CRYBABY - DESTROY BOYS :3!!!!

Here’s mine! :3

Adding those to my list :3

Just to let you know, if we ever watch horror movies together I will be screaming, jumping, and crying at everything, even if it’s not a jumpscare because I’m such a goddamn coward

I’ll just be sitting there

YAYAYY

Just to let you know, if we ever watch horror movies together I will be screaming, jumping, and crying at everything, even if it’s not a jumpscare because I’m such a goddamn coward

I’ll just be sitting there

ɪɴᴛʀᴏ?..🥀

୨୧ ɪ’ᴍ ʀᴀɪɴᴇ/ʀᴀᴠᴇɴ! ☕️

୨୧ ᴅᴇᴘʀᴇssᴇᴅ ʙᴜᴛ ᴡᴇʟʟ ᴅʀᴇssᴇᴅ ɴᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴍᴏʀᴇ <𝟹

୨୧ ᴄᴏᴠᴇʀᴇᴅ ɪɴ sɪʟᴋʏ ʙʟᴀᴄᴋ ʀɪʙʙᴏɴs

୨୧ sʜᴇ/ʜᴇʀ ⛈️

୨୧ ʜᴏʙʙɪᴇs: ʀᴇᴀᴅɪɴɢ, ʙᴀᴋɪɴɢ, ʀᴇᴀᴅɪɴɢ, sʟᴇᴇᴘɪɴɢ, ᴛᴜᴍʙʟʀ, ʀᴏʙʟᴏx 🫀

୨୧ ғᴀᴠ ᴀʀᴛɪsᴛs: ᴅᴇsᴛʀᴏʏ ʙᴏʏs, ᴍᴄᴄᴀғғᴇʀᴛʏ, ʟᴀᴜғᴇʏ, ᴍɪᴛsᴋɪ, ᴡᴇᴇᴢᴇʀ, ᴍsɪ, ᴀʏᴇsʜᴀ ᴇʀᴏᴛɪᴄᴀ, ᴛɴʙʜᴅ, (ᴀɴᴅ ᴍᴏʀᴇ!) 🎸🎧

୨୧ ᴀsᴋ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ! ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʙᴇ sʜʏ xx

୨୧ ᴄᴜʀʀᴇɴᴛ ʀᴇᴀᴅs: ᴛʜᴇ ɢɪᴠᴇʀ (ǫᴜᴀʀᴛᴇᴛ) + ᴛᴡɪʟɪɢʜᴛ (ғᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍɪʟʟɪᴏɴᴛʜ ᴛɪᴍᴇ) 📚

୨୧ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ ᴄᴀʟʟ ᴍᴇ ʀᴀᴠᴇ ɪғ ᴡᴇ’ʀᴇ ᴍᴜᴛᴜᴀʟs! <𝟹

୨୧ ғᴀᴠ ʙᴏᴏᴋs: ᴛᴡɪʟɪɢʜᴛ sᴀɢᴀ, ɪ ᴀᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴘᴇʀғᴇᴄᴛ ᴍᴇxɪᴄᴀɴ ᴅᴀᴜɢʜᴛᴇʀ, ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴀᴛᴇ ᴜ ɢɪᴠᴇ + sᴜɢᴀʀ 📓

୨୧ ɪɴᴛᴇʀᴇsᴛs: ⭐️ ᴍᴏᴜᴛʜᴡᴀsʜɪɴɢ ᴛʟᴏᴜ/ᴛʟᴏᴜ𝟸 ᴘʟᴜsʜɪᴇs ɴᴇᴡ ʙᴏᴏᴋ ʀᴇᴄs ᴀʀᴄᴀɴᴇ

ɪғ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴛʏʟᴇʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʀᴇᴀᴛᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʀᴇ ɪᴍᴍᴇᴅɪᴀᴛᴇʟʏ ᴍʏ ʙsғ 💋

