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Let me clear this up for you:

Since no one seems to understand. Time to rant. 

CONCEPT OF KARMA

I absolutely hate how western practitioners have twisted the meaning and bastardised it. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not completely rooted in my roots and I’m not an extreme traditionalist but people using the concept of karma by first misunderstanding its foundations and then using it to justify horrendous shit is unbelievable. Which then, leads to people trying to divorce karma from its associations.

Okay, let’s just break it down. Idk how they just reduced Karma as “what goes around, comes around” & treated it like a cause and effect deal, because it isn’t. Using Karma to justify suffering and oppression was NEVER it’s original purpose. Looking through Hinduism & Vedic teachings, Karma is a law that human in the centre of responsibility, in every way, shape and form. There is a reason Karma is tied with Saturn (Shani), the God of Karma, Justice and Retribution, and ANY astrologer can tell you how Saturn operates in similar principal. Karma doesn’t teach people to shut up & suffer because they deserve it. Karma says that the cycles that exist are created by and through humans, their suffering & good fortune accordingly and by virtue, it is in their hands and will alone on how they want to cultivate their actions.

It DOESN’T discount systematic oppression.

It DOESN’T tell you to sit on your hands and suffer because it’s your fault.

It DOESN’T tell you that you’ll get good things after suffering.

What Karma does is present you with the situation of your life, then waits and watches what YOU choose to do with it, how YOU work or manage it. Ultimately, being tied to Saturn, it expects you to take responsibility on creating your own situation.

And no, I’m not saying this in the way that the way people are, and how they’re suffering is because they somehow “were a bad person in their previous life, etc etc”, I’m saying that it acknowledges that people have different situations & personal suffering, yes, a LOT of things in life are fundamentally difficult but you need to understand, the planets or the gods didn’t create suffering on such a global scale, it was ultimately humans/men themselves that perpetuated and continued the cycle of suffering, and it is, ultimately, in our hands to make it better or worse. Karma treats everyone equally this sense, but it is very difficult to understand this if you don’t realise that the concept of Karma is deeply tied with cycles, especially as Hinduism treats time as a cycle itself, and often times people really can’t and don’t have the knowledge of comprehending anything but their own/current life while they’re alive. 

Karma isn’t an immediate slap in the face (unless you have those placements that make it so) as you know, the GOD OF KARMA is literally called the slowest/slow moving planet and is symbolised by a tortoise, the effects of your Karma accumulate and thus it usually manifests in the various cycle of lifes. I understand that western practitioners or those growing up with largely Christian themes/society can’t understand because we don’t have a definite “end”, the only “end” that comes from cycles of reincarnation is through burning the ties of Karma and liberating the soul. There are three types of Karma:

1. Sanchita karma, the sum total of past karmas yet to be resolved. 2. Prarabdha karma, that portion of sanchita karma that is to be experienced in this life. 3. Kriyamana karma, the karma that humans are currently creating, which will bear fruit in future.

There are some things in life you can’t control, there are also things in life that you can control. Karma is a continuous cycle until you achieve moksha, which is the ultimate goal of liberation.

Hinduism/The Vedas has recognised and understood the way the Law of Karma works, that’s one of the main reasons Dharma was made one of the aims of life, the act of good deeds, performing proper responsibilities & personality that ultimately gears you towards attaining (good)karma that will make it easier for you to pursue the other “Purusartha” aka aims of life, and of course, the path towards liberation in general.

From this perspective, we see life as fundamentally connected with everything, including people, action, deeds, nature, planets, the universe etc etc, Karma is just a law that explains one part of such. Astrology has always been one of the main tools used to deeply study the bond between the planets and a human existence (soul & body), one of the main reason Karmic Astrology exists is because the intrinsic ties our existence has with different elements of life, and of course, the soul that has & will be going through everything. Now that you’re in the end of this post, I hope you never misuse the concept of “Karma” because I’m going to arrive there with Saturn to slap a bitch.

Amren had no right to call Nesta a “pathetic waste of life.”

What was SJM thinking to have Nesta get on her knees begging for forgiveness.

I don't mean to offend you, but do you dislike North Indians? We are not that bad also. (*sings kya itna bura hu main maa?.... in the background*)

*snorting at the gaana* Draamebaaz. 😆😆😆

Warning: Impassioned rant incoming. But you asked, so… 😗😗😗

Of course I don’t just outright dislike ALL North Indians unilaterally. But I *do* resent the suffocating hegemony that the North imposes on “desi culture”. You know, how the run-of-the-mill “Indian” is seen as fair, vegetarian and Hindi speaking. What about South India? The north east? Bengal and Odisha? WE HERE TOO! 🙋🏾🙋🏾🙋🏾 We’re all Indians too! But the overwhelming perception is that the North is mainly “India”, while the rest of the country are just hangers-on/afterthoughts. In the matter of entertainment, I especially HATE that Bollywood is recognized world-wide as “Indian cinema” while all the other industries that are churning out INFINITELY SUPERIOR CONTENT ON A REGULAR BASIS are marginalized as ~~~regional cinema and doesn’t get the recognition it deserves. There’s a general disinterest and unwillingness to explore outside of Bollywood. Whereas every “Indian” is expected to understand Hindi and know/keep up with Bollywood. 🙄🙄🙄

