Fenrirazrael - Fenriz

Something I had to learn upon entering the left hand path, was that self deification (becoming a god/dess) is not egocentrism. I was raised in the common Christian mindset that people who don't believe in God try to put themselves above him. That they're selfish and apathetic and only care about themselves. They're trying to become God, quite like the tower of Babel Story. How vain of them—right?

What I realized as I followed this new path, in which the ultimate goal of my life has become self deification, is that that process is not about egocentrism, it's about being in control. About being accountable. Something that most Christians are not.

To them, bowing to a god means giving up all responsibilities and critical thinking, under the disguise of being humble and worshipping God as the highest of beings. Meanwhile LHP practitioners call themselves god, distinctly because we take full responsibility. Because we know that we are the only person who can control our life and we must take accountability for all that we do. That is what makes us a god. The god of our own lives.

I think what Christians don't understand is that we don't make ourselves god of other people. Unlike them, who try to make their god everyone's God. If anyone is egocentric, it's really them and their version of righteousness. But surely not me by taking the responsibility that they avoid by simply hiding behind the words and morals of someone who controls their entire life.

So I'll let them call me egocentric. If that's what it takes to be my own god, I'll risk looking like a self centered, apathetic bitch to everyone else. At least I get to make my own decisions.

Pagan Barn Owl

💬 Just a Small Update, and a Big Thank You

Dear friends, kind hearts, and everyone who has stood with us,

When I first opened my heart to the world and shared our story, I never imagined the amount of love and solidarity we would receive. Thanks to your incredible support, we’ve now reached $12,837—a milestone that brings real light to some very dark days.

From the deepest corners of my heart, thank you.

💔 A Journey of Loss, but Also of Strength

As many of you know, I’ve lost 25 of my loved ones during this devastating war. That grief lives with me every single day. It’s in the silence that once held laughter, in the empty spaces where we once gathered as a family.

But through your help, I’ve also felt something else: hope. And that hope is priceless.

“21/Oct/2023 Before It Reached Us: The Day Our Neighbor’s House Was Destroyed” A quiet moment of fear, filmed just before everything changed.

“22/Oct/2023 The Morning After: Our Family Home in Ruins” This is what was left behind after the bombing of our home.

🌿 What Life Looks Like for Us Now

Despite everything, we’re still here. Still surviving. Still hoping.

But things have only gotten harder.

The war has returned, more brutal than before—and for over a month now, Gaza has been completely sealed off. No food is coming in. No medical supplies. No aid. No trade. No one is allowed to leave, and no one is allowed to enter.

We’re trapped.

🏚 We live with the fear of tomorrow, every single day. Airstrikes, drones, and the uncertainty of what might happen next. 👨‍👩‍👧 Our family is forever changed—we haven’t just lost people; we’ve lost pieces of ourselves. 📉 Basic needs go unmet—even clean water feels like a luxury now. Medicines, if they exist at all, are unreachable.

And yet…

Your support reminds us that we’re not forgotten. It reminds us that someone, somewhere, is still listening. That someone still cares. That we’re not completely alone in this.

Every message. Every share. Every dollar. It tells us: You’re walking this road with us. And that gives us the strength to keep going.

💖 What You Can Do

If you’ve already donated—thank you beyond words. If you can share our story again, it could reach someone who can help.

Even $5 means warmth, comfort, and a chance to breathe a little easier.

Chuffed

Donate to Help Mosab saving who's left of his family

My name is Mosab Elderawi, and I am a survivor of the war in Gaza. Life as I knew it has been completely destroyed. I have lost my home, my

✨ Why It All Matters

This isn’t just about reaching a fundraising goal. It’s about surviving war with dignity. It’s about believing in tomorrow. It’s about making sure my daughter grows up knowing that the world did not look away.

Thank you for your kindness, patience, and belief in our humanity. You’ve helped me find my voice—and I will use it to keep hope alive.

🙏 From the Heart: A Quiet Apology

There’s something I need to say—something that’s been on my heart for some time.

When I first began sharing our story, I didn’t know what the right way was. I was scared, grieving, and trying to protect my family in any way I could. I reached out to many people, hoping someone, anyone, would see us. In that process, I now realize I may have overstepped, and I might have made some feel overwhelmed.

If that happened, I am truly sorry.

Please believe me when I say it was never out of disregard or pushiness. It came from a place of fear—fear of being forgotten, fear of not being able to keep my family safe, fear of watching everything I love slip away in silence.

I’m learning as I go. I’ve slowed down. I’m more mindful now, trying to share our journey in a way that feels respectful of the space and hearts of those listening.

If my words ever came at the wrong time, or in the wrong way, I hope you can understand where they came from—and I hope you can forgive me.

Thank you for seeing past my mistakes. Thank you for still being here. It means more than I can ever explain.

Vetted by @gazavetters ( #309 )

With love and endless gratitude, Mosab and family ♥️

"In March I'll be rested, caught up and human."

– Sylvia Plath, from a letter to "Aurelia Plath" written c. February 1953

Sometimes I just need to make a really shitty meme for fun.

Tomodachi life is going to take up majority of my personality for the foreseeable future

I wasn't expecting to run into an incredible Metroid post on Tumblr today...

metroid is about isolation

but metroid is also about learning to do trick jumps from random animals who celebrate when you get it right, and about saving them even as the planet shudders under your feet

and metroid is about lowering your gun when you meet the last of a species who's only just hatched, and gently holding out your hand

and metroid is about accidentally calling the name of someone you care about, who you thought you'd lost, and finding out they've been with you the whole time

and about a little scribble of a child with their parents tucked into the corner of a grand mural

and about the gifts left behind by others because they may be gone before they get to meet you, but that won't stop them from helping you

metroid is about love actually

i wonder how winter will be with a spring that i shall never see

-Erblicket Die Tochter Des Firmaments - Burzum

Gunnar Silins, Under the Sign of the Black Mark (1987)