ʜᴇᴀᴛʜᴇʀs. ᴏʜ ɢᴏᴅ ғᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ʜᴇᴀᴛʜᴇʀs ɪᴍ ɪɴ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ɪᴛ 💕 ᴄᴏsᴍᴏᴋɴɪɢʜᴛs (ʙᴏɴᴜs ɪғ ʏᴋ ᴛʜɪs ᴄᴏᴍɪᴄ) ⭐️

୨୧ sᴀᴅ ʙᴏᴏᴋs ᴀʀᴇ ᴀɴ ᴏʙsᴇssɪᴏɴ

୨୧ ɪ’ʟʟ ᴘᴏsᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ, ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪ ʟɪᴋᴇ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴡʜᴀᴛᴇᴠᴇʀ ɪs ʀᴇʟᴀᴛᴀʙʟᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ (ʜᴏᴘᴇғᴜʟʟʏ ᴛᴏ ʏᴏᴜ, ᴛᴏᴏ! <𝟹)

୨୧ ɪ’ᴅ ʙᴇ ɢʟᴀᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴍᴜᴛᴜᴀʟs! ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʙᴇ ᴀ sᴛʀᴀɴɢᴇʀ 💕

୨୧ ᴛʜɪs ɪs ᴀʟsᴏ ᴀ ᴠᴇɴᴛ ᴘᴏsᴛ sᴘᴏᴛ <𝟹

୨୧ ʏᴏᴜ’ʟʟ ʜᴇᴀʀ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʟᴏᴜ𝟸/ᴀʀᴄᴀɴᴇ/ ᴍᴏᴜᴛʜᴡᴀsʜɪɴɢ + ᴄᴏsᴍᴏᴋɴɪɢʜᴛ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀs ᴏɴ ᴛʜɪs ᴘᴀɢᴇ

୨୧ ɪ ᴍɪɢʜᴛ ᴘᴏsᴛ ᴍʏ ᴘᴏᴇᴍs (ᴡʜᴏ ᴋɴᴏᴡs?)

ᴡʀɪᴛᴛᴇɴ ʙʏ ᴍᴀxxxɪɴᴇ

small update!!

𝜗𝜚 my aunt is getting me piano lessons!!

𝜗𝜚 im cleaning my room more often!

𝜗𝜚 my algebra teacher is giving me assistance with my homework (reminder that im in 8th grade :3)

𝜗𝜚 my friends and i are making plans!!

changing myself for the better!🤍

gonna try to change, because my life is going down and I can’t sink to the floor.

personal changes!! 🤍

𝜗𝜚 learn fluent french

𝜗𝜚 learn piano

𝜗𝜚 clean room once a week again (used to be a neat freak)

𝜗𝜚 apply for a basic job (just to get out the house and get money)

𝜗𝜚 finding a better outlet for emotions

𝜗𝜚 create a secret food stash

𝜗𝜚 become engrossed with books again

𝜗𝜚 find better hobbies

𝜗𝜚 learn how to tango/ salsa (or a form of dance in general, I have 2 left feet)

academic changes!! 📚

𝜗𝜚 study from 12-4 (on weekends)

𝜗𝜚 get a tutor (for math)

𝜗𝜚 complete 3 short response questions for application + apply for program

physical changes!! 🍵🧘🏽‍♀️

𝜗𝜚 go to gym from 10-12 (weekends)

𝜗𝜚 work out at home

𝜗𝜚 purchase skincare

𝜗𝜚 purchase clothes

𝜗𝜚 purchase books/makeup

if anyone has tips on how to achieve any please let me know!

i go into high school this year and i just want to be the best version of myself 🤍

i’ll come back to this in 2026, or I’ll add updates 😋😋

time to glow up or grow up

one step at a time!

what if you and Sevika had a lesbian situationship divorce and she goes on a shimmer bender crashout

content warnings: blood, violence, self-destructive thoughts, uhmm chaotic angst

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like she just doesn’t stop using it. she has a belt full of Shimmer cartridges and uses three at a time whether she’s fighting or just needs a kick, an escape.  

