I Need More Friends

i physically cannot go outside without music, without my phone, without something. i cant go outside until ive had enough because i'll be bored by then. this should be my excuse for being so brain rotted, is that i cant have 0 stimulation. if i dont have stimulation i explode.

Not to go "if you have ADHD just go for a run" or anything, but I am so serious if you have ADHD you should regularly go outside, no headphones no phone no nothing and just stand and observe for a while until you've had enough. Not until you get bored, until you've had enough. Drink your coffee without watching tiktok. Have a bath without music. Turn down the volume in your headphones. I cannot overstate how much learning to be bored is cruicial with ADHD. Life is not just about pleasure, no matter what your dysregulated dopamine system thinks, and when you teach your brain to be okay with being bored, then boring tasks stop feeling like torture. By letting yourself be bored you are yoinking your system out of the high/low binary and allow for the highs to feel like actual highs and not just anything that isn't low. I am so serious go literally touch grass. Listen to the sounds in your flat. Stimulate your body the way it was designed. It lowers anxiety and makes you feel like you're real and best of all it's completely free

ai

okay i read over the ai feedback. sybau. i’m genuinely proud of the poem i wrote and the ai is telling me it’s good, but it’s just giving me small suggestions. it told me my “writing demonstrates a strong command of grammar” and then proceeded to give me grammar suggestions. also i don’t want to turn this into a sonnet… get out of my head ☹️☹️☹️

also one of the things was telling me there’s a “coherence gap”?? maybe if you actually READ the fucking poem you’d understand. just maybe. just a thought!!! idk guys maybe i just like when an actual human grades my shit

good morning

a question for the masses:

UGH LOOK AT THEMMMMM THE TENSION!!! JUST FUCK ALREADY!!!!

THE COLLECTOR (2009) dir. Marcus Dunstan

guitar

currently learning street spirit (fade out) by radiohead, it’s 10:38 pm i hope i don’t get slimed

i also have bio homework to finish but i’m so over bio i hate it and i hate all its stupid friends (i want to be a forensic scientist is this bad that i hate bio?)

math test results

alright my fucking bad for not studying… that 60% is GLARING at me. my teacher gave me PITY POINTS. yall be so fucking for real right now 💔💔💔 why didn’t i write any of the formulas… (i know why.)

goodnight

goodnight

life update

good morning tumblr, happy easter. i’m so tired and i need a shower but oh well. I won the easter egg hunt with 14-6 eggs. 🔥🔥🔥🔥

Wow!

yay! my friend helped me set up my tumblr today, this is so awesome! hello!!!

@frankcastleautism

instagram

i do NOTTTTT want a certain someone following me on instagram. GET HER OUTTA HEREEEEEE!!!!! PMOOOOOO UGHHHHHH‼️‼️‼️ bro she literally is the worst like she’s a wannabe gangster bop… pls get her outta here.