I FOUND IT AGAIN

Poem first try

Blue or green Shadow or light Me or you All those question Without answers I thought easy But then it hit You hit You hit me hard It swifted me off my feets Now I lay here Staring at the sky Crying without knowing Breathing unnoticed Alive but not Death but not Being me Whatever that means

All ten of my followers are actually hostages I have tied up in an abandoned grain silo & am monologuing to

I recently saw a post from an asexual talking about how sex obsessed our society is and I am allo myself so I obviously don't know how it is from a perspective of someone who feels no sexual attraction. I have sexual trauma however so I tend to be a bit more sensitive towards sexual adds or nudes in media.

So I saw this advertisement in my city that was displayed on electronic screens that kinda scroll through two or three different ads, which meant the ad wasn't always showing but would rather kinda pop up. And this ad was just seriously a grown man completely naked with only a surgical mask covering up his penis.

I have no clue what this advertisement tried to sell/promote but when ever I encountered it, it would give me a fucking shock to my system because I was traumatized from being flashed by men without my consent for years.

It's a mystery to me how people can be opposed to queer media that might show them interact romantically or with kissing and cry out about how this promotion of same sex attraction is damaging kids with these over sexual things like gay marriage! Behaving like our media doesn't show half naked men and women constantly in advertisement and similar things to kids amd everyone else.

Sex is a huge part of our culture but it is handled in the most confusing way I can imagine. It's being used to sell products to us, however talking about it is not okay? There is so much double standard and paradox rules that create this hostile environment against anything or anyone who doesn't exactly do what the rules tell you to (ergo shut about your own sex live but endure any and all sexual media we promote to you because we know what you like better than you)

Asexual people, queer people, traumatized people and even anyone who likes things considered not "normal" or "the norm" is harmed by this systematically!!!!!

Sex isn't something bad, not wanting sex isn't something bad either!!!!!

Let people live their lives, identities and preferences however they want!!!!

Let's work towards a society in which people aren't constantly bombarded with a specific idea of what sex and anything surrounding it has to look like but rather are presented with a variety of diverse representation that they can consume.

I'm fairly new to rebloging so I hope it's okay I'm adding to your post.

I just wanna share my experience with top surgery and having doubts before hand:

I started working towards getting top surgery when I was around 18 and because I was still in school and live (plus the fact this shit just tends to take forever) I only slowly got everything together for the surgery.

That meant I started the process 4 years before my actual surgery date. When I started I was fairly sure but the closer I got to the surgery the more doubts started to occupy my brain. I had a lot of therapy in the meantime and started liking myself more, which is good. However it unfortunately had the negative side effect of a part of me using this as an argument against top surgery. Because if I can learn to like myself I can learn to be okay with my boobs right?

I still don't think that's wrong, I think that yes I could have learned to be okay, be neutral towards my boobs instead of the major dislike that fueled my decision 4 years prior to walk down this path.

However despite that argument I decided to stick with my decision and get top surgery. And let me tell you: I'm so glad I did.

Because after nearly 8 months I can say with no doubt it was the right decision for me. It was the right decision not because I couldn't have accepted my boobs at some point but because without them I'm happy in a way I didn't know I could be with my body.

I look in the mirror and I get this happy giddy feeling in my stomach of seeing myself in a normal ass T-shirt but flat. I am overjoyed at dressing up fancy because it means I get to wear all the cool dress shirts I aquired over the years that finally look exactly how I also wanted them to look like.

Even my friends and family told me that the way I look makes more sense kinda. Like I look more like myself than before. Which yeah I do because I didn't feel comfortable with my boobs but also because even if I would have been alright with them I would never felt as enthusiastic about them as I do about my flat chest!

Having had top surgery made me happy and feel home in my body in a way that I didn't fully grasp beforehand. And I am so happy I stuck with my decision and didn't let the doubts get to me ^^

the good news is this *probably* won’t actually push back my timeline for top surgery, but I still let myself have a little tantrum about it because we respect all feelings in this house

hey ever wonder what kind of wizard you are? now with my magic uquiz you can find out (and get a fun theme song) (nothing to do with jk r*wling or harold) 🔮

Hey you can cry OK? I am taking my pocket knife and I'm cutting my peach in half and handing you the bigger half. The world is full of things that are worth crying over and it can be exhausting trying to listen to everyone saying don't cry. And it can be worse trying not to cry because you don't want bad things to win. Sometimes you gotta just let yourself cry while eating a peach half someone wanted to give you because it was sweet and those things are also in the world too.

some of you guys have GOT to remember about fun

droplets