Forget recognition and appreciation, when was the last time any other regions got ACCURATE, if ANY, representation in mainstream Bollywood/Tellywood itself? Nope, it’s all stereotypical caricatures mired in terrible accents and nonsensical regional mishmashes. But greaaaaaat care is taken to ensure authenticity in portrayal of the North Indian regions. You’d never see Garba dancing in a movie set in Punjab. You wouldn’t see people speaking in a Haryanvi accent and eating Daal Baati Churma if a show was set in Lucknow. But you *will* see Kathakali and Mohiniyattam dancers in a movie that’s set in Tamil Nadu/Odissi dancers in a movie based in Calcutta. All South Indians seem to be on a strictttttt vegetarian diet (pls note that the south indian states are the LEADERS in meat consumption in the country) of idli-sambaar (every time someone pronounces it “saaambur”, i lose 6 years off my lifespan 😫😫😫) or bizarre noodle-yogurt concoctions (WTF???? 🤢🤢🤢) when not breaking into Carnatic music and impromptu Bharatnatyam steps every now and then. Oh, and not to forget the constant punctuation of every sentence with “aiyyo!“ 😒😒😒 A National Award winner like Dhanush is derided as looking like a “rikshawaala”, while the most pedestrian-looking of North Indians with a six pack (and of course, a rich and famous daddy) can become a Bollywood hero, finding marginal to immense success. Consummate actors like Mohanlal and Mamootty (also MULTIPLE National Award winners!!!!) are ridiculed by North Indian masses for being chubby and looking like “uncles”, while bloody Salman Khan (ALSO IN HIS 50s, AND TRUST ME, IT FUCKING SHOWS) gets 300 crores on the first weekend for just showing his expressionless mug on the screen (don’t even get me started on how he just stands there like a fucking lump of goondha hua atta in Swag Se Swagat. LIKE, AT LEAST PUT IN *SOME* EFFORT FOR YOUR MONEY MAN!!!!!??!!!!!) Priyanka Chopra is chosen to don yellow-face to portray Mary Kom, because most of the North Indian public won’t come to theatres to watch an actual Manipuri actress play her. Imran Khan, Shraddha Kapoor, and Alia Bhatt are cast as Tam-Brahms and Preity Zinta is being shoved in my face as a Malayali. The biggest South Indian successes are taken and churned into shoddyass remakes, because not only do North Indians not wanna watch anyone but the Khans and Kapoors and Kumars, but there’s also the general attitude of “Arre yaaar, who will watch all this with subtitles and all???? 😑😑😑” The inherent regionalism and racism of it allllllllllll is just maddening to me.

Coming to personal experience, most North Indians I’ve met have a benevolently ignorant (if not downright derisive) attitude towards South Indians and the culture. If I had a rupee for every time I was called a “Madraasi” growing up, I’d be rich enough to be a damn Oberoi. When informed that Kerala is actually a whole different state, and also, not all Malayalis are “Malabaris”, the response is mostly “ehhhh, same difference, na?” (Similar to how North East Indians are largely seen as one single unit of “Chinese” people who happen to live within Indian borders.) I’ve had friends repeatedly ask me to translate Kannada/Telugu/Tamil for them, and being perplexed when told that those are actually entirely different languages from the one I speak. I’ve heard North Indians regularly complain that Tamilians in CHENNAI only speak Tamil and don’t understand Hindi. (Like ????? 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔 If you’re coming to visit/live here, make an effort to learn the local language instead of the other way round????? We don’t come to Delhi/Mumbai/Jaipur and speak to the autowaalas and shopkeepers there in OUR languages and then get mad that they don’t understand us????) From what I’ve noticed, there seems to be an innate unwillingness on the part of North Indians to acknowledge and educate themselves on the regions of the country that are equally, if not more diverse than the north (there are over 10 different regional dialects within Malayalam itself!!!!! I’m sure there are even more in Tamil!) while simultaneously placing the expectation on all others to just “know” things about North India and its culture. I don’t see any difference in this attitude of North Indians when compared to white people who think all brown people (whether they be Latinx, Middle Eastern or from the Indian Subcontinent) hail from one single, monolithic culture.