uses it even when she goes to the brothel and just picks any girl who looks remotely like you. she sees you in the sky, hears your voice echo through the streets, feels your hands on her skin when she’s in the gardens, thinks if she closes her eyes she can almost believe the girl she’s with is actually you. calls out your name huskily when she comes. hates herself for it but can’t stop the cycle. and she always fucks on Shimmer, rushing through her veins. making everything dizzy and hot.

she does it even more because she remembers how you always scolded her for using Shimmer, saying it would eventually destroy her. a part of her wants to destroy herself for leaving you. a part of her hopes you’ll save her before she does. 

one night she gets caught up in a street fight and takes on like ten muggers at once. they have knives and masks and want her Shimmer supply, she laughs with the freedom of a woman who has lost all hope. last thing she remembers is thinking, “oh, baby’s not gonna like this.”

you hear a bang on your door in the middle of the night and you jump out of your half-sleep, a knife in your hand. you’re so sure the enforcers finally found you and you know you’re not going down without a fight. you open the door, gripping the blade so tight your palm aches. but there are no enforcers. it’s just Ran, their eyes wide and desperate. they’re propping up a lifeless figure, knees nearly buckling under the weight. Sevika. 

your first thought: Oh Janna. I’ve lost her. 

the knife falls to the floor with a clatter. you open the door wide enough to let Ran in, more dragging Sevika than walking her. you cast a swift look up and down the street to make sure they had no unwanted company following them, then you shut the door firmly and run over to help Ran prop Sevika in a chair. 

“I was gonna take her to Singed,” Ran explains. “but do you know what she said? ‘fuck Singed. i’m not going to Singed.” 

Ran looks at you. “she told me to take her to you, or let her bleed out in the street.” 

you fall to your knees in front of Sevika, and you try to keep your hands from shaking as you inspect her. she’s in bad shape. her mech arm is broken and shimmer leaks out from its wires onto the floor. her shirt is torn and bloody. her face is darkened with bruises and blood, but even in this state you’re confident that whatever she did to the goons that attacked her was ten times worse. 

she stirs awake, half-conscious. grey eyes look up at you in a haze. you wish she hadn’t. you wish she just stayed unconscious. because now that she’s giving you those eyes you can’t even remember why you were angry, you can’t even remember the emotion itself. 

you want to cling to even the memory of being angry at her, just so you don’t fall apart looking at her like this. 

“help me move her to the bed,” you tell Ran, and together you prop Sevika up again and lay her down on your bed. you barely notice the Shimmer staining your clothes, all you can see is the shallow rise and fall of her chest. 

“i can take it from here,” you tell Ran. “thanks.” 

“just…keep her alive.” 

when Ran is gone, you set to work cleaning the wounds. the cuts aren’t as deep as you feared, only one - a gash across her right forearm -  needing stitches. Sevika stirs and groans just as you finish dressing the cuts. she mutters something. you lean in close and hear her whispering your name.

“i gotta tell her…” Sevika trails off. “i gotta tell her i’m sorry.” 

something fails in your heart when you hear this. you smooth her hair out of her eyes and kiss her forehead. 

“i’m right here, you idiot.” 

Sevika’s eyes open and rest on your face. and you’re thinking fuck, fuck. whatever she did or said to hurt you didn’t come close to the sharp pain of seeing her expression relax, her eyes soften with relief. you take her face in your hands, rubbing her cheek with your thumb. 

“i’m sorry, too.”

who wants to be the breeze in my austin nights? (Mitski reference)

no amount of posting i NEED. a girlfrined will ever materialize one :(((

destroy boys, mccafferty, mitski, and MSI mentioned

YES

LOVE THEM SM

who r u pooks

been getting into mouthwashing

anya design by the lovely joetastic :3

so sorry for my absence again! i really need to get better at posting consistently (and crossposting for that matter,,,, did u know i have an instagram and a twitter??) thank you so much for your support!!

WE ARE ADORBFREAKSS

me when u 💗

me when you pookie <3