You've Been Appearing In My Dreams Lately, My Love. Each Time Has Been As Someone Who Makes Me Smile

And run my FINGERS through his HAIR

I want to KISS my nonexistent BOYFRIEND

boyfriends sitting down under a tree holding hands and thinking about each other

I just want to hold a boy in my arms. His soft hair tickling my nose. I kiss the top of his head, him holding my hands as they are wrapped around his waist. I want a boy to hold my face in his hands and kiss me so gently. I need a boy to bring me to surprise dates, holding my hand as we go on a ferris wheel, or share his cotton candy with me. Having a decent apartment with him, walking downtown and just going to random junk stores. Having picnics with the cakes and cookies we baked together. A boy I can have a full conversation with just silence. Him doing my nails, making me pretty with his makeup. Owning a cat with him. Staying up at night and watching movies. Seeing him stim while he gets excited, him being nonverbal and letting me hold him throughout it. Him cuddling me as I have an episode. Him giving me reassurance without me asking. Him being so giggly and happy around me. Me smiling so much around this boy. God.

Wrote this at like 4am,, oops

can we just snuggle for a long while? take it in turns to have your arm around the other? maybe have a film or music on in the background?

just us two, just snuggling

The Lovers, Tarot Card by Melissa Houpert

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I want to bury my face in a man's chest and be held tightly by him

it’s as simple as sitting outside and watching the snow fall

hot chocolate in hand, head on his shoulder

and finally, in a world that’s always been so cold to us, we feel warm

there’s something so incredibly soft about the phrase “this made me think of you.” or, “this reminded me of you.” like!!!! being known is scary but then people see fragments of you in the world around them and can’t help but share that love and i think that’s beautiful.

mutuals do this with me

love is that first bite of a chocolate covered strawberry

love is seeing a fresh bouquet of roses on a day where everything else seems so grey

love is that feeling when you wake up in the morning, and your bed is just too comfortable to get out of

love is chicken noodle soup when you feel sick

love is their hands giving you the warm bowl, and their voice telling you not to burn your tongue

love is the laughter you share when it happens anyway…

love is feeling like nothing else matters when you’re together