If I Had To Choose Him Or The Sun I'd Be One Nocturnal Son Of A Gun

chuuya scene redraw..are you guys annoyed of my rapid posting yet i swear soon ill just start yapping eventually 💔

"today is christmas!" wrong, today is the death anniversary of this two mfs

"....I don't understand..."

"Why is that even though Sukuna-sama is near me, he does not get cold?"

".....Ku-Ha"

"I could say the same goes for you, Uraume"

"Why did you not get cold being by my side?"

Bsd Chapter 121:

Dazai (hallucination) to Atsushi.

Dazai to Atsushi: Do you need things like “courage” or “hope” to overcome fear? No. You haven’t had those things from the start.

Dazai: You haven’t needed them. What you need to crush your fear, is a fear even greater.

Bsd Beast Chapter 4:

Beast Dazai to Beast Atsushi.

Beast Dazai: I do think you’re correct in saying that you’re a coward. Your former self was a fearful boy who would search for an escape route right in front of the enemy.

Beast Dazai: But ever since that day you’ve changed. Do you understand why that is?

Beast Dazai: It turns out that the best way to drown out your fear is with more fear.

I've been thinking about the moment where Douma suddenly confesses an attraction to Shinobu while the two were in limbo. It's short, and semi-serious, but I think it's a genuine - and tragic - feeling on Douma's part, and it hits him right at this moment.

From his earliest memories, Douma has been surrounded by suffering people, people who latched onto him for peace. He was raised to believe that he lived alone in a world of suffering people, and that his purpose was nothing but to ease their pain. There was no room for himself as a person. He had to be a saviour. People needed him. They latched onto a child and drained him dry emotionally so they could feel better, because they were dependant.

But Shinobu doesn't need him, not even for revenge, not anymore. Shinobu is content.

Douma is entranced. He took to Kotoha, Inosuke's mother, and liked her well enough to want her around, but she was still a dependant, like the rest of his followers. She was still a suffering person who relied upon him like everyone else. She fit neatly into his warped view of the world and its people, and could be discarded when necessary.

Shinobu is unlike anything Douma has ever seen before. He has never known contentment, not for anyone around him and especially not himself. He has lived more than a century believing that just pretending to be that purposeful, happy person was enough. But as Kanao rightly said, he is empty, and he knows it, and it haunts him.

Douma spent his entire life forcing himself to like and enjoy a role he was forced into in spite of his own feelings, and at the end he realised that it amounted to absolutely nothing. He was still empty, unfulfilled and miserable.

So the sight of a person, even the woman who killed him, showing the genuine joy of an ambition and life fulfilled, how could Douma not be smitten by it?

It's not true love, not based on Shinobu as an individual and certainly not healthy, but it's a sensation born from witnessing the purest iteration of the state of being that has so long eluded him. He now knows that such a thing is achievable, possible, and so should heaven and hell.

For more than a century, Douma knew that his life was a lie. He was not a seer, he could not hear the gods, but had to pretend otherwise because everyone believed - or said - otherwise. Living this lie developed a deep cynicism towards those things which people said were true, like salvation and peace.

Douma knew deep down that what he did was not salvation, and therefore believed that it was unachievable no matter how much he said otherwise.

But Shinobu proved him wrong. And no matter how Douma wants to hold onto the thing that proved him wrong, all that awaits him is hell. It was all too late.

i should post these here as well that's a good start

Thinking abt young Shakky

The port mafia presents

Put that man in a minimum wage customer service job you surely won’t regret it

the fool reversed