Now That I've Ruined Everything, I'm Fuckin Free

My crazy thoughts are driving me crazy like six feet under and I can't take it anymore

Smh😓

Christmas is coming, should I hang decorations or myself 🙂

I think love and pain have a symbiotic kind of relationship. They are intertwined like twigs in a crown of thorns . You cannot have one without the other .

I'm earth. I choose to become earth l, to embrace each season, each love, each friendship in it's lifetime. To realize each season when it goes without questioning why or when it would happen again. On nights when I look up, the sky is full of million stars, clouds and all . I rejoice to be part of that heavenly orbit. On days when it rains, I open up to the softness and touch of rain and drink to my fill. When the sun comes out, I welcome the warmth and the heat . I have found the joys of being mellow in spite of the scars . I have been earth since that hectic day..

For a whole week I was a bundle of nerves and only a thin sheet of mercy held me from losing myself. Half the time I was dizzy and suicidal, the other half of the time I was truly mad.