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I'm a horrible person. I feel like somethings wrong with me I can't pin point it but I feel like somethings there. something, I don't know. I can't talk about neurodiversity or mental health because I tense up and start freaking out because I start thinking about what I use to think about myself. I try my best not to think about those things since I have in the past and I dug myself into a pit of self hate. I don't know what to do because I feel like questioning those things make me one of those kids who just take something very small from themselves and tell everyone they are neurodivergent. I can't do this anymore, and I faking all of this? Did I make it up? I remember last year I realized that people didn't like my personality so I made up a whole new one. I don't know who I am anymore. All I know is that something is wrong but I can't do anything to help it. So I'm stuck in a cycle.

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The original post only has US helplines. I’ve added UK helplines underneath. It would be great if people could add numbers from everywhere in the world.

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453

UK Helplines:

Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail jo@samaritans.org

Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111

Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: info@mind.org.uk

Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 legal@mind.org.uk

b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: help@b-eat.co.uk

b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)

Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: helpline@cruse.org.uk

Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600

Drinkline: 0800 9178282

Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail info@rapecrisis.org.uk

Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight

India Self Harm Hotline: 00 08001006614

India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669

Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868, Free and available 24/7

suicide hotlines;

Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430

Australia: 13-11-14

Austria: 01-713-3374

Barbados: 429-9999

Belgium: 106

Botswana: 391-1270

Brazil: 21-233-9191

China: 852-2382-0000

(Hong Kong: 2389-2222)

Costa Rica: 606-253-5439

Croatia: 01-4833-888

Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67

Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908

Denmark: 70-201-201

Egypt: 762-1602

Estonia: 6-558-088

Finland: 040-5032199

France: 01-45-39-4000

Germany: 0800-181-0721

Greece: 1018

Guatemala: 502-234-1239

Holland: 0900-0767

Honduras: 504-237-3623

Hungary: 06-80-820-111

Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90

Israel: 09-8892333

Italy: 06-705-4444

Japan: 3-5286-9090

Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292

Malaysia: 03-756-8144

(Singapore: 1-800-221-4444)

Mexico: 525-510-2550

Netherlands: 0900-0767

New Zealand: 4-473-9739

New Guinea: 675-326-0011

Nicaragua: 505-268-6171

Norway: 47-815-33-300

Philippines: 02-896-9191

Poland: 52-70-000

Portugal: 239-72-10-10

Russia: 8-20-222-82-10

Spain: 91-459-00-50

South Africa: 0861-322-322

South Korea: 2-715-8600

Sweden: 031-711-2400

Switzerland: 143

Taiwan: 0800-788-995

Thailand: 02-249-9977

Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800

Ukraine: 0487-327715

Images that make you enter a fugue state

I'm literally crushed by the fact that one day Hozier will be recognized as old people's music and not be cool, I'm just not ready for that.

imagine how fucking great it would be if hozier wrote a song about Patroclus and Achilles........

Felt like I needed to post this here, too.

[ID: A set of screenshots of a Twitter thread. The Twitter users display name is "Stevie!! Angry Cripple" and their username is adonyann. The thread contains five tweets, which say:

I have been made fun of for not understanding people because I can't process speech sometimes. Snapped at/ yelled at for taking a while at the till because I have arthritis and can't move my hands as fast, or because I use a cane and that makes getting out of the way slow. Told off by people for dropping things in a store because my hands cannot hold on sometimes. Belittled by staff for getting locked in a bathroom because the accessible one wasn't in order or available and I can't always open locks. Told that if I can't handle walking up 3 flights of stairs when the lift is broken I'm probably not cut out for education. That because I can get around with a cane, using my wheelchair is deceitful. That because I can stand for a short time I'm not entitled to a seat. These are a few examples off the top of my tired, currently foggy, head of the way people have used words to belittle, joke about and dehumanise me for being disabled. Words are not "just words" when they humiliate or hurt vulnerable people who are suffering already. Things like this lead to less accessibility, support and resources for us. Ableism isn't "just words" and it never will be.

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[Image description: A deaf person speaking in sign language, with the words "THEY/THEM" and closed captions printed on the screen, as well as a second smaller video of the same person speaking with their voice the same words that they're saying in sign language.

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Transcript:

As a Deaf person, what's the one thing I wish hearing people understood?

Recently I was having a coversation with my therapist, who is a hearing person.

I was expressing my frustration about how many artistic spaces are not accessible to me, and her first instinct was to ask if I wore hearing aids, and I said "Nope, ears bald," and then she asked if I've ever considered a cochlear implant which, if you're unfamiliar, is a pretty serious surgery, and I had to stop her.

Because, when hearing people and able-bodied people are faced with the reality of the inaccessible world that they have helped to create, their first instinct is always to try and fix the Deaf or disabled person.

I am not broken. My ears are not broken. My body is not broken just because it doesn't function the same way yours does. We are only disabled because you have told us we are disabled. We are only disabled because you built a world for YOU, not for us. Why should I have to change myself when we can simply change the world?

CREDIT: https://www.tiktok.com/@themotherbirdie/video/7076229059000192299