I Was Having A Sad Day So Here’s Chapter 24.

"My favorite memory? Well, everyone has been to the zoo at least once in their lives."

Kaaru is a gentle and caring girl... for animals.

I love how we were all dupped into thinking FNAF 4 was the last game and then FNAF world blinked into existence and we were confused but then the sister location dropped and we all were like rabid ferrets and ate that shit up and demanded more.

Today is a pic of Kaaru at her 5th birthday party where she magically earns her hearing and begins to speak.

Over the years I've been asked by several bio family members what happened to "make" me "choose" being trans. This has always pissed me off because I didn't know what they wanted me to answer with. There was no one thing that "did it". It was years of abuse, neglect, and bullying from my own family that conditioned the many traits that now make up who I am. After one afternoon with my therapist I realized the start of my conditioning began when my father told me he was disappointed at my birth when I was a girl because he had hoped for a boy. Unfortunately for him my bio mom's three prior pregnancies, only one viable, were all girls, meaning there was almost a zero chance that I could have ever been a male at birth. But from that moment on I began to change myself to be as good of a kid as I could he wouldn't care that I was a girl. But then he began to shoot me down left and right, saying I wasn't built for it, saying I wasn't going to ever be able to do it. That coupled with the things my bio mom and her mom would tell me daily, I had no chance.

Being a trans man isn't something that can happen overnight. From my experience it can take years or even lifetimes to understand what it is. When I learned about transgender people in my sophomore health class, a lot of the things I had been feeling for my whole life finally made sense. I also often found myself asking anyone I could to learn all that was available to me to understand who I am and what i am.

It's not rocket science and I wish the ignorant among the population would get that into their heads. They just need to ask politely like @doberbutts. The only thing that pisses me off more than the ignorant being rude is when I explain it to them and then they refuse to believe me. When I told my father that he was the catalyst he spent the next hour trying to gaslight me into believing he wasn't. This is the same man who doesn't use my preferred name, preferred pronouns, and still calls me his daughter when introducing me to strangers.

I hope this answers some of your requests dober.

❗️❗️ This is asked entirely in good faith. This post is intended to open dialogue and help with solidarity and understanding. ❗️❗️

I would like to hear specifically from trans men and trans mascs how the system of [whatever the fuck you call the intersection of transphobia, misogyny, and specifically your gender- whether transandrophobia, isomisogny, antitransmasculinity, transandromisia, transmisandry, or any that I have missed as there are a lot of words to describe similar concepts] uniquely targets and affects you. Things that you feel other demographics do not experience. Reblogs and replies are very encouraged! If you would prefer, you could dm or send an ask to be added anonymously by me.

This is in the spirit of wanting to understand. I am listening. I encourage all non-trans-mascs to not speak on this topic and let trans mascs and trans men do the talking here. Reblog the post to spread it, but please say nothing.

Any and all people who identify as trans men and/or trans mascs are encouraged to participate.

This is not bait to start a fight. I will block without hesitation anyone who is actively being a shithead on this post. I want to hear and uplift your voices by getting it directly from you.

Click this to access the trans fem and trans women version of this post.

Click this to access the nonbinary version of this post.

Click this to access the intersex version of this post.

Bebe Kaaru with Legos.

(I cant draw hands. Marshmallow style don't fail me now!)

I have to do this now? Okay.

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Rules: Tag 9 people you'd like to know better

Favorite color: Hmmm. Red or black or galaxy. I dunno.

Top 3 ships: Mchanzo, Septiplier, aaaand Spideypool

Lipstick or chapstick: Uh, neither. Only on very special occasions do I use either. But uh, lipstick if I had to choose.

Last song: Jesus of Suburbia by Green day

Last Movie: The Whole Nine Yards

Tagging:

@dilfosaur @scaryspookycoin @spinel-and-the-diamonds @ssaravinter @seigiva @dragonic-solitary @anleva @adragonandhisfool @hanzo-appreciationstation

get to know me tag

tagged by @katherinewaterston, thank you so much!!

rules: tag 9 people you’d like to get to know better

favorite color: blue 

top 3 favorite ships: adam x ronan (trc), patroclus x achilles (tsoa), percy x annabeth (pjo)

lipstick or chapstick: chapstick

last song: last young renegade - all time low

last movie: captain america: the winter soldier

currently reading: vengeful by v. e. schwab 

tagging: @tessawilliam @farleydiana @azriels @zoyagenya @darnelcress @ofbooksandstardust @jacksonperseus @inejsghafas @audreyrose

Enemy team: About to snipe ult on their Hanzo

Their Mccree: Right behind them with the barrel of his gun on the back of the enemy's head. "Parry this you fuckin casual."

Day 19-31!

Kaaru and Jedediah decided they were going to have an early midlife crisis and travel the world in a rental taco truck.

Chapter 12!

Chapter 13 comes out February 26th!

Chapter 3! I’ve tried three times now to do this! Please enjoy the my labor.

Chapter 4 will come out Wednesday.