weird when i look at the moon. when it's full i suddenly visualize the whole solar system in my head and be aware that we are actually on a floating rock; when it's like in the picture i took, i can swear it does have a personality and it knows. sometimes it looks bright red, right above the horizon and i feel unreal. it's like i look at the sky causally, similar to how i live, and then i see moon, it distorts reality for me and i feel lost. even at times i say myself, "just a rock", it doesn't change how shaken i feel after observing it.

practise disappearing

accepting is easier than hoping

i had a dream where i grab people on their naked shoulders, leaving bloody crescent marks, shaking them whilst i shake myself and ask are we going mad yet? how could so many people live and not go crazy? why are we so chill about the concept of death and living and being bloody fleshy machines that interact with each other???????????? how can we not go crazy. i have so much hours to live and i couldn't figure out how i didn't go crazy and how i won't

i'm shopping for puzzles and just as i scroll i see an ugly ai generated picture turned into some. no haha i don't pierce my claws onto the screen or scoop my eyes out or vomit all over, i just silently keep scrolling. yeaahhh

intertwined forever

fear

i feel so ill ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,