:333 I'm Super Happy You Liked My Lil Ramblings ! As For Daemon Choices, I Read All Your Posts ! A Swan

(...) get me out of this suit i go to a funeral every day i follow these people around i follow these people like a rat's tail i carry their caskets, i sing them good night they're better off without me

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My skin so thin you can see black holes within my eyes so clear they light up the sky and sometimes i'll bend into the silicone veil and enter this world again as a ghost

(...) Oh, let me in, let me out, let me in, LET ME OUT The Silicone Veil, Susanne Sundfør

🎃 movie night in 1994 🎃 you can decide what the babies are watching, but in my head it's The Crow 🐦 I just needed to draw something that brought back some feeling of comfort and happiness from my childhood, to escape the absolute shitshow that is French politics right now 🫠 and I loved nothing more as a child than to bury myself underneath all the pillows and blankets of the house with my plushies to watch 'The Adventures of Baron Munchausen' for the umpteenth time. So, here is a rendition I guess.

I hope it can bring comfort to you as well to see smol Artemis and Juliet enjoying a movie (Artemis being super focused as always, and Juliet being absolutely unable to sit still and contorting in weird yoga positions also as always) 💜 (did my best with the TV lighting but on my computer screen I feel like it looks like shit. well, I'll have to live with it, I've already spend an entire weekend on this thing)

BPD Awarness Month

On top of May being mental health awareness month, it’s also BPD (Borderline personality disorder) awareness month. I don’t even have enough words to describe what it feels like living with BPD. It has been my tool to survival and will eventually be my demise. Life with BPD is the hardest. You are emotionally fucked. You are toxic to everyone you come into contact with. Everyday is a struggle. Every hour is a caution tape. Living with it is like living in a gas chamber that is slowly leaking toxic fumes. Your breath is always caught. Your tears are always flowing. Even with therapy and medication for the symptoms, there is so much left to deal with. It never really goes away. At a moment's notice you can change feelings from “I love you” to “I hate you”. Having someone love you feels fake. Like you are never going to be loveable. That no one could ever love you. You’re too much of a burden. Too damaged to be loved. BPD is from trauma. And well, I have generations of it. No matter how much I try, no matter how much I grow it never feels enough. Emotions feel like suicide. Thoughts scream too loud. Demons control you like a puppet unable to run away. Hallucinations come and go. You really never know when they'll come or go. Sometimes the episodes will be minutes, others months. Distance or slightest voice change feels like abandonment. Happiness or peace feels like an illusion. Losing someone is like the world is the knives across your skin. Anger feels like jumping off a cliff. Every time someone tries to comfort or love you feels like a trick. You either feel alone or feel like a god. Living with BPD is the hardest thing to live with. It's comparable to giving my children up for adoption. Either you’re high on top of the galaxy or you’re at rock bottom over and over in a vicious cycle. We are so stigmatized. People think we are “ticking time bombs”. Hell I’ve even had therapists leave or deny me because of it. For all of my borderlines out there, you deserve love. You deserve happiness. You can’t just cope, you have to heal. It will take every ounce of self control and inner power to get through each episode. But I promise you when you find peace, true peace you’ll know what I’m talking about. Your trauma does not make you. You are not your trauma. You are not crazy. You are not a burden. Just hang tight, we’ve got this. 

Honestly, I'd rather believe it's going to be a disaster and be pleasantly surprised, than trusting again and be disappointed at the outcome. The interview snippets with the staff do seem to indicate a more faithful take on the books, but it was also kind of the case with the movie at first and we all know how that turned out, so :/ Here's to hoping Eoin Colfer and Disney Theatrical make me eat my words o7

So apparently there is going to be a musical theatre adaptation of Artemis Fowl. I love musical theatre, but honestly I just cannot see this going well.....

For the wip ask game: I saw Daemons on the list and actually made an audible sound of interest, so may I hear more please? :3c

It was actually a drawing I started working on after having so many delightful conversations about a daemons AU with @bittersuite-iv ; I never went past the sketching phase, mostly because the size disparity between Butler and smol Artemis and Juliet was giving me too much trouble :’) And also because I was struggling with drawing Butler, I feel like I should completely rework his silhouette to make him more buff, right now he looks completely off. Fun fact, instead of finishing this fan art I did my breakfast one instead ^^” Maybe one day I’ll find the courage, and revamp and finish this.

Here’s the wip, because you did ask nicely 💜

The plot : Juliet and her monkey daemon have been up for mischief. Artemis and his daemon have been pranked, Artemis is very upset. Butler is not amused.

I do like some of the details on this one, especially Juliet and Artemis’ daemons and their expressions ^^”

🤝

If this isn't on your list of funniest scenes in any movie ever, the only conclusion I can draw is you haven't seen this movie

@yourdeargatsby ... I'm sorry what ?! You have said too little and also too much here, I need explanations x') As for me, hmm... I sewed my own wedding dress, entirely by hand. It was dark purple, and the third thing I sewed in my entire life ^^" And it looked quite okay !! I was very proud of myself.

tagging (sorry if you've been tagged before) : @valhelos @joellalovestoread @weeinterpreter

it's so weird to me that everyone on this website is a human person outside of their weird internet niche so rb this with a random bit of your lore

😡 Reluctant allies 😡

I just love early series Artemis and Holly foes-to-frenemies dynamic. Even though they hate each other's guts, you can feel that Artemis respects and looks up to Holly ; and that Holly empathises and genuinely wants to understand Artemis. I'm relatively pleased with Artemis' suit ; I absolutely despise drawing suits with every fiber of my being. ... Which is a little bit of an issue when you want to draw Artemis Fowl, as you can imagine.

Don't look at the background though. It's trash 🫠

🩵 Don’t let your spirit die, this is just a conflict of the mind 🩵

✨ !!! HYPERFIXATIONS COLLIDE !!!✨

I’m weeks late but the minute I heard my absolute beloved Aurora’s latest song ‘Conflict of the Mind’ I knew what I had to do. It’s a song that deeply moves me, I relate to it a lot but it also feels so much like something Artemis or Angeline would feel but never say out loud.

It was my first time drawing with an actual reference image (from the music video which you must absolutely check out if you haven’t seen it already), it was pretty fun and I do like the end result, even though shadows still prove to be my ultimate nemesis.

Thanks @laeliana for tagging me !

Rules: In a new post, list the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it! And then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

Artemis Fowl WIPs : - Fragments of Artemis Fowl - Pareidolia Agent (titre temp) - Experiments Weird III (trouve un titre merde) - Oiseaux moqueurs

Film WIPs : - Insubmersible - P(e)aupière - Carnation - Ctrl+Z - Couilles de chat (yes, I keep my fanfic WIPs in the same folder as my work WIPs. as one should)

I'm tagging @bittersuite-iv ! :3