“Rich Forest Of Breath & Burrow”

Dreamed that I died. I immediately came back to life in a new body, but my dead body was just... laying around. I dressed my dead body in a long, navy blue dress. As I carried the body into my room, I thought "Hey! I can use this in my photography!"

As I tried to position the dead body so that I could photograph the two of us, the head on my dead body turned into a cat's head. It kept trying to bite me.

"Amateur Psychoanalysis"

self-portrait, acrylic on wooden board, 11.5 x 18

This is the first finished painting that I've done in over a year. It was inspired by the work of Jenny Saville, Francis Bacon, and Nicola Samori. My intention was to create a piece where only certain parts of the image were fully rendered, so as to show the various stages in a painting. In this case, only the left eye, the mouth, and the ear are complete; every other part of the image is left at an earlier stage of painting.

As for the title and the smear of the right eye... I don't know. They just kind of happened. Since the start of the piece, I envisioned the right eye as a smear of white paint. The title is how I referred to the piece mentally as I worked on it.

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The first chapter from my comix on life and learning after seven hundred and seventy-eight days on testosterone!

THIS COMIC IS INTENDED FOR MATURE READERS -- contains nudity, cigarettes, alcohol, and descriptions of gender dysphoria

The other chapters are

Trans Boy's Complaint - negotiating identity in light of gendered perception

Nutrisco et Extinguo - on the myth of testosterone rage

Double Stellar Black Hole - the experience of gender dysphoria when you don't know being transgender is a thing that exists

Adam Kadmon - for the first transgender man I ever knew 5.5 x 8.5, over 40 pages, surreptitiously printed in college computer labs

$6, plus shipping!

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Completed charity art commission!

I’m doing painted portrait commissions (in this style). Each piece is $45, $20 will be donated to @RAICESTEXAS, $20 will be donated to @AmazonWatch, $5 will be used for shipping the piece. Contact panicvolkushka@gmail.com or DM me.

And a process gif

I got kissed by a turtle dove upon a cold Paris manger I was waking up to my love, first moment dawning danger everything was new every sock and shoe my face and your face, tenderly renewed

tenderly renewed

"Christina's Farm" by Antony and the Johnsons

Based on a photograph of a man who survived a gunshot to the head during World War I.

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I’ve decided to become a person who paints and draws over unsuccessful sketchbook pages, rather than leaving them to fester.

Figure Study 2023

Work in progress pictures can be seen here

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In-progress color/composition study for my piece in the @tdvzine

bonus points if you can identify the art historical reference/inspiration

11/14/22 UPDATE: I’ve taken both “Naruto: The Last King, The Last Priest” and “Therapist R. J. Hill” off my etsy store. Both comics can be read, in their entirety, on this tumblr.

It’s here! A hard copy version of my comic -- including a ten page sequel! $5.00 + shipping

I was debating whether or not to post the sequel online. I thought maybe the sequel would be the motivator for people to buy the hard copy, but I already have mixed feelings about selling fanwork, so I’m gonna go ahead and post the sequel here.

That said, purchasing a hard copy helps me out. I’m hoping to put the money towards some color risograph zines that I can take to an upcoming comix convention.

I’m putting the sequel under a cut because, while it doesn’t contain explicit imagery, it does involve discussion of a parent making inappropriate/incestuous comments towards a child.

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This is as far as I had planned these comics going. I may revisit the idea, but probably not for awhile. Thanks for the wonderful messages that y’all have sent me!

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So I’ve scanned the pages of my risographed fashion study zine (you can buy that here)

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