Angry Goth + Happy Go Lucky Jesus Lady = Traumatized Sassy Girl That Likes Dogs

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I really don't hear enough people talk about the fact that Shadowheart was not only brainwashed as a child, but had her memories repeatedly wiped. This isn't just your run of the mill reeducation. Like we're talking about having your brain literally tampered with by magic on a metaphysical level which is so incredibly violating and just on a completely different level than the typical indoctrination you see an average cultist goes through.

Your memories and lived experience is fundamentally responsible for shaping the kind of person you are. We see how important memories are with Durge because once they lost their memories, they were no longer the same person and became someone entirely new. Shadowheart was frequently subjected to memory wipes since she was kidnapped as a child, forced to adopt Sharran dogma, and every time she started remembering things about her past or strayed from their teachings, they'd take her memories away again. Imagine the only memories you're allowed to keep are the ones your abusers let you, as they continue to alter your perception of reality in order for you to stay obedient to their control. This is gaslighting on a level we have literally never seen before irl.

It's no wonder Shadowheart says the things she says, and yet, somehow, against the strict doctrines and manipulation that's been hammered into her for decades, she always ends up reverting back to her true self. From Viconia's journal:

No matter how hard they tried, they couldn't erase the good in her. It's honestly impressive Shadowheart is able to fight the brainwashing to this extent. And when she's left alone for once with people who are patient with her and make her feel safe, when she's given enough time to find herself again without being reset back to square one every time she gained an inch? She thrives.

also I've had tumblr for like 3 days now and the fact that all their recommended posts and ads are Shadowheart related feels like I'm being targeted when I've posted TWICE

stop treating killing dragons as this act of bravery and valor. maybe ou should be kissieng and loving the dragons instead. and be more niceys

"We all deserve to be wicked, now and again." - Mother Superior Shadowheart

WIP: Wake Me Up

18+ for sexual content and violence, this is just a snippet from a future chapter

An alternate universe fic with no tadpoles and just Shar/Selûne bs where Tav and Shadowheart happen to meet up. Stupidity and shenanigans ensue. Probably gonna be a series bc I'm obsessed with the two of them.

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When Anaya spoke, her voice was strained. “Goddess of beauty and desire, allow your most devoted servant to worship at your altar.” 

Shadowheart lifted her chin imperiously, as if looking down on Anaya. This was such a new addition to their dynamic; they'd fucked before, but Anaya had been the one in control. She had done what she pleased with Shadowheart, not allowing or asking for any reciprocation. When Shadowheart tried to touch, she was met with punishing stares and harsh words. Anaya's body was not hers, not in the way Shadowheart was Anaya's. She had relished that at the time, only feeling it was unfair afterwards, but Anaya had assured her there would be ample opportunity to make it up to her. 

She intended to tonight. A perfect idea had already begun worming its way into her brain. 

“I see no devotion,” Shadowheart said, voice thick and low. Anaya's eyes roamed her chest greedily before she spoke, but redirected to her face at the sound of her voice. “Only lust.” 

It was a dark look. One that said if Shadowheart let her, she would consume her all night. 

“Allow me to prove my devotion, great goddess."

what is it with me and women with black/white hair and facial scars

Shadowheart, Cassandra: Loves smutty books, religious, can be religious leaders (and will not marry you sad), curt and no nonsense, easily annoyed

Ciri, Cassandra: Fights melee well (sorry Shadowheart), royalty/noble but rejects it, very long ass names, normie ears

Shadowheart, Ciri: were pawns for greater powers, bi/pan (book ciri was at least), brilliant green eyes, betrayed by an elf/drow, elven blood (ciri sorta does), weird about drowning (book ciri)

All three: loves smudgy, black eye shadows, softies underneath, traumatic childhoods, will backslap you like the lil bitch you are, lives in a very unsafe fantasy world, had nice male mentors

The trifecta big cvnt energy 🤌👸💃

PS. I was robbed of white hair Cassandra

Ready to kneel before your new goddess of Silver and Shadow? Good, because in just a few days, my new smut fic drops, featuring you, dear reader, and goddess Shadowheart. 🙏

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