December 7, 2024 — Childhood Dwellings

march 29, 2024 — not enough

the shower i took tonight was cold

thought of the words you said the other day

the way you said it still makes me fold

you felt what i did, had no more to say

i don't like thinking about it much

easily makes me cry and such

i know the years are good enough

but you know you can't blame me for not acting tough

and i'd like to teach this one day

making the most of something means

you'll never get enough of it

so bittersweet feeling this way

you're always gonna miss every little bit

and i hope that in another reality

we'd never have to live through calamity

palms could breathe without fatality

and you'd smile without the distance i see

— reddestofscarves, 11:46pm

there is a hole in my heart

it's bleeding, the veins come untangled

my arteries are exposed

still, it morbidly pulses, even in death's clutch

and it's shaped like you.

- reddestofscarves, 9:33am on january 20, 2024

december 15, 2024 — she-doom

TW: implications of self deletion and dubcon/$@ near the end

she's a gift from god, she's gifted with a future

she loves science and doesn't understand how to feel heard

she'll love without reason and betray her own slaughter

and she'll always hate being compared to her own father

but time will always tell, it's a curse of mankind

to make the same mistakes and watch it rewind

but she's a woman so maybe life will spare mercy

she doesn't yet know adam is His favorite progeny

and if you ever forget why you had her

she'll cry herself to sleep at night and harbor the same laughter

cause she's the one who bears your burdens and seeks your contentment

and she's born of your love and grown on your resentment

no matter what she does, shes trapped

inescapable are your hands that attacked

growing old to find comfort in men that touch

in states of her mind she refutes to such

she'll end up like you, scared and alone

gleaming knife in skin and bone

or maybe a rope and chair to a ceiling of stone

and she'll always miss the warmth of home

— reddestofscarves, 8:32 pm

Edit Note: I'm really amazed by how much love this post got. Guess it just shows we're all in the same boat. I do have other humorous writing memes on this tumblr under the same tag, if you're interested. Never give up writing! ❤️

Edit Note 2: I can't believe this has reached 10000 notes. Been on tumblr for almost ten years (different account) and nothing like this has ever happened before. Thank you! 😊

april 6, 2024 — situationship

are we still friends?

were we more?

when all that's begun has come an end

will everything be back to the way it was before?

and my soul hates everything about you

doesn't mean my heart can't miss you

so when you're gone and i'm through

i'll pretend to move on too

oh, brought to a stop and then what?

i'm faced with a paradoxical thought

childhood memories are soulful wealth

how do i tune silence out with itself?

but i knew it then, it was our last day

see it in your eyes, "sorry it had to end today"

i shake my head, smile wide and say

"it's okay, no hard feelings anyway"

despite everything back then

when i pick up my paper and pen

my mind drifts to you, sweetest bullet bitten

and i'll write the messages i can't send

— reddestofscarves, 1:20pm

april 20, 2024 — secret garden language

im in the hospital in a waiting room

my thighs are sweating, the air hot and stuffy

its too early in the morning to feel like noon

thoughts of you are the only thing keeping me steady

my music flows smokey, the album's nice

messy poetry, paradox hearts & minds

weeds on my back, sick of putting you first

its ok to love him more, my heart's seen worse

i hope the 6 year old garden was fun

the fruits of your seed and spring has begun

so for the first time in forever

abatinas and cyclamens bloom in my weather

and when winter comes, what will you do?

will another bloodthirsty creature welcome you too?

will you drain them of life and trick them like a fool?

goodluck on the run, my laugh's one haunting ghoul

— reddestofscarves, 11:00 pm.

poke

ipopoke back din kita

i wish to kiss you

in places the sunlight from the window doesn't reach

at the wrong moment to breach

on the dented mattress and pillow

in the heart you will never let me know.

- reddestofscarves, 10:23pm on febuary 8, 2024

april 1, 2024 — luna

oh, luna, tell me so

do you love me enough to let me go?

if you're the moon and i'm the sun

don't you think i'm better off alone?

oh, luna, i'm not the only star you'll find

rigil's brighter and toliman's one of a kind

being good is different from perfect

don't settle, consider every aspect

when i said you were the best thing to happen to me

i actually meant that only you ever stole my need to be free

oh, luna, i hope you'll understand

that going with you is to forget me

but being me won't stop my heart

from knowing we were written in the stars

and how i loved you from the start

always and forever, from here and afar

— reddestofscarves, 4:05 pm

when im back on the prowl

you bticjes............. better.......... have my money...................................................