“NOW EAT THIS, SUCKERRR!”

replacement suggestion for people who want the drama of Arahabaki being a voice in Chuuya's head that yearns for destruction and stuff (since canonically it has no thoughts or will of its own and is just raw power):

Picture our Nakahara "I do everything for my friends" Chuuya, Nakahara "with great power comes great responsibility" Chuuya, Nakahara "if I compartimentalize my trauma it can't hurt me" Chuuya.

Picture our guy so raw from using Corruption, or maybe not dealing as well as he thinks with his trauma, or maybe just really tired, or any moment of weakness where you'd want the Arahabaki whispers to kick in.

In those moments of weakness, the Bad Feelings get a hold of him: self-doubt, despair, anger, loneliness. It's so unusual for him to dwell on those things it might as well sound like someone else is feeding him those thoughts. Maybe it adds another layer of frustration. Maybe it does make him want to blow everything up, just to let off some of those feelings.

And maybe in that already bad state of mind, intrusive thoughts enter the field. Things he doesn't really want and things he would never do. Things that make him uncomfortable, things that scare him. He would be able to bring down the Port Mafia. He could kill all those random civilians. He could run away. He already has black holes at the tip of his fingers, he could just destroy everything and leave nothing behind.

And between the very real (but enhanced, put at the forefront) bad feelings and the persistant intrusive thoughts, things might get jumbled in his head. If missing departed friends is real, maybe wanting to get rid of those left is, too. If he's angry at how unfair things have been for him and his loved ones, blowing everything up might be a legitimate reaction. Maybe it really is what he wants? Perhaps that little voice, no matter how scary, is right?

In short: replace "Arahabaki" with "Chuuya's subconscious", for better and for worse. Not to quote Dazai, but: let Chuuya suffer as a human being. Let his struggles be tragically mundane and common.

(and for comfort there's nothing like bringing other people in for a reality check and ground him again)

Love me a good fictional floor plan.

Floorplan of the Armed Detective Agency Office, From Guidebook Vol. 1 - English Translation

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"Dying is not the opposite of living. It's merely a component of the process of life",

- Dazai Osamu

A while back my pharmacist saw my deadname on my profile and accidentially called it out, he corrected and deleted my deadname from the system so only my preferred name shows up now. There was a crowd of people behind me, so as he hands over the pills he apologized, in equal tone and volume as when he called my deadname and lied saying it's been a long day and he didn't mean to call out -his own- name. I quietly told him it was fine and he didn't need to do that for my sake.

His response: "No, it's my name now."

I went to the pharmacist yesterday, his nametag is my deadname. He informed me he's immigrating and in the process he's changed his first name to my deadname to have an English sounding name. That's why he's now able to get a reprint of his nametag to be my deadname. And repeated, with the intense seriousness of someone who is going to die on this hill: "It's mine now. Not yours. I'm taking." His tone indicated that decision is final.

Bro literally deadnamed me once, and has committed to flat out stealing my deadname. It's his now. Legally. Officially. I over heard his co-workers call him by the name.

There is an alternate universe where humans live in peace with monsters. I need to know where it id for.........research purposes.

Idea: Chuuya Nakahara from Bungo Stray Dogs as Circus Baby from FNAF SL.

...cause they're red heads.

None of this means anything to me but being able to read the lines is funny in concept so I'm screenshotting it just in case someone else wants to look at it. Also the fact that he gets warnings towards the end there cracks me up (this is the screen while Fyodor is setting up the elevator to flood in Meursault)

binary star - a system of two stars that are gravitationally bound to each other (ex. sirius, the dog star)

more astronomy au content who cheered !! i say as i look out to the silent crowd

Akutagawa 🥺

The only reason I don’t draw or write about aku that much is because I know damn well if I dive into him I’m gonna love him and get sucked into a rabbit hole that will emotionally destroy me. But this was fun to draw.