Dye Their Flowers With My Blood - From That Eternal Silence

Dye Their Flowers With My Blood - That Untravell’d World

A mental exercise to purge concern.

Avenge the Living, Heal the Dead

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Sure, Shi Qingxuan and He Xuan have a lot they absolutely have to talk about. But maybe a stroll through the Royal Capital is not the time and place for it.

I'm currently watching the MDZS donghua with my Mom - and yes, I'll make a list of her opinions again when we're done, but my schedule right now is crazy, so I don't get to sit down in peace as much as I'd like.

This isn't about that. This is about me warning her that I'll sit her through The Untamed, eventually. (Assuming I'll survive this. Every time Jin Guangyao shows up on the screen a beam at him, actually whooped in his first scene because it's so, so late in the donghua and WHAT AN ENTRANCE THEY GAVE MY LITTLE GUY, and I've said I adore that man. She's going flay me alive because she's not going to feel the same way.) She's all for it, but I warned her that the special effects are ... ahem. Not it.

Her response: Is it phallactite-level bad?

Me, trying to process this question for a minute and failing: WHAT-level bad?!

Her giving me a huge grin: You know, pallactite. Like the one from Kirk.

It took another hot minute for me to get what she meant, but then I told her that I knew she was okay with the horrible effects and props from Star Trek, but it's one thing in a no-budget 60s show and another in a modern one so I wanted to warn her. I also said the props and costumes and what not are good and SOME of the effects are, too, but she shouldn't think too much about how physics work most of the time.

(Look up the scene in 'What Are Little Girls Made Of' with a stalactite. Or just look for Kirk and stalactite. The scene is about a minute. If you find a still of Kirk holding a huge, unfortunately shaped prop - yes, that is, in fact, a real still.)

Now keep your fingers crossed that I live long enough to do this.

The Russian one jumped out at me because I say it so much *ahem* and then I started looking at the rest, and oh boy.

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A plea for imperfection

Warning: Random rambling ahead.

A friend of mine is beta reading my YoI fan fiction and in the second part (Love Aims At One Scope) she got really mad at Viktor. She's only seen the anime once, and when he makes a rather nasty, off-hand statement to an OC who is trying to make him feel better, she couldn't see it.

But here's the deal, Viktor isn't as clean as he seems. He is the epitome of a person who has no filter.

In the real world, a lot of people who say that about themselves use it as an excuse to be cruel. They put others down intentionally and enjoy it, and when that person has the audacity to tell them they're hurt, they claim they were only joking or gaslight the person in some other way.

Mind you, that is NOT how I see Viktor.

He's a great guy, he cares, he's affectionate, he can be incredibly kind and understanding - and sometimes he talks before he thinks through what effect his words will have. And that sentence in my fic - as bad as it is - I think is completely in character. I really contemplated changing that, or at least have him say something that isn't THAT bad, but it's something I can see. That sentence will stay.

I love Viktor. He's a wonderful human being. But he's also an incredibly flawed deuteragonist who hides his shortcomings behind his charms so well it works in the real world, apparently, not just within the universe.

My friend has since decided she has to watch it again for several reasons, and she'll keep a lookout for this. Currently, she has Viktor as much on a pedestal as Yuuri did, it seems. But for me his less-than-wonderful traits are what make writing him so amazing. It makes him feel real to me, and relatable, and even if I sometimes want to whack him with a wet towel (the original version in the anime and my own), I still think he's a walking green flag. Most of the time. When he actually uses his brain.

As one of the people who voted for Jin Guangyao - I want to make it very clear that this wasn't meant as a Nie Mingjue diss OR because I believe Jiggy is promiscuous. He's not. I re-read the passage where people said he was faithful while slavering for his blood only yesterday. (Which, considering he couldn't touch his wife, is saying something.) ((Shoutout to Wei Ying, who thinks - okay, knows - Jin Guangyao is guilty as sin as far as Nie Mingjue and their trip to the Burial Mounds is concerned, but STILL realises that this lynch mob dynamic is horrid and exactly what happened to him and STILL tries to keep this fair and Sect Leader Yao under control. I really adore all of those people, oh God. I mean, not all. Not Sect Leader Yao. He's a piece of work.)) I love Nie Mingjue and Jin Guangyao. I'd never be mean to them. But the previous tags include the words 'speech check' and now I can't help thinking about 3zun as some weirdly escalating DnD session and I think I need help.

So my verdict is as follows: Eventually, they'd all be really good at it, if we think of a universe where they pass these speech checks and end up together. They'd want each other to feel good, which is a good starting point, and they know each other well.

I think Jin Guangyao would have restraints. I don't see him calling someone names during sex, even if that person would want that. I think he's heard too much of that in a very bad way to do that and wouldn't be able to separate real demeaning behaviour from play.

I think Lan Xichen would take too much care of the others and too little of himself, meaning they have to make sure he gets what he needs. At least at first. I like to think he'd learn to be a little selfish and the other two would just LOVE it when that happens.

I think Nie Mingjue would be extremely careful. He's strong and he knows he's not mentally okay. He'd have a hard time relaxing and letting himself fall. When he does, he'd be very passionate and probably an incredible lover.

In essence, I think all three would be extremely good at providing the other two pleasure and borderline horrible at chasing their own.

I can't believe those are words I have typed.

Malding abt that 3zun sex poll again. Come the fuck on guys just bc JGY knows the most about sex does not mean he's the best in bed. Like sure he knows the most about the physical act but emotionally this means the opposite in his case. He grew up in a brothel with, textually, really terrible worker protections. One of his fundamental character traits is accepting the way violence trickles down in society as a fact of life. He's the most likely out of all of them to have a panic attack in the middle of the act. All of them have "sex is inherently exploitative" worms to some extent but JGY's worms are the most material and specific. Nielan are inexperienced and skittish jocks the biggest problem you will have is calming them down enough to get them to consider that they can perhaps ethically fuck and then getting LXC to communicate consistently enough. Sleeping with JGY is a Silent Hill boss fight every time. He's not even significantly more experienced than Nielan he is NOT sleeping around. Come the fuck on. JGY may understand the mechanics of the act but he's the lay that gives you mental illnesses

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Shi Qingxuan finds himself in an unfamiliar place and in the care of the same woman that came to the beggars' temple.

What in the demisexual erasure is that take anyway?

"having sex with your friends is basically incest" is a take of all time

That one time I bought a cheap automatic wrist watch at a discount store, just to see if it would work for me. The cashier told me twice that it was a men's watch. Both times I said that I knew this and I wanted to buy it. If she'd said it a third time, I would have asked where she thinks a man would wear the watch so that I, as a woman, can't. Sadly, she clearly read on my face that it would be better to shut her trap.

dude today a customer brought me a birthday card and asked me "is this a girl birthday card or a unisex birthday card? I thought it was unisex but when I scanned it at the self-checkout it said girl birthday card." the birthday card was just a bunch of balloons with the text "happy birthday". and then when I was like "i dunno I think that's just the official name of the card on our system I'm sure a boy would be happy with the card" the customer was like "well if it is a girl birthday card can you tell me if this other birthday card is unisex or for girls? if the other card is unisex I'd like to exchange the girl birthday card for the unisex one". Like what. You can look at the cards. With your eyeballs. You are holding them both you can see them and decide whether or not you want the card. What the fuck are you talking about why are you asking me this

Dye Their Flowers With My Blood - The Long Day Wanes

Some nights are very long, and not for good reasons.