Depression Makes Everything Feel So Grey. The Color Has Been Sucked Out Of Me & My World.

found myself wanting to lie down

half way up the stairs

“when does it get easier?”

it can’t

i want to punch you

and punch you

and punch you

until i’m too tired

to do anything

but collapse into your arms

at least we are under the same sky.

“why would you just assume taylor swift is gay?”

i actually listen to her music, hope this helps!

he makes me feel so drained

i can’t help but wonder

if he purposely forces the life out of me

so i feel he’s the only one who can give it back

it was oddly relieving

once it was all said and done

no more heightened emotions

now that you’re gone

so much of myself is a secret and it makes me wonder if people would still like me if they knew all of me :(

they have something to say to the homophobes

i have an eclipse father

he’s rarely home & when he is it’s only physically

but in the summer

in the summer he’s my protector, my sweet father

he rides roller coasters with me

and teaches me about the world

but then fall rolls around

and again i’m left cold

my darling,

you are like a firefly.

always flitting just out of reach

your glow impossible to grasp.

- so why do i keep chasing