I Had A Friend Send Me One Of These Guides Recently. I Guess They Really Do Know Me Too Well.

I went off on D perhaps a bit too hard but honestly I need to make choices for myself

And honestly, I don't need someone trying to make me promise not to talk to my friends ever again just because I made a mistake.

ngl idk why she even came back to me in the first place.

I guess she wanted to try messing someone else up.

Honestly, if i had kept her around things would probably have gotten worse.

MY BROTHER JUST CASUALLY DROPPED THAT HE READS WEBTOONS TOO AND HE HAD THE NERVE TO SAY "Oh yeah [redacted] you would know something about webtoon wouldnt you"

...YOU READ WEBTOONS?? ...ALSO HEY WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN??

even though she was supporting me i got rid of her. no way in hell am i abandoning anybody because someone like her told me to ever again.

I'm fixing myself and I don't need someone to try and derail me again.

See? I'm learning!

someone please send me asks or something ive had next to no interaction with anyone today including my mother.

the closest thing i had to a conversation today was being thanked for doing all the work on a group project, and the several times i apologized quietly as i ran away from someone while trying not to throw up out of guilt

I’m so sorry for everything. I ruined everything for you and I’m so, so sorry.

Sometimes I feel like crying and curling up and crying more but I know if I let it out it’ll worry people and I still have energy to keep going.

I’m fine everyone I’ll be alright!

I just need to find a period of time to be alone while I break down!

I can’t afford to break down in front of you right now, and if I break down at home my mom will bother me about it.

All I can do is listen to opal! “You’re strong, I know you are!”

I’ll stay strong for all of you! I have time to rest when I’m alone!

So… I didn’t eat again today. I know I said I would but I genuinely didn’t have time this morning and I’m out of money to buy lunch.

I’ll eat something at dinner time I promise

God at this rate I’m gonna be more malnourished then that glowing russian twink/ref

everything is going to shit

I regret every second of it and I would never treat anyone like that again.

I've learned from my mistake, I promise I have.

You don't have to believe me.

This is where my life is at this point 😔

J - Just

I - Into

R - Risky

A - Antics

I - I also wanna die and drink and jack off and die and drink and jack off and die and drink--