Fuck. Yes.

Dear Forever! You carried me through the most challenging part of starting to publish in English. You never mocked me or made fun of my weird English. You just silently edited my fics to be readable to others! You put countless hours into that even though you have problems and projects! When I started and needed help - you reached out in under a minute and grabbed my hand. And recently, you gifted me with a naked Thrawn. Ah, I keep opening that image for inspiration 🤭 Thank you for that! I'll be glad about that forever!

I love you, my friend, and I thank you so, so much for your endless and genuine support of me and my projects, and your kindness to everyone ! You are a gift to the world and the most generous heart at the core of our fandom. 🫡

What's the story behind ur username

I was 42 when I picked it, it’s a play on the very popular teen girl clothing store Forever 21, so it implies that I’m older yet immature; but also, if you’re familiar with The Hitchhiker’s Guide To The Galaxy, 42 is the answer to life, the universe, and everything. Thank you for the ask.

Commission for precious @cyber-glitch85

Musings On Thrawn

Let me begin this by stating up front; Thrawn is a villain. A brilliant, fascinating, charismatic villain, but a villain nonetheless. He is Holmes and Rommel and Moriarty all rolled into one. (Please don’t hate me for this.)

And I’ve tried to keep that front of mind as I have been writing this massive Alexsandr Kallus fic, Especially now that I am into the cat and mouse section where Kallus is spying for the rebels as Fulcrum, but having to interact with Thrawn on an almost daily basis. 

To prepare to write this I reread all the Thrawn books. I even read the first Heir to Empire, and if people thought Thrawn was vile in Rebels he was far worse in that Legends novel. I’ve also been rewatching a number of Rebel’s episodes.

In the books Tim tries very hard not to have Thrawn be as loathsome as Tarkin or Vader and succeeds, but it’s still important to remember he is not a good, kind man. Yes, he tries to limit civilian casualties… when possible, but he won’t let the death of innocents stand in the way of a victory. In the end it’s always about the cold equation.

In the Ascendency novels he makes it clear to Admiral Ba’kif that he would have destroyed the planet Sunrise and all of its inhabitants in order to destroy the Grysk threat to the Chiss. And he would have leveled Capital City if Ezra had not capitulated.

He also uses and discards his own troops in the service of tactics and strategy. In Treason he cold bloodily sends a number of Tie pilots to their deaths to verify his theory about the alien’s battle tactics. War for Thrawn is like a giant game of tactica or chess.

I do love the fact that Thrawn was the perfect Chiss to send into Lesser Space to serve in the Empire. While Thrawn, unlike many of his fellow Chiss, is able and willing to work with aliens he comes from a culture that is every bit as bigoted as the high human cult in the Empire. Which is another reason he can so easily slide into serving Palpatine.

Basically, he seems to be a man who has great difficulty forming personal relationships. (To be fair Tim has no choice, but to write books that focus on battles and strategy and political skullduggery and not much on the inner lives of the characters, and it certainly provides fanfic authors a rich playing field. Actually that is one of my complaints about the books. Nobody seems to have any personal attachments. Eli blithely waltzes off to the Ascendancy without a thought for his parents, but I digress). 

So, to lay our Blue Meanie on the coach for a moment….

All of his relationships take the form of mentor to mentee whether it’s with Thrass or Ar'alani or Samakro or Che’ri or Faro or Eli. And his emotional reactions to Thrass’ death, or sending away Eli seem very muted. The books do give us a potential reason for this reticence – the loss of the sister. The fear that he would be hurt again makes him avoid deep relationships and leaves him isolated. 

At his core, I think Thrawn is a man of the mind and not the heart. I think he fears strong emotion, passion because it might cloud his judgement, and open him up to pain again. 

All of which combines to make him a tragic figure. Which really is the best kind of villain. The ones who had the possibility to be heroes, but are brought low by their own fatal flaw.

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The demon and the mouse 😅 love it 💖💙

17, 19, and 25 for the artist asks!

Oh, hi there! 17 Let me see... Ur inspiration...

There is a super-talented author who ALWAYS made my mind blow up. Her stories are engaging and entertaining and can turn my worst day into my best in a few hours. I can read from her fluff and smut, whichever I need atm. And the feels what I get when I read those fanfics... Sometimes I didn't even finish a chapter, I needed to stop and search for my iPad to start drawing right away! In mid-sentence! And I can't concentrate on anything till it's finished... 

There is another super-talented author who I adore, and I love every fanfic from her. She usually makes me drop everything else too, and I just need to do a fanart of her fics because they are so fun, moving, and hot 🥰 Looking at you @foreverforty2 👀💙😇 

Other sources of inspirations are the same old boring places, the comics, the books, and of course endless hours of DAYDREAMING 😇🫠

19. Rec. Art Supply I hope I understand the question 😂 Uhm... Currently, I use a 2016 iPad pro with a 1. gen apple pencil for sketches and line art, and sometimes for coloring. But the number of layers are limited there. So, I don't recommend doing anything serious. But my lovely and sweet husband lend me over his 2021 iPad pro with the 2. gen apple pencil. That's the stuff! It's fast and has plenty of power to maintain as many layers as I wish. For anything serious, I would recommend that. 

25 Piece U can't finish... uh no!

I shamefully present you this:

I would be so happy If I would finish this! But sadly, I'm unable to continue it. I tried countless times, but every time I tried to touch it, it became worse...

It's frustrating and sad at the same time, but I hope one day I'll be able to finish it!

Ty for asking! 🥰💙😈🐁

A gift for @thespicypapaya, a commission for me done by @blackmonitor of a scene I chose from papaya’s fanfic; Enjoy! https://archiveofourown.org/works/43339410

Hi there friend!

I just again wanted to say to you that your writings are amazing and you are very talented! I hope I can buy all of your novels in the near future! ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you 🫠 Your support means so much to me !!! And I’m so glad I write things you love too (and I love to sneak you extra content ahaha, because I know you will appreciate it) ! I think we have similar taste 🤭 All my love to you 💝

when orion became optimus and immediately got that aching sadness in his eyes you can see in every other version of him i cant do this