Labyrinth (1986)
Congratulations! Today, you get to learn the difference between memory and recall. There is an important difference, and understanding that difference will make you a better ally to the disabled community and also more understanding of your own brain!
Memory is the information your brain has stored for later. Let's make an analogy: your memory can be compared to files stored on a computer. Your brain is extremely complex and has a deep, layered filing system.
When your roommate's friend visits and introduces herself, you put her name in one of the many name folders. Our brains are complex enough that we can assume there are thousands of those folders, each for a different type of name and how you know it: friend names, immediate family names, extended family names, classmate names, coworker names, celebrity names, and so on and so forth, forever.
Recall is not whether you have something stored, but whether you can find it. Like that photo of you at summer camp in sixth grade that's stored somewhere on your computer, the information you learn throughout daily life is sorted somewhere into your brain's filing system. The longer ago that you put the information into the system, the harder it is to find, unless you frequently visit those files.
For the average instance of recall, people generally use the equivalent of the search bar of their brain's filing system. The information is sorted precisely so it's, naturally, recalled in the blink of an eye.
However, you may have had moments of recall issues. Everyone does here and there. The sensation of a word being on the tip of your tongue is a common example of issues with recall. You know the word, but it's just not coming up when you search for it.
In instances like these, you end up kind of manually rooting around in your brain's folders, desperately looking for associated folders that it might have been mis-stored in. You're trying to think of a vegetable you know of, so you start listing off other vegetables to yourself, as if sifting through the vegetable folder.
Sometimes, this association game can bring forth the missing file - or in this case, vegetable name. In other cases, you simply have to let it go and wait for it to come to you later. That might mean you smacking your forehead 48 hours later when you're in the middle of driving to work and the name of that vegetable suddenly throws itself right in the middle of your internal monologue.
So, what does this have to do with disability? Well, the average person may have occasional recall issues, but for many disabled people, these issues are extremely prevalent. For neurodivergent folks or those with brain fog, we can end up having trouble recalling things many times in a day. It is extremely frustrating and can even be embarrassing in social situations.
For example, your roommate's friend, who you've hung out with on multiple occasions and heard numerous stories about might drop by six months later and you might stand there trying to avoid talking while you scramble desperately through your name files trying to recall her name when you know it's in there somewhere. It's a real life reproduction of that scene in SpongeBob where he only knows how to be a waiter. By the time she addresses you, it's too little too late and you have to admit that for some reason her name is evading you. It's humiliating.
These issues have little to do with how important something is to a person. If you know someone who's disabled and they have frequent issues recalling words or names, it's just because the search function in their brain sometimes breaks down and they have to rely on manually digging through the billions of memories they have to try and find what they're looking for.
If you know someone with this issue who is comfortable with it, try filling in the gaps for them! It can be a fun bonding experience, especially between two people with recall issues, to immediately offer a word that seems to fit the flow of the sentence as soon as the other starts to draw a blank. The better you know them, the easier it is.
If you know someone with recall issues, be patient when they use you as a living thesaurus. You're saving them countless hours of googling or agonizing over what that word was - you know, the one that's like willingly suffering for an extended period of time about something that may or may not matter? (I just had issues recalling 'agonizing' 😔)
Anyway, that's all for today! I hope you've all learned something new about recall and how it affects people with disabilities differently/more frequently than the average person
i think everyone is lying how does it not hurt you to walk anywhere. i saw a website today describe a "short period of standing" as 30 minutes. I WOULD EXPLODE. EVERYONE IS LYING.
That neurodivergent / executive dysfunction thing where you are *about* to start a task. You’re not doing it yet...but you’re so so close. almost there. Just need a little bit more . “⚡️⚡️🔌” that’s all. THEN you’ll be ready. you can do it, soon. Just need a little bit more juice...
a little bit...
any minute now
...almost...ready...
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just a little bit more.....
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what exactly am I suppose to do when I feel under stimulated but can't do anything about it cause executive dysfunction and old fixation doesn't give me the good juices anymorrr
So here's an analogy ( Spoiler alert if you haven't seen heavens arena arc )
Know how Gon and Killua can't pass the corridor when they reached the 200th floor because Hisoka stop them from crossing? When Hisoka caught them with his nen, the boys knew that they needed to move away. They desperately want to move away, they even thought that if they stay any much longer they were sure they would die. But no matter how much they tried, they can't. They're just stuck there, unable to do anything except to just wait until it's all over.
And that's how executive dysfunction feels. It's exactly like that.
No matter how much you want to do something, whether its a fun activity, maybe a hobby or a very important thing that you have to get done you just cant. Your brain decided to stop you from doing anything and it fucking sucks. You're just stuck in silence and you're forced to wait until its over. Executive dysfunction is clearly not about having no will power or not enough motivation. Just like how Killua and Gon desperately wanted to get away from Hisoka but they can't, because they're stuck. It's like that.
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