Purposely Dressing Dramatically Gay All Month. Today I Wore A Rainbow Crocheted Bucket Hat And My Nails

i don’t want to forget

i don’t want to forget you laying between my thighs trying not to cry

i don’t want to forget you caressing my hair as i laid on ur chest in tears

even if it hurts

please don’t let me forget

it’s your birthday

i want so badly to hold you

to suffocate you in kisses

to tell you

with me

you’re always wanted.

i will never be okay again. i can’t imagine a future where i’m stable and happy. i can never run far enough away from myself.

i have an eclipse father

he’s rarely home & when he is it’s only physically

but in the summer

in the summer he’s my protector, my sweet father

he rides roller coasters with me

and teaches me about the world

but then fall rolls around

and again i’m left cold

“you have a song that reminds you of me?”

“yeah.”

“it’s a sad song.”

“don’t you think we’re kind of sad? we’ve known of our doom from the start. but we keep coming back to each other and hurting ourselves all over again.”

“that’s the only time you’ve dreamed of me?”

“i don’t dream.”

“everyone dreams. you just don’t remember. like how you don’t remember the color of my eyes. or hurting me just to ask to be let back in again.”

i don’t think he’s ever been properly loved.

the stars still shine the same with out you here

i look just as pretty without you telling me so

i think i overvalued your importance

you were just a guy

who didn’t like me

as much as i liked you

MOTHER’S DAY 🔥🔥🔥

not to be confused with taylor swift’s birthday, which is december 13th, 1989.

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