And thus therefore thence, the general resentment and side-eyeing towards North Indians on my part. It’s nothing personal, just frustration that’s built up from all these years of fuckery I’ve experienced. 🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️If you’re a culturally educated North Indian who doesn’t behave like the above, then obviously I have no issues. If you happen to be among those who have (perhaps/mostly unknowingly) behaved this way, then I’d urge you to take an interest and learn more about your own country’s diversity. There’s a whole treasure trove of unexplored and underrated cultures, that have infinitely more to them than just the inaccurate nonsense the mainstream North Indian media propagates! ✨✨✨✨

When you see houses and balconies twinkling with funky multicolored lights, alight with laughters, and sweet shops flooded with kids going "papa mujhe chamcham chahiye" and little girls lighting anars in their anarkalis and running away laughing and shooting chutputi guns at each other, and little boys in kurtas lighting candles on their balconies and throwing pop pops around, and uncles and aunts gifting the kids stuff and siblings poking fun at each other and reluctantly giving each other tiny gifts and toddlers clapping at a chakkarginni and a teenage girl hanging more and more types of lights in her balconies and when you feel the joy around you, you just know diwali is not just a festival

Raazi, 2018.

Remember when Sadhguru said-“When terrible things happen to you, become wise not wounded.”

I think it’s high time our generation starts applying that.

Nesta had to give up her powers because R/hysand didn’t think to tell F/eyre about possible risks of fae childbirth before trying conceive or after when those risks were confirmed. Gotta love a woman sacrificing her power to help a dude who isn’t going to face any consequences at all.

“Tapsee Pannu’s Thappad is a slap on those unsaid rules of marriage that humiliate women in their own families and shatter their self-esteem in the process. A husband slaps his dutiful wife in a party to vent out his frustration and this starts an emotional battle that goes beyond domestic violence – even one slap is not okay, and moving on is not the solution! The woman’s family even tries to talk her out of taking legal action against her husband stating that women are meant to adjust to such situations. Other crucial women-oriented topics explored by this film include bearing the brunt of a family’s legacy, clinging to the idea that marriage is the ultimate destination, and believing that being physically abused by the husband is the norm.”

— Apeksha, ‘Bollywood’s Depiction Of Gendered Violence: Are We Changing For The Better?’, Youth Ki Awaaz

Classical Dance things

Admiring the Nataraja statue in your dance class while doing your bhoomi pranam.

Taking your own sweet time to tie your ghungroos/salangai even when your teacher told you to tie them quickly

Counting the bells in your ghungroo every now and then and randomly jingling it.

Tattadavu for Bharatnatyam dancers and Chauka for Odissi dancers is basically leg-day for you all. They tone your legs.

Cringing when you see that neck movement in films

You don't know how to react when you hear some people say "Oh you learn classical dance. It is this right? Ta thai tom" *tight smile on the face*

Touching the dancing sculptures of ancient temples and dreaming about them.

You love to pose like those dancing sculptures and secretly wishing to have someone who would take your photographs in a dance pose

Reading the Natyashastra and Abhinaya darpana. You have a hard time pronouncing the long Sanskrit names for the types of nayikas but slowly getting them right.

Spinning randomly in your class, school/college corridor. You gotta practice those chakkars/bhramari

Making choreographies inside your head while doing household work.

Dreaming about forgetting steps during a dance performance. Every dancer's nightmare!

Standing up to people including your own friends when they make fun of male classical dancers by calling them 'womanly' and 'boys don't dance like that'

If you were enrolled into a dance school as a child, you loved to imitate your Akkas/didis and the senior dancers and wanted to dance like them.

Feeling a little emotional after your Arangetram.

Your first solo performance has a special place in your heart.

Dance mates >>>>>>> school mates

Balancing dance and academics together or you will have your school teachers complaining about a slight dip in your report card. Eventually, you learn to multitask.

From making excuses to not go to the dance class to impatiently waiting for your dance, you grew up.

Rehearsals turning you exhausted the entire day but you always look forward to it.

Doing your homework during dance breaks. Exam time rehearsals? Carry books to the class and get things done.

You may skip school for a day but hate to skip your dance class

Reading biographies about your favourite dancers at night and secretly wishing if you could grow up to be a dancer like them.

Hearing parents say "Yes, you can choose to be a dancer" and shedding happy tears.

Realising that the final dance performance ends faster than the stage rehearsal even though they are of the same duration. Does time move fast on stage?

Sitting like a statue when make-up dada applies makeup. You look at the mirror and for a second don't recognise yourself.

Holding hands with your dance friends and whispering all the best minutes before your group is called.

Getting dressed up in the costume with your hair pinned with pins and ornaments is tiring but the final look makes you swoon over yourself.

The way your heart beat accelerates seconds before the music starts on the stage.

Hugging your dance teacher after you return backstage and touching their feet for teaching to such a beautiful art form and finding you worthy to present a dance to the audience.

Your dance teacher is your best friend.

So what if you did not become a professional dancer as you once wished. Once a dancer, always a dancer!

(Feel free to add more to this )

Masaan (2015)